Like living with a monkey,
monkey see monkey do,
Being distracted with everything,
Even when there's nothing.

Like having a hidden malicious hand,
Loves playing hide and seek,
Items seem to dissappear,
As if they were warped to another world,
By a magical hand in your head.

Like having thousands of voices pleading for your attention,
Yet you hear none,
Just unintelligible sentences.

Like you're always on a pill of joy,
Yet feel so hollow,
It can be a double edged sword,
As your awareness of others' emotions,
Is comparable to an infant's knowledge of the Lorem Ipsum.

Like having your psyche torn apart,
A battlefield,
When you're fighting for control,
You lay waste to your own mind,
Even if you won,
The exhaustion and lack of motivation,
is a sign of a pyrrhic victory.

How am I to be blamed for turning sides,
When backs were turned on me?

They say that I am devoid of emotions
Excessive calmness runs through my veins

But have you ever swam across an unfathomable amount of pain
That at the end of the sea, nothing can shake you.

the cadence
of her uttered words
signified unfathomable pain
little did he know
it was her
last cry
for comfort

Some days I just want to put a bullet in my head,
Some days I just want to hang 5ft above ground,
Some days I just want to travel at - 9.8m/s^2,
And everyday, I just want the pain to end.

Dark, gloomy, quiet
Loud ringing piercing the ears
But only a dream.

Thinking back on what went wrong,
I was wrong to think nothing was wrong.

Reminiscing,
Those times when pain was just a boogeyman,
A tale of a child's story,
And happiness was the true reality,
But now, pain is as real as the sky,
And happiness is nothing but an empty promise.

Letting go,
of the times when I felt like a ghost,
trying to stay alive with this hole,
doing my best not to play foul,
doing my best to do things right,
wishing that some form of release can be found.

Understanding,
all these people with stupid choices,
how could they have made proper choices,
when they weren't told of the choices they had?
How could they have known there are diamonds,
when no one taught them how to dig?

Reapers knocking down the door,
The death warrant has been signed,
The noose, tightened and secured,
Yet, fear is absent, but happiness lingers in the air.

Finally, the sweet release is within grasp,
The only thing left was to fall.

Expressions,
Words of a broken soul,
Uttered in a trivial manner,
Yet it is not a trivial matter,
Pleading that the echoes of a destroyed mind,
Reaches the hearts of those that are kind.

Dark clouds approaches the horizon,
An omen it is not; but a sweet release it is,
When the blinding light begins to burn the skin to the point that it results in agonising pain,
Even the darkness could bring about catharsis.

At times of great darkness
Even death is seen as
A merciful light of hope.

Forgiving without sincerity
Is like breathing without air.

Ashes,
The remains of a lost past,
The ghost of lost moments,
The temporal concept of life that never lasts;
haunting the daunted soul of the ******.

Embers,
The last seed of hope,
Flickering as if solace is dawning,
Guiding the soul through woe,
Pleading for catharsis;
a new beginning.

Beliefs,
Torn minds are transmorgrified into absolute paradise,
Where time extends beyond the horizon,
Where the non-tangible beings linger,
Where lost love can be found,
Where old memories can be relived,
Where time remains at twilight.

Messiah,
Waiting for the time of deliverance,
Dispelling the fabrications constructed by men,
Where false notions are spread throughout the land,
Only then, will those who are true emerge,
Only then, will the true form of peace can be found.

knowledge
of your worth
determines
your will
to live

The cold touch of fear brushes on the skin,
Hopes and dreams wither away;
dethroned by pain,
The agonising reality of a debacled future;
a downfall, a fiasco,
And so sunk the ship, drowning the spirit of hope.

The greatest battle
Is found not in the trenches;
The front line
It is fought within your psyche