I feel like
I am being run over by a train
hit by a plane
sunk by a storm and
destroyed by a nuclear bomb
all at once

I feel like
part of me is dying
which probably is and
I am becoming aware
that the now-me
will be gone in few seconds and
I want to say something significant
but I think too much
...and...
at the end I say nothing at all
...so I am regretting it already…

I need somebody to embrace me with their both hands
I need somebody that close to me stands

I need a friend that understands my suffer
I need somebody to protect me as my buffer

I need a tender human touch
I need it all so very much

I need only one hug
I need it, I need it like a drug

So be a pal and don’t look me from a distance
I need your hug to bear my own existence

Between me and myself, I am very lonely
If I could only...oh if only

If time could stop
for just a moment
freeze the instant
I have chosen
stop the seconds
let them dwell
**** the passion
from the cell

If life could pause
for just a while
make no drift
for a mile
to grasp the beauties
around me
to feel the wonders
my eyes see

If I could stop
or make a pause
If I could add
one more clause
to the pact
I’ve made with time
I would make this instant
a future must, like a constant
‘till the last

If we could halt like this together
with no whys and no whethers
and just ignore and delay
all concerns and let us stay
trapped in time for a while
stop our lives and just smile

...*If we could then we would!

If you are real please do not hurt me
My heart might be made of steel
But will melt the instant our eyes meet
Like lava does before turning into stone

If you are real please do no not hurt me
I might know how to fly
But my wings are made of dreams
The moment I wake up they will vanish into dust

If you are real please do not hurt me
I might be wise as the oldest tree
But my secret lies in the roots
If they dry out I will no longer be

If you are real please do not hurt me

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you word after word
With blue eyes and red lips
Like the dream I had that day
When my heart started beating again
As the rain whispered you exist

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you row after row
With curly hair and invisible wings
So we could fly together above the clouds
Embraced as now
Day after day waiting for the sunrise

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you page after page
With smiling eyes and gentle soul
Painted you in the colors of the light
So I could find you when it’s dark
And you could kiss me when it’s hard

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you poem after poem
Drawn you line after line
Until my mind went completely blank
For you have countless rainbows inside your soul
Without which the world would not exist

If you talk to your soul any time soon
Tell her I miss talking to her
Tell her I miss dreaming with her
Tell her I miss flying away with her

If you talk to your soul any time soon
Tell her I love her
Tell her I am glad we have met
Tell her that I am happy she found her home with you

One we are
When our story finds its way
through the labyrinth of
Endless puzzles
We put together
Just to lose our way
One we are and yet we are not

Same we are
Though different by the laws
We devise to protect
The broken mind
That once was soul
Same we are and yet we are not

Whole we are
And still divided into pieces
More than stars
the sky could ever hold
If you count them all
Whole we are and yet we are not

I lost 
What I never had
But it felt mine
I lost
A fight in my dream
That was never real
I lost
A kiss I was wishing for
But never came
I lost 
Time searching for an answer
To a question that was never asked
I lost 
Myself in a story
I wasn't even in 
I lost
A game to an imaginary friend 
In an imaginary world 
Imagined but not in my head 
I lost it

I gave up everything I owned so I could find my peace
At the end I was left trembling, naked and barefooted

I gave up everything I loved so I could heal my wounds
At the end they were even deeper

I gave up everything I believed in so I could re-claim my mind
At the end I lost the trust in my thoughts as well

I gave up everything that made me strong so I could forget the mistakes I made
At the end they were everything I could remember

I gave up the day because the night wins the fight at dusk
I gave up the night because it loses the battle at dawn

I gave up the one I became because this is not me
but a pale reflection of an imaginary non-existence

I never asked to be 
Your one and only
I never asked
For more than the
Time we shared
And all you did 
Is lie to me
And promised
Things that were never there

How long
Should one pretend
That the thing we have
Is at the end
How long 
Should one not see
There is no more
Of you and me

My heart is dumb
To your empty words
My ears are deaf
To the lies you say
My eyes are blind
To the things you do
I tried so hard
But it's the only way

When you have someone
Under your skin
It's never easy to let go
Never easy to get out
Of the inner circle 
Of such power

I see myself 
In the mirror 
At last my image 
Doesn't fade away
With you behind
My lonely past
Doesn't seem 
To be unfair

The scent of you was not new to me
It has filled my heart
Long before we have met
Long before I knew you existed
Outside of my crazy head

It was there when life passed me by
And all I knew were the rainy days
That cleansed my soul so I could rise
Each day like Phoenix does 

It took me back before I was born
When my mind was also just a soul 
And smiled at life as children do
When it had a thought of me and you 

The scent of you was not new to me
Cause you were always there in my dreams

Have you seen the passion
and the blurry eyes of two people in love?
Have you seen it?
Have you seen how their two bodies
are so close and don’t give any force
against the things
that the moment brings?
I have seen it and it is true
It is like a window with a perfect view
It’s like the river to the sea
Like the mountains and their tops
Like the first spring raindrops on the tender snowdrops
It’s like the top of a long lost *** and the dot to a spot
Like the leaves to the trees and the honey to the bees
It’s the revelation for our own salvation
I want to have the inner peace and forever feel like this

I think of you
I dream of you
I breath you in
then breath you out
Wanna whisper gently
but you make me scream loud

My dearest love, my one and only
Have you seen my lost soul lonely
Have you heard her silent cry
When she left with no goodbye

My faithful friend, my strongest rock
Have you heard my lost soul’s knock
Has she come to you somehow
Tell me please, tell me now

Unknown stranger from far away
Please do tell me, please do say
Have you seen my lonesome soul
She might have left or has been stolen

My long-lost soul, my deepest fear
I hope to find you somewhere near
Hope to bring you back home soon
Before next rising of the moon

My dearest soul please be brave
I’ll find you soon and keep you safe

From time to time
I drift away
Down by the sea
And let the waves
Break my shields
And set my spirit
Free

It's not that easy
But I like the way
They cleanse my soul
They wash away
My countless sins
And heal me
As I go

From time to time 
I drift away
With my spirit free
And I take a flight
Just at night
For in my dreams
I could see

From time to time
I drift away
Wishing you were too
It would be nice
To share a dream
With a drifter
Such as you

Lost smiles
Like lost birds
Walking the pavement
Of a forgotten city
That once was an empire
Of lost clouds
Seeking refuge
During summer months
When the sky was blue
So the sun could warm up
The souls of the lost loves
Wandering like lost ghosts
In an abandoned house
Dancing like the window shutters
Making music during summer storms
Lost smiles of lost loves
Is what I hear when I walk the streets
I wonder if you can hear them too
Since your soul left you

Evil words and vicious looks
only villains and brutal crooks
The human is one odd being
always blaming and disagreeing

Once it feels
once it hears
It falls asleep
in ****** tears

The dream is lucid, almost real
it holds him hostage and makes him kneel
He battles fiercely day and night
thrashing, screaming with so much fright

Hoping, asking
all the way
That the life of his
has no last day

Be strong You cursed child of God
there is no life under your facade
You need to free your soul of lease
stop the devil, find your peace

Until you ask for more battles
You won’t see the stars above
You won’t hear the sacred song
Nor could you tell right from wrong

The darkness doesn’t rule the day
The light will always find its way
So make your life of some worth
Be just human on this earth

**** **** Bang Bang
I'm a soldier without a rang

**** **** Bang Bang
I don't even have a gang

**** **** Bang Bang
I'll have to catch the new slang

**** **** Bang Bang
Am I ever gonna get the hang

**** **** Bang Bang
I have to find my yin-yang

**** **** Bang Bang
Why am I going mad?

**** **** Bang Bang
Why am I feeling bad?

**** **** Bang Bang
I don't want my feathers shed

**** **** Bang Bang
I have told I have said

**** **** Bang Bang
I'm alive but she is dead

A dark knight  
Riding alone
Across the starry sky
Ready for battle ready to fly

The battle is fearce
One could just tell
Fighting the evil
Out of hell

The evil is dark
That much he knows
As the fear inside
Continued to grow

The night is ice cold
And so is his shield
Instead of protecting
It made him kneel

Frightening scream
Woke up the wild
The knight was injured
Deep in the night

"Surrender"
"Never" screamed out the knight
He picked up the pieces
And continued to fight

The sun his faithful friend
Asked gently the moon to light up his way
It gave him hope
Of the new day

Angel carrying a lifeless body
Is what you could see at the end of the night
He might have lost this battle
But never the war

In his soul the light was still on

Ace of spades
Is what I got
When I listened to my heart
This one time
Miles away
From where I was born
I felt undressed
As nature does
When cherries blossom
I admired them when I walked into you
The darkness could not hide
Their naked beauty
Nor my surprise when our eyes met
I knew it was love that my heart played
To the notes of a symphony yet to be created
Only our souls could hear and
Would dance, just as I imagined
Yours forever whispered the wall
We lean against to kiss...
I can still feel the taste of you
No floor... Leave... you said
I left flying not because there was no floor
But the butterflies you awaken inside of me
Ace of hearts
Is what I lost
When I looked at you
The last time
When we said good-bye with our eyes
Too afraid to say it loud
Ace of love
Is what I took with me
To the other side of the ocean
But left my heart on the armchair
Next to the photo booth
So I could return soon

Good night my love
Let my tears quench your thirst during your sleep
Cause they are part of you
They ache for you
Feel them on your skin
As I do when wiping them off my face
You are a good soul
Free your mind of worries and
Let our dreams unite
I have found you
You have found me too
Let us be the one we were
Through the centuries
Let me love you so you could love me too
There is nothing more beautiful than that
Let this poem lead your dream
Out of the woods of worries
That is no place to be
I know, my love that you will find your way to me
So let my tears guide you to the right place you should be

I can feel your love
You are awaking too
It's such a good feeling
It's the dream that makes us fly
It's the dream my love
When I close my eyes and think of us
Let the image wake your soul
Let it put a big smile on your face 
And fill your heart with the sweetest dream
Love is simple if you let it in
Love is simple so let us dream

Drop by drop in a sea of sand
Lost among equal ones
You sell your soul
For a bit of time
But as seconds dwell
Your spirit dies
Your eyes get closed
And your body slows
The price is high
When you wish for more
Step by step haven’t moved
Past and present all the same
In an hourglass we are all alike
No one knows how to play the game

Northern lights
across the skies
make a dream
of a future time
Thunders
will rule the day
Lightening
will rule the night
Lips to lips embraced
Under the sky full of stars

Lost the rhythm
Lost the sense
Lost my time
Missed a chance

Lost the mind
Lost it slow
Sold my freedom
For a show

Lost myself
Lost my dreams
Let them fall
As the leaves

Lost my way
Lost it all
Lost my body
And my soul

Lost in future
Lost in past
Watched my burden
Make a blast

Lost the battle
Not the war
Picked the pieces
From the floor

I lost the one
Who I used to be
But built myself
A new me

Lost is good
For a while
As long you keep
Your inner smile

Running over a bridge that falls apart behind us
With  no turning back
Nor a button for rewind
No magic pen
Nor eraser for the things we don’t like
Only forward hoping for
That the new day will bring us more
As we run over a bridge that falls apart

Walking over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is what we do
As the pace gets slower
And we forget how to run
With no wind in our backs
Letting burden from our past
Take over our lives
As we walk over a bridge that falls apart

Crawling over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is the only thing we know
As we take our lives to go
The good and the bad
The smiles and the tears
Every single moment
That has made us real
As we crawl over a bridge that falls apart

Flying over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is something we are wishing for
As soon as we lose some of the burden
We drag with us
As a memento of a future
That has already passed
Dreaming about lost freedom
As we fly over a bridge that falls apart

Love came
When I was on my own
Love came
When I was left in the cold
Love came
when I was barefoot
Love came
And gave me hope
Love came
And gave me warmth
Love came
And broke the spell
Love came
To fetch me out of hell
Love came!

One plus one is never two
When we speak of me and you
When our hearts dance in step
There is only one in true romance

In time when love leaves the floor
The hate we foster shuts the door
One plus one stands alone
With a minus sign between two souls

Love equations are a simple thing
We either fly or we have no wings
One is one no matter what
There is no two, there is no none

My dearest one from afar
My broken heart with a scar
Sends a message that I wrote
With my love most devoted
Let the clouds take it to you
Let them dance let them float
When they see you from above
Let them touch you with my love
Let them whisper in your ear
Wake your heart and disappear
My dearest one don’t despair
close your eyes and I am there

Summer spoils me with all the sunny days
Autumn colors my life in fiery red
Winter calms me down
But Spring...
Spring makes me think everything is possible

When with you
I loose the ground beneath
I loose the feeling of time

You take me embraced
To a world of ours
Where time is not a matter
Where there is only me and you

Oh you haven’t been in love
I can see that in your eyes
Let me show you
Let me guide you
It’s the only place to be

I am your cloud
So start chasing me
Cause the wind is strong in my back
You don’t want to loose me
There is no place for fears
There is no time to postpone
To find your soul mate
Is finding yourself
Don’t get disturbed by the devil
He will disappear when our both hearts melt together
He is challenging us
Because he is not a believer
But we are

So take my hand and let us fly
We were born to find ourselves
And take that flight
Can’t you see
Can’t you feel
It’s not about the differences
We are all unique
It’s about you and me and what we can become
An Inseparable being

Think about it
Take your time
But you cannot hide behind your diligence
My thoughts are much too clear and much too honest not to feel them
Being in Love is the final destination not a station that you should miss
So free your soul of the fears because they are not real
When we are together we are the ones we should be
A mountain flower that finds refuge under the cloud
That will stay there forever to protect him
Love is what it is all about

You called me Love
You made me smile

You called me mine
You made me cry

You called us Love
and that we are

Just You and I
and Love we are

Ids and shadow selves
Wandering around
Forgotten like leftovers
Of unwanted takeaway
Neglected and repressed
Fed by our collective values
And abusive behaviours
A selfless act of a conscious psyche

In a disruptive reality
Used as an antidote for the painful truth
Failing to fail
Just to stay hurt
Missing the obvious
But dreaming of the unknown
Like great artists we admire
The self-orchestrated theft of our lives

Fallen short of an ideal that doesn’t exist
Not even in our thoughts
We wander around
Cultivating dullness and immorality
Covering our tracks with false beauty and self-esteem
Leaving our souls behind
Hiding the madness
Once called LOVE

Hey, you there with the broken wings
embrace the things that the moment brings
Catch the message between the lines
It's no time to pay the fines

Let the new day bring you strength
Find your deepness not the length
Free the rabbit in your heart
you deserve a brand new start

Scare away the ravens too
throw away the broken shoe
Take a sip of the future-self    
sweep the dust from the shelve

The world is round from above
Find yourself a new love
Find yourself a new affection
Let this be the first selection    

The grass is green and the skies are blue
That is all that is true
Be yourself till the end
Be that one and never bend

*That's the message from a friend

We made the sun aware
That there was something in the air
And the one thing it should do
Is to follow me and you

We made the sky feel jealous
And from being just grey
started being blue
because of me and you

The stars started dancing
To keep up with our happy souls
But there is nothing they could ever do
That can make them feel like me and you

Why can’t mirrors talk to me

          Why
                           Why

Why can’t they hear me cry

          Why
                           Why

Why can’t they give a hug

         Why
                            Why

Why can’t they bring some luck

          Why
                            Why

Why can’t mirrors reflect the soul

          Why
                            Why

Why can’t they fill the hole

         Why
                            Why

Why can’t they show the way

         Why
                           Why

Why can’t they make you stay

          Why
                            Why

*Why can’t mirrors let me be more there is in them to see

Behind a wall of curtains
I slept longer
The night
I was supposed to be awake
The moonlight
Gave me warmth
To mend my wounds
And forget the ache
I felt weightless
Like the air
****** up
By a candle light
As the gate
Behind my shadow
Closed its wings
Deep in the night
A secret world
I thought at first
As I entered
With an empty heart
A meadow
Filled with dreams
Of Gods
Waiting to be picked up
A pleasure hunt
A voiceless whisper
Revealed the secret
I’ve kept so long
A rush of blood
To the head I felt
As I lost my body
To a distant song
Shameless truth
Made me blush
As the pleasure
Crawled down my spine
I felt alive
As I walked inside
This secret world
That was now mine
As I went on dancing
With the dream I’ve picked
From the fairest meadow
My eyes have seen
The empty heart
I took along
Started singing
The unknown song
As the sun came up
And the curtains fell
I closed my eyes
And turned my back
Took my heart
Filled with joy
And walked away
Step by step

Oh what a night this one has been
I danced embraced with my dream

Nearly impossible and
still here we are You and Me
because the impossible
is in our genes
You put the unreachable
at my reach and
make the unimaginable
just a simple effort

With just a word You tame my troubles
Your funny wit makes
the bad thoughts disappear
Your silly ideas put a smile on my face
And when I feel lost
You are always there
to show me the right direction

Nearly impossible and
still here we are You and Me
because the impossible
is in our genes
Don’t You ever forget this fact
You are the miracle that
gives my heart the perfect tact

Each night I dream of a dancing muse
Moving to the music only we could hear
Tone by tone like drops of rain
Falling gently on her hair

As I close my eyes she makes me see
Blurry pictures of an unknown world
Though it feels like home I am never there
Like drifter lost along the dusty road

When the morning breaks she fades away
As the ink of a long lost letter
But as the moon shows up on the starry sky
We dance again, my muse and I

I am yours Love
My heart is beating in your hands
You My Love
You are its owner now

If it is thirsty Love
Give it a potion of honest words
Because without it my Love
Without it will fade away

If it is hungry Love
Feed it with honest intentions
Because without them my Love
Without them it will stop beating

If it is sleepy Love
Sing to it a honest song
Because without it my Love
Without it will never wake up

Don't worry Love
My smile will be your guidance
I am not worried Love
Your eyes will be my guardians

Because they my Love
They are the door to your deepest secrets
And I my Love
I am holding the only key

Never ever doubt your dreams
They will guide you without your consent
Through the storms and rainy days
Trough the blue and starry skies
When the sun has gone away
On the other side of this world of ours
When the moon is all you see
In the countless lonesome hours
Never ever give up your search
There’ll be times when you think the hope is long gone
There’ll be times when you’ll need just a long rest
There’ll be times to give up your brain
There’ll be times when your heart will bleed through your nose
There’ll be times to wash the sorrow away
There’ll be times when you will have no friends
There’ll be times when they are all that you got
There’ll be times when you’ll feel like a fool
There’ll be times when you’ll crawl part of the way
But the sun is waiting for you
And the moon will smile at your face
The wind will kiss you so softly
The clouds will teach you to dance
The river will teach you to sing
Even the edelweiss will make you think
It is the most beautiful in the whole wild world
So never ever give up your dreams
and never ever give up yourself

You don't shoot a flying angel
You don't crash their tender wings
You don't let them ever fall
Nor you take them straight to hell

You don't say your deepest fears
Nor you tell what lies beneath
When it hurts they will know
Angels feel with their soul

If you ever come across an angel
That wants to take you up blue sky
Drop your shield from the start
And let the angel touch your heart

So never shoot a flying angel
They are more than just a stranger

No stranger
You are to me
Though we have just met
It seems you have the right keys
But I have never borrowed you mine

How come this is so real
How come
How come you opened my soul
How come

No stranger
You are to me
No stranger
You are

I might look sad
With tears in my eyes
But I am not ashamed
I am really used to cry

As the night falls upon me
I am trying to confess
But the pain deep within
Doesn’t hurt me less

My dreams might have all fail
And it feels like hope has left me too
But the fighter deep inside
Isn’t giving up any time soon

Whichever route I take
Whatever path I choose
I am looking just ahead
There is nothing more to lose

The walls of stones
Between our souls
And the river
Made of salty tears
Make me safe on this side
At least that is how I feel

The walls are strong
And that is good
To fight this battle
Is not worth

It took billions of years and a big bang
To come where we are
Billions of stars were born and died
In the darkest hour on a canvass of light

Billions of people have walked this earth
Billions more will come and go
Billions of rainfalls and armies of clouds
But what are billions compared to now