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"messiest" poems
Snowflakes are the butterflies of winter... Floating around, pretty and light. The more of them that drift around... The more beautiful the sight. Snowflakes are the butterflies of winter... They make even the messiest garden, shine. No matter if the flakes are thick and heavy... Or just a light dusting that's small and fine. Snowflakes are the butterflies of winter... Gliding through the skies, uncaged and free. Only resting when the winds conclude... Gently resting on every roof, hill or tree. Snowflakes are the butterflies of winter... Only present for such a short while. A flying visit, and then they're gone... But they sure do leave a smile. Snowflakes are the butterflies of winter... Making your garden glisten and glow. They go wherever they please... And please wherever they go.
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Oct 18, 2018
Oct 18, 2018 at 12:59 PM UTC
Snowflakes are the Butterflies of Winter
you said you had been a mess lately. i ran my fingers through your tangled hair and agreed. the unorganized chaos in your head sent me into a whirl. you said that old wounds dont heal, i said that im just cleaning the cut. ive always had a habit of disturbing things better left in the dark, and i don’t think that there is any part of you that i left untouched. childhood memories and things you had long since forgotten stirring in the dust i took the paint splattered across your heart and turned it into a masterpiece, you said you had always liked abstract better than realism. the neat rows that i stacked you in feel heavy on your tongue, and you told me with words that i had already prepared for you that the messiest thing about ocd, is that nothing can ever be left alone.
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Jul 26, 2015
Jul 26, 2015 at 11:37 PM UTC
OCD
Dear Big Brother, Why do you boss me around? You aren't my mother and No one treats you as a mother. Also, why are you so messy? There is not a contest for The messiest car, But if there was You would pass with Flying colors. If you could just try To be less messy, and Stop bossing me around, Life would be amazing and We would get along much better. Thank you and please address These demands as soon as possible. Love, Annie
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Apr 1, 2015
Apr 1, 2015 at 2:22 PM UTC
Dear Big Brother
“i was born to make biscuits” and so we let him. flour, butter, one egg, messiest table in the hole entire county. mom watches bug and the boys roll in the leaves outside, and greg and i drink coffee by the fire in thick socks and knitted throws. a burst of the season arrives with each sibling but we smile anyway, kisses and cold hands pressed on our warm cheeks until we're all the same temperature. pop's biscuits are done, so we sit and don't say grace- just thank each other for the things we have which no one else could have given us. mom's already missing the birds, and wendy says she thinks she found one of katy's old hats in the back of her garage last month and she even brought it with her this time. we talk and we laugh and the little boys nap and we just are. we just are.
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Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 4:30 AM UTC
fall
Veronica LaMonica Played the harmonica In our local high school band. She collected japonica She says it is a tonic Attuned to a young lady’s hand. She swears she is not picky But avoids the ricky-ticky And goes instead for the class. She claims not to be picky But avoids like a big hickey Anything of plastic or brass. Veronica LaMonica Played the harmonica In our local high school band. She collected japonica She says it is a tonic Attuned to a young lady’s hand. Veronica is the prettiest Down to the nitty grittiest Girl in the local school we both attend. She’s not always wittiest Rather hit and messiest, But I’m glad at least she is my friend. I’d like her to be more That’s what this rhyme if for To tell her she’s the best in the world. She ’s the very highest floor, The one have always adored, She’s most artistically talented girl. Veronica LaMonica Played the harmonica In our local high school band. She collected japonica She says it is a tonic Attuned to a young lady’s hand.
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Nov 19, 2016
Nov 19, 2016 at 6:50 PM UTC
VERONICA LaMONICA
Love doesn't always arrive In the form of a bestfriend. Nor does it always have a fairy tale beginning. Sometimes, Love arrives in the messiest, Dirtiest, Muddiest times in our lives. But how great is it To be walking out of hell, To be walking out of the mud, With someone by your side. I told myself years ago, If to love meant to stay muddy and bruised then I will forget what it is like to ever be clean. And alas, love has arrived And love is here.
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Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 6:09 PM UTC
When Love Arrives
Today in English class we read Hamlet By William Shakespeare And Hamlet tells his lover "I loved you once" And it reminded me of you, Except I still love you. Or maybe I don't, I'm not sure. All I know is everything reminds me of you, And you're still the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep at night. I've written you so many poems and letters That you'll never read And even if you did, you wouldn't care. I've been in a lot of fights with a lot of people But none of them have ended better than "and even after everything I just want you in my arms right now" And I remember staying up till 4AM with you that night, Gasping for air and begging you to stay. It was the first time you expressed any emotions for me- besides lust But you still wouldn't say you loved me And you still wouldn't say it after you left me For my best friend and then came crawling back, And you wouldn't say it after I told you how broken my heart was, But I bet you said it to her when she was your homecoming date, And I bet you scream it at the top of your lungs for her little sister now, don't you? I've written this poem a million times but this one is the messiest, and my mind is messier. I'd ask why you never said you love me but I know you didn't, And I'm just glad I never told you I did.
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Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 5:09 PM UTC
Untitled
Under a rock In the messiest river You have given me A power jam It is red And shiney And it burns With passion If you hold it closely You'd see the cracks And feel the endless vibration I always think it might break But the red rock keeps it's structure For every time I tried it It has yet to fail me It has shown me new lenghts I am terrified it might fall into little pieces One day But as you promised It always held together
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Apr 12, 2022
Apr 12, 2022 at 11:22 PM UTC
RED JAM
The school girls with the messiest hair are my daughters The ones with the fallen socks and the untucked shirts So concerned are they with getting there so they can come home later That nothing but Armageddon can stop them in their tracks
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Jul 11, 2015
Jul 11, 2015 at 7:22 PM UTC
RUSH
The cessation of a sunset, Red & blue skies fill my demon infested worlds My eyes are brown, my skin Turns to red velvet... With a blink of an eye I run, Into the night I run, Through the tall trees & into midnight... My body is burning on the inside.. My hands are numb , My eyes are closed shut. Into the night I run, I run to farthest distance in an instant, Hands & feet in a stance of insertity, Hair tied , Face smashed with messiest of makeup, Bleeding the red tears of the sinful red baby... Into the night I run, Running away from myself, My present body and out of my skin, Into the night I run, Where no one can see me, I scream the highest of voices Screeching in hatred of the world... Into the night I run, I run until I am one with the Sun... And all that I am and what I was , Is finally done..
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Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 10:09 PM UTC
She Runs
who loves me. He loves me in the morning when I am still shaking sleep off my exhausted body. He loves me as I tip toe to the bathroom to wash the night from my skin. He loves me as toothpaste falls onto my shirt and I continue with an uncaring agenda. He loves me as I toss clothes across the room attempting to look decent for no one other than myself. He loves me as I toss on running shorts and a shirt with gym shoes just because I might at some point decide to go to the gym. He loves me when I change the song 100 times while were on our way to the craft store. He loves me as I drag him through aisles of baked goods because I think I can make a hobby of this. He loves me as I spend money I don't have on things I don't need. He loves me at the end of that day when we are eating the messiest foods and I act like a child making a mess. He loves me while were in the shower. I know this because he washes my hair and doesn't mind me spilling exhaustion over to him. He loves me as I poor myself into the bed far too early and he has to tickle my back as I slip into sleep. He loves me for these things and I love him for these things.
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Mar 23, 2013
Mar 23, 2013 at 4:57 PM UTC
I have this man
Love is defined in the dictionary as an intense feeling of deep affection. Now, not only do I agree with that but to me, love is also accepting the other person as they are and not asking them to be someone else.  I don't mean that people in love can't ask each other to change in minor ways, but love, to me, means being able to accept who the other person really is. When you are truly in love with a person, you are free to really be yourself without worrying that the other person is judging you and being critical of you. It’s also based on the relationship because there are different types of love. For example, love between a man and woman (or romantic couple) differs from the love between a parent and child. However, in the romantic sense, I think the meaning of love is that which makes you whole. Not to sound cheesy, but if the person makes you realize the good things about your life and the world, then it's love. Love is when you feel comfortable enough with someone to speak your mind freely and you can become selfless for them, in some ways, love is having your best friend as your partner. Love can also be with things, you can love food, like me, because it makes you feel good. Love basically makes you feel good, about yourself, about others, and about your relationships. To love is the law of life itself, its one of the most sublime actions that a human being is capable of. Love is the messiest, stupidest, most beautiful thing ever created. It's so easy to fall in love and very difficult to get out of it. You know it's there because there is this warm little fire inside of you that erupts when you see them. You feel it in your bones, in your heart, in your hands, you feel it in your legs, in your lips and fingertips, you feel it all over and it squeezes your heart. Love is so hot it makes you sweat. It makes you shake. It keeps you up at night. It makes you want to be with them all the time. But Love is powerful. It gets to your head and drives you crazy. It hurts. It makes you cry. It's loud arguments. It's drinking away the pain. It's apologizing. It's make-ups and break-ups. It's running through an airport for one last goodbye. It's sunrises and sunsets. It's late night calls and good morning texts. It's flowers delivered to you. It's remembering birthdays and anniversaries. It's sharing a routine because you're one now. It's starting over and over because love, at first sight, is true. It's adventure. It's mystery and secrets shared. It's inside jokes. It's timeless beauty. It's acceptance. Love is absolutely unconditional. No matter what day or time, no matter what year, no matter who's who, love is the strongest most powerful thing ever, so be careful, it can destroy you.
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Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 11:22 PM UTC
What is Love?
Love is defined in the dictionary as an intense feeling of deep affection. Now, not only do I agree with that but to me, love is also accepting the other person as they are and not asking them to be someone else.  I don't mean that people in love can't ask each other to change in minor ways, but love, to me, means being able to accept who the other person really is. When you are truly in love with a person, you are free to really be yourself without worrying that the other person is judging you and being critical of you. It’s also based on the relationship because there are different types of love. For example, love between a man and woman (or romantic couple) differs from the love between a parent and child. However, in the romantic sense, I think the meaning of love is that which makes you whole. Not to sound cheesy, but if the person makes you realize the good things about your life and the world, then it's love. Love is when you feel comfortable enough with someone to speak your mind freely and you can become selfless for them, in some ways, love is having your best friend as your partner. Love can also be with things, you can love food, like me, because it makes you feel good. Love basically makes you feel good, about yourself, about others, and about your relationships. To love is the law of life itself, its one of the most sublime actions that a human being is capable of. Love is the messiest, stupidest, most beautiful thing ever created. It's so easy to fall in love and very difficult to get out of it. You know it's there because there is this warm little fire inside of you that erupts when you see them. You feel it in your bones, in your heart, in your hands, you feel it in your legs, in your lips and fingertips, you feel it all over and it squeezes your heart. Love is so hot it makes you sweat. It makes you shake. It keeps you up at night. It makes you want to be with them all the time. But Love is powerful. It gets to your head and drives you crazy. It hurts. It makes you cry. It's loud arguments. It's drinking away the pain. It's apologizing. It's make-ups and break-ups. It's running through an airport for one last goodbye. It's sunrises and sunsets. It's late night calls and good morning texts. It's flowers delivered to you. It's remembering birthdays and anniversaries. It's sharing a routine because you're one now. It's starting over and over because love, at first sight, is true. It's adventure. It's mystery and secrets shared. It's inside jokes. It's timeless beauty. It's acceptance. Love is absolutely unconditional. No matter what day or time, no matter what year, no matter who's who, love is the strongest most powerful thing ever, so be careful, it can destroy you.
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Easy, slushy, high With an open tomb Like the skanky alchy’ Inside the barroom Steaming the coldest aisles With wrinkled lips For the finest perks For the messiest tips
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Nov 30, 2016
Nov 30, 2016 at 8:42 PM UTC
White Plum + Open Jaw
The thing about the word unhealthy is that it can only exist in comparison to other, more appealing options. In the absence of vegetables, a diet consisting of processed sugars, caffeine, and American Spirits raises no red flags. Broken individuals seem to shine brightest when they cannot be referenced against those possessing more admirable qualities. You are the dent in a beautiful spine, telomerase granting immortality to the cancer. She is dive bar songs for everyone, for her, for this half-drunk moment, but secretly for you, really. Dusted in neon smoke your body can’t breathe but still delicately pack into the corners of each lung, knowing it can never be exhaled. For someone so self-professed anxious, She says lots of words that are not “yeah”. She is a kiss that tastes like mornings spent reading The Bell Jar. Long legs twisted into thick comforters, bare skin close with the desperation of two people who have everything to lose. Morning hair spread wide and thick. On your backs, not wanting to move, wondering how much time you have left. Doing the math together. The wrinkle following you through an empty apartment. Here is proof, evidence. A human alive; a body in operation. When She crashes her smile into what’s left of your teeth it feels like a jaw being broken by sunlight. Closer to her than anyone, without knowing a thing about the ashes in the corners of each eye. Rings with an unsubtle sway from striped dress, to the edge of your timid fingers. I know how little a man can do with two hands. Abandoned toys and worn out shoes have a past , like the people who used them. Don’t tell people the reason you have to leave parties early without saying goodbye, why you stay so close to the exits, ready to push away any innocent bystander who might be able to help you. Don’t tell them She’s the voice mumbling beyond the edge of your lamplight. Wondering what Hope means, if the other end of the text message knows and what it means to find out. Some stories end with four shoes on a subway platform, not caring if you’re stepping into the right train. Others end in the fields as the ants clean the bones.
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Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 3:33 PM UTC
At Their Messiest and Saddest
The thing about the word unhealthy is that it can only exist in comparison to other, more appealing options. In the absence of vegetables, a diet consisting of processed sugars, caffeine, and American Spirits raises no red flags. Broken individuals seem to shine brightest when they cannot be referenced against those possessing more admirable qualities. You are the dent in a beautiful spine, telomerase granting immortality to the cancer. She is dive bar songs for everyone, for her, for this half-drunk moment, but secretly for you, really. Dusted in neon smoke your body can’t breathe but still delicately pack into the corners of each lung, knowing it can never be exhaled. For someone so self-professed anxious, She says lots of words that are not “yeah”. She is a kiss that tastes like mornings spent reading The Bell Jar. Long legs twisted into thick comforters, bare skin close with the desperation of two people who have everything to lose. Morning hair spread wide and thick. On your backs, not wanting to move, wondering how much time you have left. Doing the math together. The wrinkle following you through an empty apartment. Here is proof, evidence. A human alive; a body in operation. When She crashes her smile into what’s left of your teeth it feels like a jaw being broken by sunlight. Closer to her than anyone, without knowing a thing about the ashes in the corners of each eye. Rings with an unsubtle sway from striped dress, to the edge of your timid fingers. I know how little a man can do with two hands. Abandoned toys and worn out shoes have a past , like the people who used them. Don’t tell people the reason you have to leave parties early without saying goodbye, why you stay so close to the exits, ready to push away any innocent bystander who might be able to help you. Don’t tell them She’s the voice mumbling beyond the edge of your lamplight. Wondering what Hope means, if the other end of the text message knows and what it means to find out. Some stories end with four shoes on a subway platform, not caring if you’re stepping into the right train. Others end in the fields as the ants clean the bones.
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As I tap my fingers against the pinewood table, the strands of my hair droop in front of my face. My eyes start to become blurry of tears, I see nothing but the smudge writings on my paper. The room is cold, I can see my breath, I feel so empty. I can no longer see the sun above the hills. I wipe my eyes and tie my hair in the messiest ponytail. I grab my bag and stuff the unfinished papers in it. I throw on my black leather boots with the worn out shoestrings. The door swings open, all I see is pine trees lost in the musky dark. The stars lead me on. I take steps after steps, the dry twigs and dead leaves crackle beneath my boots. I try not to make a sound. There's a light wind blowing in the air, it tickles my face. My callow green jacket doesn't keep me warm enough. I walk faster and see an opening. Out I come, I see the empty road. From left to right there's not a single vehicle. I raise my arm and throw out my thumb. There's leftover tears still on my face, my hair still in its ponytail. The wind becomes colder, my scrawny legs in my black tights can't keep up with the coldness. My arm starts to weaken and I begin to cry. My face is even colder. I sit on the jagged ground with my legs crossed, weeping quietly. Suddenly there's a vivid light heading my way, I become blinded by its beauty. The light comes closer to me, it makes a complete stop. I see that it's a vehicle. A cobalt pick up truck. I stand up and wipe the dirt off me. The door opens and welcomes me in. I don't hesitate. I hop in and never look back. I sit back and let a smile crawl on my face, I don't care where I'm going, or who I'm with, as long as I'm away from the pain.
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Feb 8, 2014
Feb 8, 2014 at 8:06 PM UTC
Runaway
As I tap my fingers against the pinewood table, the strands of my hair droop in front of my face. My eyes start to become blurry of tears, I see nothing but the smudge writings on my paper. The room is cold, I can see my breath, I feel so empty. I can no longer see the sun above the hills. I wipe my eyes and tie my hair in the messiest ponytail. I grab my bag and stuff the unfinished papers in it. I throw on my black leather boots with the worn out shoestrings. The door swings open, all I see is pine trees lost in the musky dark. The stars lead me on. I take steps after steps, the dry twigs and dead leaves crackle beneath my boots. I try not to make a sound. There's a light wind blowing in the air, it tickles my face. My callow green jacket doesn't keep me warm enough. I walk faster and see an opening. Out I come, I see the empty road. From left to right there's not a single vehicle. I raise my arm and throw out my thumb. There's leftover tears still on my face, my hair still in its ponytail. The wind becomes colder, my scrawny legs in my black tights can't keep up with the coldness. My arm starts to weaken and I begin to cry. My face is even colder. I sit on the jagged ground with my legs crossed, weeping quietly. Suddenly there's a vivid light heading my way, I become blinded by its beauty. The light comes closer to me, it makes a complete stop. I see that it's a vehicle. A cobalt pick up truck. I stand up and wipe the dirt off me. The door opens and welcomes me in. I don't hesitate. I hop in and never look back. I sit back and let a smile crawl on my face, I don't care where I'm going, or who I'm with, as long as I'm away from the pain.
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**** Where do I start. How do I start, knowing that I can never find the perfect words to express every single little bit of emotion and the billion thoughts that run through the messiest brain to exist- mine. Yes I believe I have the most complicated brain in this whole entire universe or maybe I share this same belief with few other beings, competing to win the title of having the worlds messiest brain. Having just experienced one of the many **** cramps oh and probably the first of the year, I have to say that I am in great pain and anxiety. My toilet is occupied by my mom and will continue to be for the next hour. Many things go on in the toilet. I hope I don’t **** my pants. Have I found myself? or maybe I jumped to that question way too fast. I have come to a realisation that I haven’t been feeling like myself lately. My mind, body and soul has been disconnected and ta da we have disorientation, constant questioning of self identity, a whole lot of self loathing, uncertainty, lack of emotions and the list goes on. I am now on the toilet bowl and very much thankful for the spicy and alleviating whiffs of cigarette smoke taking over the pungent odour of- I don’t need to go any further do I. I have always felt like a TMI person and sometimes I see that as a negative thing but is it really? What is so bad about exposing oneself and only letting the world know the truth? Do we have to act a certain way in which we don’t address the smallest things that bother us and pretend we are all fine when our wedgies are killing us! Quite tired of putting up a ******* front! The pitter patter of rain and petrichor helps to calm the discomfort of my stomach ache. The result of consuming large amounts of chocolate and milk on a cold rainy day. This is the start of something new or perhaps something that I have lost. My ability and nature to write my thoughts down. Something so simple yet complexed. Have I hid my innermost feelings these pass few months or maybe...what I have done might just be the scariest thing. Deflecting my feelings and the truth then proceeding to believe the lie I had been telling myself all this while.
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Jan 3, 2021
Jan 3, 2021 at 11:14 AM UTC
NEW BEGINNINGS
**** Where do I start. How do I start, knowing that I can never find the perfect words to express every single little bit of emotion and the billion thoughts that run through the messiest brain to exist- mine. Yes I believe I have the most complicated brain in this whole entire universe or maybe I share this same belief with few other beings, competing to win the title of having the worlds messiest brain. Having just experienced one of the many **** cramps oh and probably the first of the year, I have to say that I am in great pain and anxiety. My toilet is occupied by my mom and will continue to be for the next hour. Many things go on in the toilet. I hope I don’t **** my pants. Have I found myself? or maybe I jumped to that question way too fast. I have come to a realisation that I haven’t been feeling like myself lately. My mind, body and soul has been disconnected and ta da we have disorientation, constant questioning of self identity, a whole lot of self loathing, uncertainty, lack of emotions and the list goes on. I am now on the toilet bowl and very much thankful for the spicy and alleviating whiffs of cigarette smoke taking over the pungent odour of- I don’t need to go any further do I. I have always felt like a TMI person and sometimes I see that as a negative thing but is it really? What is so bad about exposing oneself and only letting the world know the truth? Do we have to act a certain way in which we don’t address the smallest things that bother us and pretend we are all fine when our wedgies are killing us! Quite tired of putting up a ******* front! The pitter patter of rain and petrichor helps to calm the discomfort of my stomach ache. The result of consuming large amounts of chocolate and milk on a cold rainy day. This is the start of something new or perhaps something that I have lost. My ability and nature to write my thoughts down. Something so simple yet complexed. Have I hid my innermost feelings these pass few months or maybe...what I have done might just be the scariest thing. Deflecting my feelings and the truth then proceeding to believe the lie I had been telling myself all this while.
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i’ve spent countless nights with you, getting to know you —  even the messiest parts of you, over a cup of coffee or a bottle of beer. amidst having a list of maybe’s, perhaps i should give this a try, i whispered. when i realized how i wanted you, you decided to run away. only you have taught me how silence, deafening silence, can seem so loud. you left and came back and then left again. while you were away, i began to understand why we can never be together, even if we like(d) each other. either it was your indecisive mind, or maybe it was how loneliness, absolute loneliness, can make us run into arms of people we know we should not choose to be with. i was not the right one for you. perhaps, i was not enough for you. but you were right and enough for me. i chose you but you weren't strong enough, to choose me — that's why we ended.                                                                                — apbq
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Jul 27, 2017
Jul 27, 2017 at 10:43 PM UTC
dead end
i promised not to go back there that place which has no life the darkness my mind couldn’t stand every minute hearing myself cry so i write down the messiest thoughts hoping it all makes a lot of sense so that by the end of it all i would understand my emotions it doesn’t always work i still can’t predict my feelings but all i can do is try here by taking everything that i’m thinking . . . & letting them fly with the wind.
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Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 9:03 AM UTC
Dark times
I feel it coming on. It attacks my system With every weapon on the front line. It wreaks havoc on my gut When I am stressed, when I am hurting Suddenly, my body starts to tingle And it aches, and aches, and aches. The pangs of panic and regret Pierce their way into my midsection. As my mouth begins to salivate I know exactly what needs to be done To make this pain disappear. I excuse myself, neatly and politely *How ******* ironic* As I go to do one of the messiest things I have ever done. It's not emotional At first Just business as usual. I close my eyes Zone out As I stick two, three fingers down my throat. I feel the tension As it begins to gag Tighten, release, tighten, release Until I can no longer breathe. Tears begin to form And I begin to cough, uncontrollably. Finally, everything All the sadness All the lonely All the anxiety Is ejected from my body. I sit on the ground Completely calm, yet I am shaking It is a similar feeling post-purge as it is post-cigarette I lean against the stall My knees pressed to my chest. I am not sad But I am crying. Thinking "What have I done?" "How has it gotten this far?" My legs feel like jelly And my arms are heavier than I remember. My head begins to roll back As my neck is giving out on me. It feels like I am going to lose myself But somehow, I do not pass out. I am snapped back into reality when I hear someone come into the bathroom I'm in public? I forgot. I walk out, emotionless and unaffected I have done this so many times before That I have a gigantic capacity for acting. My body maybe cured of its physical traumas But there is still an extreme feeling of nausea In my heart.
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Mar 9, 2014
Mar 9, 2014 at 8:53 PM UTC
Nausea
I feel it coming on. It attacks my system With every weapon on the front line. It wreaks havoc on my gut When I am stressed, when I am hurting Suddenly, my body starts to tingle And it aches, and aches, and aches. The pangs of panic and regret Pierce their way into my midsection. As my mouth begins to salivate I know exactly what needs to be done To make this pain disappear. I excuse myself, neatly and politely *How ******* ironic* As I go to do one of the messiest things I have ever done. It's not emotional At first Just business as usual. I close my eyes Zone out As I stick two, three fingers down my throat. I feel the tension As it begins to gag Tighten, release, tighten, release Until I can no longer breathe. Tears begin to form And I begin to cough, uncontrollably. Finally, everything All the sadness All the lonely All the anxiety Is ejected from my body. I sit on the ground Completely calm, yet I am shaking It is a similar feeling post-purge as it is post-cigarette I lean against the stall My knees pressed to my chest. I am not sad But I am crying. Thinking "What have I done?" "How has it gotten this far?" My legs feel like jelly And my arms are heavier than I remember. My head begins to roll back As my neck is giving out on me. It feels like I am going to lose myself But somehow, I do not pass out. I am snapped back into reality when I hear someone come into the bathroom I'm in public? I forgot. I walk out, emotionless and unaffected I have done this so many times before That I have a gigantic capacity for acting. My body maybe cured of its physical traumas But there is still an extreme feeling of nausea In my heart.
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Let’s make up in the messiest of ways and have a battle rage between our tongues and finger tips as we claw the forgiveness out of each other.
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Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 2:06 PM UTC
Casuality of War
Hidden in the forest A silent, hidden animal ran off by all the noise that's caused by an intruding tourist Could be human or not But it's disturbing the peace of wood and rock, and no animal hidden in the gentle, dew-laden rot would dare disturb the aura of a mess of life, in the messiest beauty to sate their curiosity would they?
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Jul 27, 2022
Jul 27, 2022 at 11:26 PM UTC
Unwanted guest
my mind is the messiest plate of food matching my chaotic home i have it together i have it together i have it together
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Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:18 PM UTC
Untitled
My favorite days are the ones where the sky is gray and the clouds are dark and low. Where the wind blows cold and allows us to feel. Where the rain pours upon us and washes away our past. My favorite days are the messiest. The ones that match my heart.
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Dec 7, 2018
Dec 7, 2018 at 1:52 PM UTC
I Wish It Was Like This More