Someday I might be a story,
Maybe, just a fragment of your history,
But it is the present now,
I will seize it because I know,
Time waits for no one,
Moments never freeze,
A touch from the breeze,
And the memory is shattered,
Like it never happened,
But for now I have you,
And you have me,
And we will be,
A "you and me".

I'll meet you by the carousel,
Where we'll kiss and never tell,
And when we leave we'll keep looking back,
Neither of us wanting to forget,
The good time we had.
We would text and we would call,
Do that same funny dance,
But that's not all.
We both know we're going to fall,
Neither can admit that right now,
It's better to just stall.

You won't run,
But you can't promise to stay,
We won't know if this feeling will fade away,
We spoke and we lay,
In the darkness of the day,
Arms and legs tangled,
As time passes away.

I'm in the middle
Of standing still
The crowd continues dancing to the beat,
I feel like I'm being knocked off my feet,
But no -
I have been stuck where I stand,
The same thing again, since I was 10.

Nothing has changed,
Dad remains
A wilful child.
Mum has left
My sisters are depressed
Emotions left undone

I sleep with my eyes open
My mind like the dawn
I think -
How much longer will this take
I am tiring of being the only one stuck
It's like I need a one tonne truck
To tow me away and away

I need to thread carefully,
Hush, I won't make a sound,
I don't want to run you to the ground,
And if I have to fall, fall slowly,
Don't let me down to harshly or too hard,
That's all I can really ask.

I'll take you eyes wide open,
Lips blood red bitten,
I'll run blindly through,
If it meant I'd find you,
On the other side of that door,
Don't run for the hills,
Even if I tell you to.

I would like to hope with you,
Be close and lean on you,
Maybe count on you too,
When I'm feeling down,
I hope you'll never push me around,
Dance with me, twirl me round,
We'll go up, round and round,
I promise - I'll never make a sound.

Every once I'm happy,
Twice I'm sad
Ice slides down my back
Don't do something you'd regret
My hands tremble
From the weight of my life
I am caught in my sentiment

Twice unhappy
Joy come back to me
Fly free on high winds
The damp, dark earth beckons
I push myself off the floor
Hark the shadows that awaken
Gone is my ephemeral sentiment

the scent of grass
rush of blood
adrenaline running
trembling nerves
the stench of fear stings

the missile soars
poised to ****
life to one
death to the other
tense binary

Sometimes I stop and think
You're so young, so full of joy
What would you know about
The bitterness of this life

So carefree you
Sway as you walk
Never doubting the dark corners
Barreling your way through

Then I stop and think
Are we meant for each other
Or will we break together?
Floating around in pieces?

What would you know of hate?
You've barely learnt to love
Who's to say your patience won't wane
When the moon shrinks smaller?

Today I turn 20
But my heart feels 80
With a face maybe 18
My mind runs on 90

I need but 3 seconds to cry
2 hours to stop
2 minutes to write
Maybe a lifetime to forget

And 20 seconds later...
The memories come flooding back.

Here I am sitting in a bus
Something so everyday
Motion in tandem
Here where thoughts stray
Where everyone drowns
In thoughts maybe not their own
Here where no eyes meet
But all eyes see
Everyone speaks without a word
Here we are, all in a bus.

Must you go - can't you stay?
And never look back - didn't you say?
Rosy and bright - the future looked that night,
Keys clanging in your pocket as we walked on by
X’s and O’s left behind

My greatest not-so-great regret
Washing your scent off me
Makes my heart ache daily.

I see you when you're not around
You're everywhere to me
Just like that once-popular song.

You may doubt that I really care
Oh but I do, so much that it scares me
Every night I lay awake.

My greatest not-so-great regret,
I shall share with you my latest great regret;
I don't have you all to myself...no...not yet.

A lone flower stays
Where the broken vase lays
Busking in the sun's dying rays.
Will it thrive or will it die?
The leaves look to the light
Petals gently curling in sight

As the sun sets
There is no room left for regret
As with all that's said and done
It is not uncertain
It cannot be undone
Don't look back and carry on.

As the flower dies,  
The stars watch the moon rise.

You think I don't see you
Oh no...but I do.
You feel I don't know you
Oh no...but I do.

A mind so old
Saddled with a young soul
Deceives the sharpest eye
Passing through guarded hearts.

Oh no...just not mine.

Tomorrow is another day
But yesterday is still today
What's gone is lost and will never come back
The lessons learnt always make me squirm with hurt
But I'll get stronger each time
So turn around and walk away

You act like everything's okay,
So I shall treat you that way,
Until the day you decide,
That you don't want to stay away.

It's alright for things to be this way,
You're not ready yet
I won't try to make you sway.


Even if I want to -
I can't make you stay.

The fork in the road
Two halves of a whole
Which side will you take?
What choice will you make?

Will you smile away and say
Your choice was right
Or will you fade away?
Hoping that time will turn back one day?

Sometimes.
No, almost all the time,
I think I,
When I,
Look at you hard enough,
It's almost as if you're real,
Bright, like starlight,
Shining diamond in the rough,
I see you still with my eyes shut tight.

Bright, too bright,
Painful to look at.
You scare me like that,
Yet I'm still drawn to you,
It is a fact.

Bright, too bright,
I will hide from your light.

You, with your wondering eyes and fair skin,
I wish I could spend an afternoon with you,
Again--just like we used to,
But you've gone with your new girl,
And--as much as I want to,
I just can't take that away from you.

I hope one day you'll recall
The words you wrote well
To me, in me, they will always have a place
I won't forget you, you knew me well--too well
Even if I have been washed away in the swell
Of your new memories.

Would you feel it if I shattered -
Hold me in pieces like I mattered?
If I told you I needed more than the moon
Would it hurt to pay attention?

Singing me sweet nothings
I can hear you, feel your breath on my skin.
If your words were worth its weight,
I swear; I wouldn't need the moon again.

But if, sweet, terrible, tantalisingly soft-
If,
This if,
Makes all the difference.

We could've met on a side walk
Or bumped in a corridor
Either way we would've crossed
Even if you're away, away, away,
The memories we had are here to stay

You jumped in with both eyes closed
Never did you think I'd know
More about you than you did yourself
But it's okay, I'm alright
I'm glad I'm standing by your side

We could've sat side by side
On a bus, a train, a bar
But what matters is our lives have crossed
Though now you're gone, gone, gone
Memories of our time are now one

You jumped in with both eyes closed
Never did you think I'd know
More about you than you did yourself
But it's okay, I'm alright
I'm glad I'm standing by your side

We met one day, some sunny day
Knowing nothing about "the right way"
To start, maybe loving again.
But there's threads connected, hearts that fluttered
We said things we never thought we'd say again.

You jumped in with both eyes closed
Never did you think I'd know
More about you than you did yourself
But it's okay, I'm alright
I'm glad I'm standing by your side

I stand on the edge and peek
As expected it is there,
What I seek.
It is my friend, a fickle one I know-
Without some luck it'd be a foe.

I fly, I fly, it takes me high
So high I become blind
Then I fall, I fall, I free fall
There's no other way
To come back down.

Love, love, love
A thing you know
(or think you know)
This same friend
That might be your foe.

a carp said to a guppy
why are you so grumpy
and the guppy replied
sometimes feelings are hard
Blake was right.
hell in heaven's despair,
and heaven in hell's despite alright.

ah, said the carp.
whether it is they who should be considerate,
or you?
which do you think is better of the two?
let it go and you'll feel more at ease.
one can never do as they please.

with that parting sentence,
down went the guppy,
in darkness, surprise and fear
without a scream no one would hear
into the carp.

Finally, thought the carp,
The Guppy shut up.

are you having the time of your life?
i hope you are, somehow.
did i make the wrong move?
can't seem to stop running in circles in my head.

i can look back into the past,
but the future is foggy
no one knows.
took the chance, i did.

i leaped...

...into a great pothole of ****.
you'd have to **** me before i admit
i landed myself in this *****.

This blank page haunts me
Daring me to fill up the lines
Defining words
To try describing the universe
Transcribing between the lines
A little tool too often used
Softer than a whisper
Sharper than a sword

Blasted manifestos
Speeches lapped up by leeches
Letters of love
Declarations of hate
Signatures for war
Who am I to dictate?
From the scrawls on my little page

But present still is “what if”—
When script fails
What is left?
Nothing but smudges
Faint remnants of faded pasts
Moving to fill blank spaces
Nibs dancing across white pages

I feel like I've been looking from afar
So detached, a door left ajar.
I'm wondering what I should do
To bring myself back to you.

But coming back has its hardships too
Your heart may have stopped
Or another could then be with you
I don't know if my confidence will come through

Our minds are weary
Its time to take a break
Your heart feels heavy
Oh, how I know, it sinks.


Yet, would you still brave the wild for me?

When you go walking down the street,
Who is it you wish to meet?
The best friend who once saved your life?
The ex lover that left you standing on the side?
Or maybe the family you wish you never had.

The world has changed and along with it the people.
Everyone from the north to south pole
Too busy to even think about themselves,
Let alone the poorer people
Everyone struggling through life to meet death

Wondering what it was all for when they meet the end
What was it all for in the end?

But you and I know we will never see the end
It hits us before we can defend
Questioning yourself will make your head cramp
Life has a way of flashing past, so fast
Too short for anything last.

You can't see it clearly
Everything is so blurry
Images flash by in a flurry
So who would you wanna meet?
When you go walking down the street?

Hope is like a church bell ringing,
The peace that calms a childling,
Bringing everyone's soul up-lifting,
Whenever troubles come a-knocking.

You said that you love me,
You said you weren't bored,
You promised you would treasure me,
And never let me part.

But even though you said you'd never lie,
You must have at some point.
Because all those things I've said above
Have now become untrue.

I close my eyes to the world,
In the dark depths of the night,
To wake to the next weary dawn,
My head waits for infinite rest,
For it to come calling,
I would be glad.

before you think of a solution,
you need to regard the problem.
but where there is a problem,
there will always be a solution waiting to be found.
easy way or hard way,
it will come one day.
before your patience starts to fade away,
don’t let your mind stray.