I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Read your words
Hear your voice
Hold you close
And feel your warmth..

And I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Finally drown
In this ocean
Of endless sadness
And just slip into gray..

Right now
I feel both
And I need you here
To lie to me and say
Everything is ok
And you're going to stay..

Your touch is like sin
I'll still give in

I know it's wrong
But it's all I want

Your lust infects me
Courses through my veins

I know it's not right
It'll only fuel the fight

Your voice soothes me
It moves me

I know I should run
But the game has only just begun

Oh, we had it all
Bridges burnt
In love, ready to fall
Alienated,
But still together
We made it

Soul mates, you said
Forever, you said
"It's better to have loved and lost"
Well, I disagree
I'd rather have
Never loved at all

Liar, Liar, Liar
You're a *******
*******
I hope that one day
Cancer
Is what you get

You're weak
Pathetic
A child, really
"I feel like a man"
Really?
I don't understand

A man could work
He could try
He'd hang in there
When things weren't right
But you couldn't
You're no man

You're a sad little boy
With a little **** complex
Maybe that's for good reason
It's not like you were
Any good at pleasing
Hehe I know, I shouldn't have..

It really is shocking
That someone like me
Could trip and stumble
And fall right into
That hole in the ground
Filled with happiness and tears
Filled with risks and fears
That we all call love

I never thought
That I could ever
Be so utterly consumed
By one man
By one soul
And sometimes
It shakes me to the core
I cry a little more
Every single time
You say, "I'm glad you're mine"
We can stay this way forever
Fill our infinity with each other
Hold on to one another
And, as always, I'll cry a little more
Tears Of Joy

That was supposed to be me
I'm supposed to be the one with you right now
Calling you baby and holding your hand
Kissing your cheek and making you laugh

I remember when it was
When you were faithful and you cared
I remember how sweet you were
I remember when you turned

Was it your friends?
Or was I just not good enough?
It's times like this when I miss you
I was tempted with the thought of you and now I'm relapsing

I have a love
I have someone better
But still I sit here in tears
Wishing I could still call you my dear

And I know if he read this, he'd wonder why
Why am I not satisfied?
Well, I am. He's more than enough
I just can't function through this brokenness sometimes

I don't want you back..
I just want to know you
I just want to see your face and still be ok
I don't want you back

It hurts to think about it
It still gives me nightmares sometimes
And still stings my chest
But I'm not giving in

I won't text you no matter how bad I want to
I won't say I love you even though it feels like routine
I won't assume to position of my arms around you
I won't break and do what you want me to

But it's so hard
When I still have your number
Still want to run to you and hold you
Still wish to be your everything

I want to hurt you more though
For all this pain you've caused
And for how you've broken my trust
And left me damaged

I just wish I'd never asked your name
Never given you a hug
Or gave you my number
Never put up with the racist laughter

I stood up for you
You knew I was true
And you used it
Why didn't I see it?

I still lie to myself
Saying if I were to see you today
That you'd want me
You'd still need me

I'm too stupid
Too broken to know
But my heart now belongs to another
And he's putting it back together

Marry me
Marry me right now
Take me and keep me
In holy matrimony
Forever and always
That's all I ask
You're all I'll ever need

Baby, let me hold you one last time
Give me this chance to call you mine
I know you won't miss me
But I'll always yearn for you here

Baby, let me love you one last time
Give me this chance to trace your tattoos
I know you don't care for my innocence
But I gave it to you anyway

Dear, allow me to feel your skin
Let our bodies move once more with grace
I'll open myself to you once again
I'll entertain your wondering hand

Dear, allow me to wear your lust
Let our movements synchronize as we sigh
I'll release this tension within
I'll caress your face as you enter in

Sometimes I feel lonely
I'm not alone
I have a boyfriend
And great friends
But within myself
I feel abandoned
I feel lost, abused, and afraid
But mostly I'm lonely
I don't know why
All I know is I'm dying inside
It's horrible in my mind
I need stability
I need internal security
It's terrible to be lonely

Does it taste sour?
The bitter hand of reality
It used to feed you
But you bit it

Does it feel painful?
The sharp blade of death
It used to protect you
But you abused it

I hope it's disgusting
I hope it stings
Because the truth
Is relentless

Words once so tangible
Phrases so easily written
Character after Character
Flowing so elegantly
Cascading flawlessly
Dripping from ****** lips
And filled with a ******'s confidence

Artistic expression
Which can only flourish
In the shallow waters
Of innocence's temper

Dreams clinging foolishly
Fueled by nonexistent beliefs
In nonexistent things
Unknowingly temporary
Oh, so faithful were they
As they faded into memories
And we drained every ******* bit

Purity once so present
Talent once so black and white
Blurs into grey, stoner stories,
Pipe dreams, and *Childish Things

I WANT TO LOVE YOU
AND ONLY YOU

You thought it would be innocent
Always thought I was heaven-sent
A demon, from Hell I made my ascent

Life is like a box of chocolates
People don't read any guide
And we take a bite out of everything
To see whether we like it or not

The scandal burned red hot
As it kissed my lips with hidden passion

The temptation tasted sweet
As it entwined with my modesty

The confusion set in deeper
As right and wrong blurred into grey

A phrase said so much
It's almost lost its meaning
Started so important
So influential

It has lost its touch
Because it's said too much
Not often thought through
It's now a reflex

Take this seriously
I mean it truly
You are my everything
I Love You

Why the **** should I be sober?

All you've ever done is **** me over!

I'll drink, I'll smoke.

I'll do ******* till I go broke!

Cuz when I needed you, you weren't there.

But it's whatever, I don't care.

I need someone who wreaks of cannabis
A guy with moscato sitting on his lips
With the stress of nicotine on  his mind
And the threat of bankruptcy in his kiss
One who makes it snow when he sniffs
And lets me go when he finally quits

Sometimes I sit in my room
And I cry my eyes out

Sometimes I cut myself
And let the blood out

Sometimes I wanna slit my throat
And bleed out

Sometimes I wanna run away
And get out

I miss the way things used to be
Back when it was just you and me
In the backroom, smoking a doobie
Making love better than they do in the movies
Showing each other crazy new things
Giggling, we were always laughing
Holding each other like otherwise we had nothing

Now, i sit here all alone
I only see you through my phone
It's been so long now you've been gone
And we're both finally almost grown
And neither of us has wanted to move on
I thank God I get to call you my own
And right now I can't stop staring
                       at your picture on my phone

I cry, beg you please
Scream
Scratch desperately


Why?
Why not me?


****** words
Empty minds
Broken hearts
Lost in time


Open the doors
Let in the contraband
Crimson stained skin
Take me, I'm yours


Guess it's only right
To give in to the fight


You'll eventually leave
It's only for tonight

Please
Don't look at me
I don't want to see your face

                            Please
                            Don't talk to me
                            It is I who wanted space

                                                        Please
                                                        Don't love me
                                                        Find someone to take my place

                                                                                                          Please

I'll get drunk on your love
I'll drink all your pain

When you're unhappy
I'll take it away
When you feel lonely
I'll be by your side

I adore you, My Love
I need you, My Love
I am here for you, My Love

Boy: You're beautiful. Did you know that?

Girl: I've been told otherwise..

Boy: Plastic ******* have to do that kind of stuff because they don't even almost compare to genuine women.

No obligations
No simply faking
No sweet nothings
No heart racing

No holding hands
No gentle demands
No feeling grand
No wedding band

Wine can be so sweet
It can taste so good
Just like the life we live
Living like teenagers forever

Tequila can be so kind
It can open your mind
Just like our music and movies
Pop and rock and nothing classic

Whiskey can shine so bright
It can light up your darkness
Just like our words and phrases
Cursing and cussing at anyone close

***** can be so hot
It can burn up your thoughts
Just like the things we do
Messing with your head all the time

Drinks can be so human
They can be so life-like
Just like our humanity
They're like us, our personalites