I was loyal
I was brave
I was kind
I was not the one
Who was saved

I loved you
I was fair
I thought you loved me
You pushed and pushed
I kept coming back

I tried and tried
You push and push
Now it's all cracked
My heart is cold almost black
Now here I stand

Alone at last
You left me here
I was loyal
I am brave
I will strike out on my own

You need saving
No one will help you
I tried and tried
Turns out
I needed to be saved from you

Everybody has found that person they are looking for, it's the people who don't let them go that are the smart ones.  Don't search for something you already have.

I honestly feel lost right now, I miss home witch is my loft, but there is nothing left for me there.  So I'm kinda just drifting along trying to hold my small sinking boat together.  A rope here, scoop out the water there.

“Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?  Will you still love me when I've got nothing but my aching soul?”
— Lana Del Rey

How come I don't break this glass
How come I don't break this jar

You walk by and my heart beats hard
My light it sparks
You pause, then Continue on
I stay on the shelf
Captive to you
A star at a loss
Plucked from the Galaxy

This place my own prison
My own hell
So I'll be here
On this shelf and I'll wait
If only to see you pass by one more time

How long will this take
I need to get going

It's clear
The path ahead

We love with a special kind of hate
So powerful

It's toxic,
Not the kind of infection you can
Cure

A easy as breathing
Then my lungs filed with water.
You watched me struggled as I coughed
I fought to cough us up to get it all out

Then I stopped coughing, I got up and moved away.
You walked the other way, I did not follow.

Then you wondered why I didn't give chase.  
You should be chasing me dear and if you're not too bad...
I'm running far far away!

I've been waking up with smudges of makeup on my face,
Falling asleep in the middle of our conversations.  
I don't think I'll hold out though
Hope is useless I've learned a bit in the past few years.
So I'll just do me and wakeup each day.

I slept
The darkness is consuming quiet and lovely
but light begins to trickle in
from behind the curtains it spreads.
but the night has not left my bed
it dances in my head
my head still swims and eyes still burn
I can feel again but it all hurts when will I learn
I take the glass from the stand
and why not, I'm not ready to land,
won't let this buzz of a high end
my head will swim and I'll just coast
because you are the one I love the most.

In the between...
between happiness and sadness
love and hate
between friend and foe
when a lover...
lets go
just before the fall
when you hit the ground

In the between there is nothing
a numb
a blackness that lasts a moment
We wonder was it worth it?
If you should get stuck in the between
find a way out
there is danger...it's unseen

So hurry and pick a side
go for happy that's where love resides
if you jump do so quickly, and crash down hard
get up and dust off faster than you fell
Find your way out follow the light
someone is waiting just on the other side

The road is red, cracked and crumbling
The sun is held by grey and gold clouds
Unparked cars run out of time
A few turn over but many more just
Tick tick tick
Onward down a less congested highway
The city towers high ahead
A city of lights!
Reduced to a city of starry nights
Travel the road of twisted trees
Come upon a families memories
Lush green grass with plenty of room
A house of past doom
Inside it's perfectly preserved never to be disturbed

In a different time
A child swings outside
While mother idly cooks
Her belly a small bump
But that's only what may have been

I see only a sad house with a nursery
Perfectly left unused

“The truth is, one day we’ll drift apart, you’ll forget the colour of my eyes, you’ll forget my brightest smiles. The traces I left on your heart will fade away and my world will turn grey because the truth is, my eyes will always crave your existence and my heart will always need your warmth, my mind will crave the sweet words you left me thinking about and the truth is, a soul like mine will never forget a heart like yours and so my world will indeed turn grey.”
drowning-at-3am

Today I awoke

One day
You wake up
Winter has frozen over
Cold and white
Beautiful and untouched

The next it's all
Mud and rain
No sun
Keeps you down

Two three days go by
The sound of birds
Green grass
Budding trees

The weather here
It's killer

For you?
You don't even know...

I'll tell you again, but just this last time
For this is the last time

I'd cross the ocean
I'd fight hells fire and heavens light
Pour my soul into a bottle
Put my heart in a box on your shelf
Give you all I had
If only to see you one last time

She got the radio up,
She got the windows down,
No she won't look back
Ain't no stopping her,
Ain't no stopping her now...

She's got the pedal to the floor in that hand-me-down Ford
Yeah, the only thing that's left to do
Is Catch a couple green light and those baby blue eyes
Are leaving nothing in the rearview
But dust, nothing but dust,
Dust, nothing but dust

          -Dust by Eli Young Band

Time has come
time has gone

I remain here
but soon I will be gone

Spend the time
here with me

I will always be here
all you have to do

Is look for me

What's so wrong
Everything always starts well
as time passes
Things lack words tangle
Feelings destroy you
All the wrong people want you
For a short time
You let them
take everything
Leave you, empty dark husk
Full of pain, regret, and anger
All things heal
scars are scars and pain is pain

“You could tie my tongue
My lips, my teeth
Split them into surrender
Into a foreign language
And I would still manage
To cough up your name.”

– Danielle Shorr

Take from me what i don't need
What I no longer want

Take my heart
To painful to have

Take it form me now
I'll gladly give it to you

I only have one request
that you do your best

As to not shatter it
Pieces are still healing

Maybe with a little time

The healing will be over
leaving it whole once more

Perhaps I am just wasting my time again.  
I look back and see all that I could have done if it weren't for my foolish young self
Believe it when they say young love is a waste...
I did not...

Too soon we must all grow up
so until then young lovers make haste
Be careful
Young love...
     *Is A Waste