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1.0k · Dec 2018
Dead
Ammar Dec 2018
You said it's forever,
But forever was just a year.
Heh.
936 · Mar 2019
Patience
Ammar Mar 2019
Being able to reason
with yourself
is the most painful thing ever
as you are
standing against
a brewing storm
of yourself
on your own.
I've always struggled with it.
767 · Jan 2019
War
Ammar Jan 2019
War
There will be time
When I'll put down my arms
Lay my armor aside
Embrace the warmth, and live.

But until then,
gears up.
678 · Nov 2018
Empathy
Ammar Nov 2018
Self-forgiveness
Is like seeing sunrise
For the first time.
434 · Dec 2018
Allure
Ammar Dec 2018
I saw the glow of your beauty
But I failed to see the glitter of your tears
And that's how I lost you.
405 · Oct 2018
Thriving
Ammar Oct 2018
Fiends,
Striving to drag you down,
And of their frustration,
You found it hilarious.
Keep on fighting.
371 · Oct 2018
Adhd is..
Ammar Oct 2018
Like living with a monkey,
monkey see monkey do,
Being distracted with everything,
Even when there's nothing.

Like having a hidden malicious hand,
Loves playing hide and seek,
Items seem to dissappear,
As if they were warped to another world,
By a magical hand in your head.

Like having thousands of voices pleading for your attention,
Yet you hear none,
Just unintelligible sentences.

Like you're always on a pill of joy,
Yet feel so hollow,
It can be a double edged sword,
As your awareness of others' emotions,
Is comparable to an infant's knowledge of the Lorem Ipsum.

Like having your psyche torn apart,
A battlefield,
When you're fighting for control,
You lay waste to your own mind,
Even if you won,
The exhaustion and lack of motivation,
is a sign of a pyrrhic victory.
Adhd is ******* exhausting, especially with a comorbid.
363 · Oct 2018
Last time
Ammar Oct 2018
Your scream overwhelms the soothing ambience,
Echoing throughout the room,
Tears dropping on the floor,
Yet is it mine or yours?

I promised you paradise,
Yet I showered you with wrath,
I promised you solace,
Yet I placed upon you an unimaginable burden.

Hilarious,
How a single pill could have prevented the calamity,
Regardless,
The Hour of reckoning has begun,
All the chances I've had perishes at the line,
The line that was drawn eons ago.
I swear this is the last time.
340 · Dec 2018
Withered
Ammar Dec 2018
Left,
The happiness we reaped
Was left to rot
By an infraction that could've
Been forgiven.
'Ello
338 · Feb 2019
Strength within
Ammar Feb 2019
His will
to live
overcame
the destiny
written
in his
star
311 · Dec 2018
Madness
Ammar Dec 2018
True insanity happens
When you are no longer
Trying to keep the voices out
But trying to make your faint voice heard
By a vessel that was once yours.
Have a great day!
289 · Apr 2019
Seen, scenes
Ammar Apr 2019
Capture the world by pictures and you have perspectives
Capture the world by words and you have a story
279 · Jan 2019
Content
Ammar Jan 2019
When death greets
Will you go with dread
Or with stories to tell?
262 · Nov 2018
Disorders
Ammar Nov 2018
Mental instability
Is like being strapped to a chair
On a sinking ship.
And I've managed to cut myself loose.
261 · Mar 2019
Pills
Ammar Mar 2019
Popped two xans
Nicotine coursing through
my veins
kerosene flooding
my mind
yet if they knew
I'll be labeled as an addict
but in truth
who isn't addicted to
even a glimpse
of happiness
even if it's temporal

At times
these substances
gives sobriety;
a realistic picture
compared
to everything else
I'll be fine
257 · Feb 2019
Fragments
Ammar Feb 2019
I feel my pulse
I can hear myself breathe
I can see
I can hear
I can smell

Yet,
Why do I not feel alive?
248 · Mar 2019
True emotions
Ammar Mar 2019
The body
will always
betray
the tongue
244 · Dec 2018
Hazel
Ammar Dec 2018
I remember admiring those hazel eyes
But I never realised the tears.
Have a great new year!
242 · Sep 2019
Timeless Sorrow
Ammar Sep 2019
Fractures
of your
voice
signifies
the death
of your
mind
Been awhile eh?
240 · Jan 2019
Influenced
Ammar Jan 2019
At one point, reality was observed
With a revered gaze
Unfortunately, now
I would trade sobriety
For white lines.
All messed up in the head.
238 · Apr 2019
Key
Ammar Apr 2019
Key
Poetry
is like a key
to the gateway
of perspectives.
232 · Jan 2019
Companion
Ammar Jan 2019
Forever became never
Together became further
Us became ruins.
Now read it from the bottom up.
232 · Jun 2019
Subtlety
Ammar Jun 2019
Soft words
screams
the loudest
231 · Dec 2018
Calm
Ammar Dec 2018
They say that I am devoid of emotions
Excessive calmness runs through my veins

But have you ever swam across an unfathomable amount of pain
That at the end of the sea, nothing can shake you.
222 · Dec 2018
Just a damn illusion
Ammar Dec 2018
At times of great darkness
Even death is seen as
A merciful light of hope.
216 · Sep 2018
Stars
Ammar Sep 2018
Seeking refuge from the deafening salvoes,
Apathy, anger, anxiety overran the haven created,
The haven constructed for the remnants,
The remnants of joy, excitement, and gratitude.

As the last bit of hope begins to diminish,
A sudden silence looms in the air,
When that anxiety, that anger, that apathy is clear within view,
The obsoleted notion of their danger becomes clear as day,
Destructive they are not; but desperate,
Desperate to be acknowledged and accepted.

The danger that once besets the haven,
Was an extreme measure of desperation,
Only when silence is imposed,
Only when they have gained the attention they seek so direly,
Only then will the feud for the psyche ends,
And a common ground can be found.

All it took was silence and understanding;
That spectacular quiet.
Happy Thursday.
216 · Dec 2019
Untitled
Ammar Dec 2019
we live on
carrying the will of the dead
and the hopes of the living
214 · Feb 2019
Personal Wars
Ammar Feb 2019
The greatest battle
Is found not in the trenches;
The front line
It is fought within your psyche
214 · Apr 2019
Earphones
Ammar Apr 2019
These earbuds
are my rabbit hole
to neverland

These earbuds
shuts the screaming
from my soul

These earbuds
are my escape
from a twisted fate
209 · Sep 2019
brutality of war
Ammar Sep 2019
many men gave up their lives
for humanity
some men gave up their humanity
to save lives
208 · Mar 2019
Stand down
Ammar Mar 2019
Though I will
always fight
against my war
at one point
I know
standing down
will be
the right choice
205 · May 2019
Last stand
Ammar May 2019
When the last page turns
Will I go down like Leonidas
or Stede Bonnet?

Will I make my stand in thermopylae
or the gallows?
196 · Feb 2019
Rebuild
Ammar Feb 2019
Rebuilt, I have
Wiser, I became
Just, I believe in
Empathy, I spread
Yet
Fear, of losing it all again
I came far in this one year of my retribution.
196 · Dec 2018
Shadows
Ammar Dec 2018
Downing hard liquor is easier
Than swallowing the truth
193 · Feb 2019
These years
Ammar Feb 2019
You've changed
you've suffered
you've paid.

now you rebuild
177 · Nov 2018
Lies
Ammar Nov 2018
Forgiving without sincerity
Is like breathing without air.
You'll just end up suffering more than you should. Trust me.
176 · Dec 2018
Errors
Ammar Dec 2018
Thinking back on what went wrong,
I was wrong to think nothing was wrong.
Have a spectacular weekend!
173 · Feb 2019
Love thyself
Ammar Feb 2019
knowledge
of your worth
determines
your will
to live
165 · Nov 2018
Rummage
Ammar Nov 2018
The flame,
it was meant to guard
Yet it raged
Leaving ruins.

With only the void as company
Redemption is all I seek, hastily.
Guilt is one tough son of a gun.
161 · Jul 2019
Dawn of end
Ammar Jul 2019
we live in an age where
emotions are seen as facts
facts are seen as offensive
157 · Sep 2019
denial
Ammar Sep 2019
sometimes I get wrapped up
within a temporal reverie;
where everything lost
was still within grasp
156 · Nov 2018
Seeking remission
Ammar Nov 2018
Love is view as an intangible diamond
Once found, it is rarely released
Those who has yet to grasp it
Made haste with fervour.

Natheless
For the broken souls that once delivered woe
Self-redemption, the vindication from past mistakes
Would be greater than absolute.
Still looking
151 · Feb 2019
War cry
Ammar Feb 2019
Things are not flying
as smoothly as it used to
the sky seems to fall
wherever I march
the poems I write
are war cries
as I get up once more
as I jump into the fray
once again
******* I'm exhausted.
138 · Jan 2019
Just another face
Ammar Jan 2019
Who am I trying to lie to?
I told you I've forgiven myself
I've told my psychiatrist I've moved on
I've told my friends I don't blame myself anymore
I've even told myself that I'll do good.

But deep down, that's all just garbage
I still reminisce those moments
I still punish myself
I still have not let go
And everything still kills me.
131 · Sep 2018
Light
Ammar Sep 2018
Ashes,
The remains of a lost past,
The ghost of lost moments,
The temporal concept of life that never lasts;
haunting the daunted soul of the ******.

Embers,
The last seed of hope,
Flickering as if solace is dawning,
Guiding the soul through woe,
Pleading for catharsis;
a new beginning.

Beliefs,
Torn minds are transmorgrified into absolute paradise,
Where time extends beyond the horizon,
Where the non-tangible beings linger,
Where lost love can be found,
Where old memories can be relived,
Where time remains at twilight.

Messiah,
Waiting for the time of deliverance,
Dispelling the fabrications constructed by men,
Where false notions are spread throughout the land,
Only then, will those who are true emerge,
Only then, will the true form of peace can be found.
#Orisitjustanotherfantasy?
119 · Nov 2018
Allegiance
Ammar Nov 2018
How am I to be blamed for turning sides,
When backs were turned on me?
116 · Nov 2018
Dysphoria
Ammar Nov 2018
Dark, gloomy, quiet
Loud ringing piercing the ears
But only a dream.
My first attempt on Haiku.
113 · Jan 2019
Home
Ammar Jan 2019
I have a house,
Yet it is not home.
111 · Feb 2019
Layna
Ammar Feb 2019
it's not her kiss
neither her hugs
nor her voice
i only
yearn immensely
for those
hazel eyes
to gaze at me
one last time
with a plethora
of endearment
Sigh.
111 · Sep 2018
Help
Ammar Sep 2018
Expressions,
Words of a broken soul,
Uttered in a trivial manner,
Yet it is not a trivial matter,
Pleading that the echoes of a destroyed mind,
Reaches the hearts of those that are kind.
That time will come :)
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