I know my words are silent
When they fall upon your mind
And you don't know how you see me
For behind a screen I hide
I know who you are hurting
Though they don't know they know me
And I don't want to scare you
The way that you scare me

I'll remain here hidden
But helping if I can
Anonymously searching
For a way to grab your hand

I never thought
That I
Would break
The way that you
Broke me
I never though my
That I
Would shatter
So that splinters
Would be found
For months
After
You broke me
And I'm still
Breaking

As I take a single finger
And slam it on a key
The boy across the room
Looks across and smiles at me
A single ringing volume
In the single note of G
And we share a deep connection
Beyond all and anything

A buzz in my head
Louder than the songs
That keep sanity within me

Grinding at the notes
Blurring them
Warping beyond recognition

How to cope without sanity?

Every time I find him
He slowly slips away
Finds another person
To be with everyday
I drain my eyes about it
But I know that it's ok
Because in the end
He wouldn't like me sober anyway

I'm packed and I'm ready
To fly away home
Though honestly speaking
I don't want to go

I thought that I'd convinced myself that this time I would be okay
That I could get through goodbye without crying
That today
I would say
To myself the things that made me happy
But it looks like today
I've yet to find a way
To be okay
Knowing that I cannot stay

I show a strange fascination
In those I leave behind
And those who leave me wondering
What answers I will find

Will you seek me?
Did you?
Do you share my thoughts?
Do I follow pointlessly?

It's probably right the way that we drifted apart
Though I don't care for dancing around each other like a dying art

It's the little things
Little things push me down
Run me through
Run me down
Heartbreak is big
But it's the little things that do it

A little thing like
The inability to
Tell you how proud
I am of you
Of all that you do
Of all the big achievements
And the little things

Get out of my head
Stop making a nest
Of my fears
Of my hates
Of my pain

I feel like I'm drowning
And falling
And sinking
And I've never felt this way before
I can't find the ground
Yet I brush it beneath me
Not landing
But feeling
And I've never felt this way before
Never
Before

My lungs will not contract
For air does not exist
Within this dimension
Where I see my hands and wrists
My legs
My feet
But no-one else around me
Everything blurs
Maybe for the tears
Maybe for the lack of oxygen
I shake and quiver
Scream with no sound
For I cannot breathe

Love me if you love me
But don't if you can't
If you're gonna cut me free
Then use a knife that's sharp
Don't just gnaw at the rope of it
Or toy with the idea
Make a decision and and roll with it's tide
Yell it loud and clear

When you don't want to say
But you secretly think
More than hope
You know you deserve
But they don't give
And it's pain
Stabbing through your
Stomach
Eyes
Chest

When I leave I leave so much behind
Not only you but the essence
Of this place I wish to call home

Sweet coffee
Steps
Pizza above the theatre
Park behind the theatre
Arcades
You
Him
Her
All of you

I was in the bathroom
Away from the cause of my tears
No-one told me he was yours

My face was stained
But he caused a smile on my lips
No-one told me he was yours

I'd apologise 
I'd never if I'd known
But how was I to know?