Nowhere
I live in nowhere
a  sanctuary
for any who have ever been weary

But even the weary get bored
And the bored do drastic things
Be weary in the nowhere
For those who tempt and tease
May have been as you

Seeking nowhere
a sanctuary
for any but be wary

I'm going to take everything you had,
and thought you had.
But really it was never yours to take, not yours to use at leisure and take for granted.
You got bored...
I'll make it so you aren't bored.
Won't be this happy bored little thing, to sit with when you feel like.
I'll keep your mind occupied with all you had
...
And all you lost

3 a.m
I've beaten the sun again
I quietly make my way around the room
Gathering my things
You lay totally covered

Blankets wrapped around you in a cold room
I want to crawl back into our warm bed
Back your arms
Back to our love

To peal back the covers and just sleep
pull them tightly over us
while you hold me tighter
...
But it's 3 a.m again
And I must beat the sun

You...

                   Fights break out
Words cut and leave wounds


                               They heal
Into beautiful scars

                         You apologize
You are truly sorry

                        I know you are
I accept your apology

There is only so much I can do
So much I can take

                          Fight...again
Scars are opend once more

                       Blood...its red
  It reminds me of a river

          Of tears I refuse to cry
But I want to

You...

                  Make it better
Clean my wounds

                    Kiss my scars
Call them beautiful

                And threw it all
Love

*You love me & I love you

Don't...
Say you, give me the world
The moon and the stars
A galaxy of wonders

She wants a cage,
With the door left open.
Because,
She will always come back.

There is a force
A strong one
Keeps me grounded
Puts sense into my head when I have none
Leads
But not from in front of me
From beside me
Letting me go and come
Holding me tight
But not suffocating me
Fixing things that are broken
Giving me hope
When there is none
Finding the light
When there is only darkness

Days and Weeks
Months and Years...
Seconds and Minuets
Hours and Days
What a cycle...

"This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones that think they can"
- Greg Laswell

This is a nuclear world
I walk by fields along a paved road
I don't smell the flowers or the grass
Fire and ash is all that fills my nose
Pavement burns the bottom of my feet
I walk along the dirt and grass that litters the side
Where is the clean crisp air?
Why does this field smell like a burnt husk?
Maybe it knows, the trees no longer dance
The grass and trees, flowers no longer sway in the breeze,
They know that their time is short
Soon they will be plowed over and filled in
Human will char the beautiful Earth

There will be nothing left but
Fire and Ash
the smell of nothing left

I let you go
My
Friend
Companion
Commitments
My love
I let you go
I let it all
Go

You can't have her and I
I will not be picked second for I was the first
And I will never be second

I let you go
Because you are not my number
One

I loved him,
Broke him to love you.
Loved you,
You broke me, to love her.
She didn't love you.

Now I've let him fix me.
You are broke, because,
I no longer laught cry smile frown
For you.

Love is a horrible tortured tired thing, the heart is fickle and the mind is numb.

Forgive
and
Forget

Live
and don't
Regret

Strive
and
Thrive

Fight
just to
Stay *alive

Meeting new people is dangerous.

I see the old photos
I left mine up
You left yours up

I looked at them today
It hurt
But I left

I chose this time
I can't look back
I'll just keep walking

Keep running
Even if there was a better
Choice in you

I need to find me
But I stopped to quickly again
I should've kept going

Kept running
Now I'm at a stand still
I'm looking back

The past is catching up
I need to go again
But I like it here...

I'm stuck in the middle
Of this road
Just before the fork

You refuse to sing
"Sing for me, please?"
"No"

I thought you'd grown comfortable enough with me
To let me in
Let me help

Who could have hurt you so badly
To make you so quiet

Listen
I hear you
You sing strong and beautiful

The shower cannot hide the tears or your voice
Let me in
Let me hear you

I know you like to sing
I can hear that smile on your lips
Where is should always sit

Let me hold you when you cry
Let me hear you when you sing
Don't run away and hide

I wish you could see
Just for a day
Come please

Sing for me

Let me curve around your heart,
Let it be my center.
Every beat I live for
Makes me whole
Warms my soul

Then months later you'll pick out my center my soul will cry and protest
My heart gone.

"How'd you get to be so unhappy?"
" I loved too many people, trusted, I was myself."

I found it

It...

Love...

Is it real?

How do I know?  

I think I have it now...

It's starting to grow...

Every second away from you is like years

Come back to bed

Please stay here...

If I am to fall
Let me fall hard
Let me hit the ground and shatter myself

But If I am to fly
Don't cut my wings
Let me be free
Let me see from the sky
Way Up High

Heaven won't let me in.
I stood at the gates and everyone just looked at me, no one came to me
No one let me I saw a few weep
The gates far to steep

...

Then a beautiful angel stood beside me
His eyes held a fire red
it burned my very soul
I took his Hand and we decended
I watched the sky of gold disappear and down I went.
It was dark then light
It is beautiful my smile was growing, warmth filled me.
I am home.

The devil told me I deserved nothing less than to be
Queen
To rule by his side.

Queen sounds good to me
And my king so handsome and as hard as I
Queen.

Then you showed up in shackles,
The man who broke me
...

The devil smiled
I frowned

I must choose
you to the pit and be a Queen,
Or
let you go let you be happy and loose the chance of eternal happiness
...

Here we stand my love,
Do you remember the hurt you put in me?
The pain and cold you left?
I broke so many after you just trying to heal myself and it took my life.

...

Once upon a time I would have saved you.
I would have given anything to keep the pain away from you

But that was long ago and since you have faded
To a distant memory

...

I look into you and I can see you hurt when you hurt me but you did it anyways
I see your pain now.
But I see nothing,
Feel nothing
You crushed my heart killed my soul
This is your doing, you signed your own death certificate.
Away you go my love
For I am Queen

...

And I rule now