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"confidant" poems
Now you have to understand that the greatest gift a child can receive is a sibling. Wrapped up in that hospital delivery is limitless potential. They can be your partner in crime, or the key witness in your conviction. A sibling fights the same battles you do just with different tactics. Some prefer to pit mom against dad others dad against mom. No one will ever walk the earth as close to you. Part of the DNA that makes you unique flows in their veins. Even if circumstances change that bond can’t be broken. They will annoy you, steal from you, drive you crazy, and if you’re lucky enough hate you. And yet they are your best friend, confidant, and the person who if you’re unfortunate enough will go to hell and back as fast for you as you would do for them. So to all the siblings out there. May you be playmates in adversity and friendly rivals in joy
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Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 10:35 PM UTC
Siblings
Diminutive in frame and stature defines him not, but instead enhances the brilliance of his smile’s shine. The golden flakes of honesty in his warm brown eyes covey one vice that is captivation. They hold hostage your most destructive thoughts to instantaneously replace them with the best; of joy, contentment, and love-the best of him. His high cheek bones define a mouth so perfectly constructed. They rise and fall like oceans’ waves with every gentle gesture. He thinks of love as a pool of chances and illogically he dives into the hurt he’s found himself in once twice, no wait, three times. But still, he never falters to give “chance” just one more chance to prove he’s done what’s right. Secondary comes his needs, in light of someone else’s. The thoughts, “too tired” or “too busy” does nothing for him because if someone needs help, you help them undoubtedly. I  have seen the coat that once cascaded on his back give warmth to one who had no coat or smile or joy or light. And for that one he lowered his head to ask God for a favor. I met this guy, this “perfect” guy when innocence consumed me and since that day we’ve been each other’s confidant and comforter. My love towards him supersedes that of a friend or the best of that. The truest thing I know is that when everyone one else disappears to the mundane norms of life, he will be there with me to cut through the silence with rolls of laughter. At what? It does not matter. Because when I’m with him and he’s with me there is a “we” that is formed and that “we” is captivates me An infinite truth is that I will never stop loving this young man. He keeps my heartbeat steady so I must exclaim the best of joy, contentment, and love-the best of him.
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Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 4:25 AM UTC
If Only He Knew...
Diminutive in frame and stature defines him not, but instead enhances the brilliance of his smile’s shine. The golden flakes of honesty in his warm brown eyes covey one vice that is captivation. They hold hostage your most destructive thoughts to instantaneously replace them with the best; of joy, contentment, and love-the best of him. His high cheek bones define a mouth so perfectly constructed. They rise and fall like oceans’ waves with every gentle gesture. He thinks of love as a pool of chances and illogically he dives into the hurt he’s found himself in once twice, no wait, three times. But still, he never falters to give “chance” just one more chance to prove he’s done what’s right. Secondary comes his needs, in light of someone else’s. The thoughts, “too tired” or “too busy” does nothing for him because if someone needs help, you help them undoubtedly. I  have seen the coat that once cascaded on his back give warmth to one who had no coat or smile or joy or light. And for that one he lowered his head to ask God for a favor. I met this guy, this “perfect” guy when innocence consumed me and since that day we’ve been each other’s confidant and comforter. My love towards him supersedes that of a friend or the best of that. The truest thing I know is that when everyone one else disappears to the mundane norms of life, he will be there with me to cut through the silence with rolls of laughter. At what? It does not matter. Because when I’m with him and he’s with me there is a “we” that is formed and that “we” is captivates me An infinite truth is that I will never stop loving this young man. He keeps my heartbeat steady so I must exclaim the best of joy, contentment, and love-the best of him.
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Im not addicted Im obsessed And my drug of choice Is one of the best I owe you everything And thats exactly what you took The moment I met you You enticed me with your look I was dying to try you Now im simply dying Cause they took you away And my insides are crying You kept me safe And always confidant Now my friends are afraid That I've lost my common sense But if you got high You'd put your morals aside And if this brings me closer to death I think im ready to die.
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Sep 30, 2015
Sep 30, 2015 at 5:13 PM UTC
A Tribute To Ecstasy
At the start A bright beginning, A happy union An ignited spark *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Clutching the doll Happily Going everywhere Together *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Out the door Around the house And maybe to see your friend's Pet mouse *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Together forever Best little buds Totally inseparable Just like a shadow *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was there Through all the sunshine The doll was there Through all the rain *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you company Through the smiles Laughing with Your every mile *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you safe Through all those nights And kept those shadowy things At bay *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It dried your tears Through all those times A simple hug Could heal that soul *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It waited for you Every day Until you came back Home *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then something happened; You grew up The waiting became Longer *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The distance widened, Left behind But still it kept on Waiting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You talked less You played less But still it looked on Hopefully *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was stuck In a timeless state But you just kept on Growing *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Soon, you no longer Came to see The doll; it was already Fading *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Forgotten, neglected In its dusty little corner Reminiscing of the times Together, spent *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Wishing you would Come back round To look, or just To care *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept on hoping It kept believing It kept the flame alive, Burning *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* But everyday It kept on dimming The pure white fur With dust, greying *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Time passes Minutes, hours Days. Soon, it's been a year. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* More time passes Just like so, Until you were So fully grown *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Gone were the days Of carefree playing Gone were the days Of chatting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll has faded Right out Your mind You were most preoccupied *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then suddenly You remembered Retraced your steps And found the corner *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You see the little doll You've grown up with A companion, confidant, A friend. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You pick it up But something's different The flame inside Has died *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Hollow eyes stare back At you Cold and frozen Over *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* With a twinge You placed it Back onto A wooden shelf *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Now with the Closing of the door The both of you Were parted *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end*
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Aug 24, 2013
Aug 24, 2013 at 10:44 AM UTC
Growing up -- The Doll
At the start A bright beginning, A happy union An ignited spark *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Clutching the doll Happily Going everywhere Together *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Out the door Around the house And maybe to see your friend's Pet mouse *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Together forever Best little buds Totally inseparable Just like a shadow *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was there Through all the sunshine The doll was there Through all the rain *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you company Through the smiles Laughing with Your every mile *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you safe Through all those nights And kept those shadowy things At bay *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It dried your tears Through all those times A simple hug Could heal that soul *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It waited for you Every day Until you came back Home *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then something happened; You grew up The waiting became Longer *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The distance widened, Left behind But still it kept on Waiting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You talked less You played less But still it looked on Hopefully *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was stuck In a timeless state But you just kept on Growing *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Soon, you no longer Came to see The doll; it was already Fading *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Forgotten, neglected In its dusty little corner Reminiscing of the times Together, spent *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Wishing you would Come back round To look, or just To care *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept on hoping It kept believing It kept the flame alive, Burning *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* But everyday It kept on dimming The pure white fur With dust, greying *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Time passes Minutes, hours Days. Soon, it's been a year. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* More time passes Just like so, Until you were So fully grown *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Gone were the days Of carefree playing Gone were the days Of chatting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll has faded Right out Your mind You were most preoccupied *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then suddenly You remembered Retraced your steps And found the corner *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You see the little doll You've grown up with A companion, confidant, A friend. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You pick it up But something's different The flame inside Has died *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Hollow eyes stare back At you Cold and frozen Over *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* With a twinge You placed it Back onto A wooden shelf *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Now with the Closing of the door The both of you Were parted *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end*
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He said he caught himself thinking of my long legs when I was absent. I froze...Silent and annoyed... Perhaps he was over confidant when he leaned in and pressed his lips against mine. I slapped him. It made me feel cheap so I lit a cigarette. I inhaled deeply watching the smoke swirl... if I could just fade away with it. Lights to bright and sounds that burst. My head hurts...I flick my ash. Now he's frozen...just watching me. Perverts and nicotine have the same stench. Both a bad habit I need to quit.
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Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 12:01 AM UTC
Perverts And Nicotine
Goodbye my beloved my best friend my cartoon strip my spicy blend my confidant' my story-teller too my source of bliss my beautiful you Goodbye my soulmate my aggravation my dewey tears my joyous elation my dark devil my saving knight my funky mixed salad my angel in white Goodbye my jellybean my every color my brilliant star my only stellar my addictin high my curvy wurvy road my far away companion my emotional garbage load Goodbye my truck driver my ever pessimist my deep sad poet my christmas list my squishy hug my dictionary my thesarus too my harry-carry Goodbye my healing crystal my happy thought my **** dreams my man I have not my heaven on eath my hell here too my disneyland my passion that grew Goodbye my mysterious moon my brick wall my favorite song my bounce to the ball my craziest joke my sun in winter my dirtiest thought my fantasy reader Goodbye my phone friend my tug of war my fleshy goosepimples my bird that soars my bright lightening my roaring thunder my white rose my hopes down under Goodbye my perfect lover my satin sheet my carribean vacation my favorite treat my majestic mountain my green thumb my cycle rider my last crumb Goodbye my first spring rain my catalyst my curious dreamer my lemon twist my catch of the day my white cloud my emotional abyss my cake upside down Goodbye my only you my hopeless dream my love of loves my everything
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Nov 15, 2009
Nov 15, 2009 at 5:26 AM UTC
Goodbye Tommy
I wana close my eyes & wake up next to you I wana see your worst that leads up to the best of you I wana lay on your chest & listen to your heart beat Look up into your eyes & tell you that it belongs to me I wana please you mentally, emotionally & physically I wana make you smile be your saving grace kiss all over your face & give you the best of me I wana make you wana run home to me & make love to me because you love being alone with me I want you to trust deep down in your core that I adore you Do anything for you I love you with all of me I Would never do you any harm You not being part of my world means everything in life is wrong I wana be your confidant your best friend, lover & your wife I want you to know that where you belong is forever in my life.
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Nov 26, 2018
Nov 26, 2018 at 9:28 AM UTC
Universe Of Two
I needed to do some shopping On poem ideas I was running low So I checked out the local flyer To the downtown poet store Just to see what they had on sale Some of my friends they call me cheap But why pay full price if you don't have to On all the rhyming words I need The front page slapped me in the face With the Spring Cleaning Sale Galore Everything I needed was half price So I headed straight to the store I ventured up and down the isles Filling my basket with the best of rhyme Getting a few extras of every word So I'd have them when the time was right I stocked up on love and encouragement The right words I carefully chose Because in my experience You can never have to many of those I even took a few from the back Down a darkened isle where the lights were low Being a poet my mood can rapidly change And what words I might need you never know With my basket full of wonder I felt my day of shopping done Confidant and ready To go home and continue writing poems
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Apr 1, 2013
Apr 1, 2013 at 5:23 PM UTC
"Shopping"
Flashbacks of a confidant fool Flying through life with out any rules Headlong into danger The adrenaline rush is an intoxicating flavor Thoughts of past injuries are nothing but flashes As quickly he dashes With those famous last words on his lips WATCH THIS!!!!
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Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 10:54 AM UTC
Confident Fool
Who knew what all a horse could do Most think horses work Walk, trot, canter Being ridden for pleasure Driven for work Who knew they could do so much more Opening doors for the disabled Allowing the autistic, cerebal palsy, mentally challenged, parapalegic to move around, to feel the wind on their faces, to laugh To feel in control of their surroundings for the first time Yet who knew that horses do more than all of this Helping kids and adults with low self esteem Pulling them up to feel good about themselves Giving confidence when it has been taken away Allowing them to feel successful A horse can be a confidant, an enforcer, a best friend Legs to move, muscles for strength, a body to hold, Who knew a horse could do so much more than show, jump and plow They can help a troubled child let go of anger A disabled child feel in control of such an uncontrollable world A mentally challenged person feel accomplishment and free of that which traps them Horses can help so many different people Overcome all types of obstacles Bullies, fear, anger, sorrow, disbelief, self pity, frustration and hurt Giving them strength to take up for themselves The power to conquer being afraid Allowing them to feel happy and sure of themselves Control of something allowing them to feel alive again Horses become hard working friends They love unconditionally Don't judge or cause inferiority They don't care if you can talk correctly or at all Horses could care less about disability All they care about is you Even when they are not loved they love When abused they still work So it is so wonderful to put an unloved horse with a special needs person Both win by giving and receiving the love and tenderness they all deserve Horses Helping People A wonderful blessing People needing Horses A miraculous discovery All rights reserved
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Dec 28, 2012
Dec 28, 2012 at 12:52 PM UTC
Horses Helping People
Who knew what all a horse could do Most think horses work Walk, trot, canter Being ridden for pleasure Driven for work Who knew they could do so much more Opening doors for the disabled Allowing the autistic, cerebal palsy, mentally challenged, parapalegic to move around, to feel the wind on their faces, to laugh To feel in control of their surroundings for the first time Yet who knew that horses do more than all of this Helping kids and adults with low self esteem Pulling them up to feel good about themselves Giving confidence when it has been taken away Allowing them to feel successful A horse can be a confidant, an enforcer, a best friend Legs to move, muscles for strength, a body to hold, Who knew a horse could do so much more than show, jump and plow They can help a troubled child let go of anger A disabled child feel in control of such an uncontrollable world A mentally challenged person feel accomplishment and free of that which traps them Horses can help so many different people Overcome all types of obstacles Bullies, fear, anger, sorrow, disbelief, self pity, frustration and hurt Giving them strength to take up for themselves The power to conquer being afraid Allowing them to feel happy and sure of themselves Control of something allowing them to feel alive again Horses become hard working friends They love unconditionally Don't judge or cause inferiority They don't care if you can talk correctly or at all Horses could care less about disability All they care about is you Even when they are not loved they love When abused they still work So it is so wonderful to put an unloved horse with a special needs person Both win by giving and receiving the love and tenderness they all deserve Horses Helping People A wonderful blessing People needing Horses A miraculous discovery All rights reserved
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Written pages never seen I write my thoughts to my loyal confidant I write my feelings to my loyal fellow the one who will never judge me the one who will never betray me and he will always be there when I most need him and also when I don't. I will be able to express myself even though he can't hear me even though he can't understand me I know I can trust him blindly . My Secret Journal
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May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 1:36 PM UTC
My Loyal Friend
There's something missing in my home, I feel it day and night. I know it will take time and strength, before things feel quite right. But just for now I need to mourn, my heart - it needs to mend. Though some may say it's just a pet, I know I've lost a friend. You've brought such laughter to my home, and richness to my days. A constant friend through joy or loss, with gentle loving ways. Companion, pal and confidant, A friend I won't forget. You'll live for always in my heart, my sweet forever past.
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Jun 10, 2014
Jun 10, 2014 at 6:17 PM UTC
My Favorite Pet
Footprints so carelessly left in the sand: So varied, haphazard, yet one common band. The confidant jogger, the beach-combing wren, The legions of desperate women and men, Each of them leaves behind wet indentations For those so inclined to survey and relate them. How heavy the footsteps of those bearing burdens, While almost an outline from those sans diversions. These footprints so often abandoned are strange, For they effect any who come into range. How so many strive to make some path go noticed, When often the same ones leave marks out of focus. Ghosts of the efforts of steps left behind, Yet lost to the ages, anonymous finds. But one thing unites all the grainy debris: These footprints will be swallowed up the sea.
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Aug 13, 2012
Aug 13, 2012 at 7:12 PM UTC
Footprints
In Loving Honor of Joseph Wulf R.I.P. Christi Michaels  8-31-2015 ☆●♡●☆ Tonight my friend could not breathe Lungs ravaged from long ago Served our country as a young man Shoulders, hip and leg bones broke by the jungles below A Harley Man through and through JFD's became his Corps Never wavered in his allegiance to his country or his force One of the smartest men I have ever known Could recite passages from long ago abreast of topics from far and wide a history buff so knowlegable A brother to many, a father to one Devoted to all he loved A truer friend could not be had So very popular he was!! Joe was my protector as I was a wild young thing Was my confidant and chaperone starting at just 17 Accompanied the first date with my husband 30 years ago Gave his blessings that first night~ To my children he was Uncle Joe The older brother I never had. Blessed to love him 40 years My whole being trembles at the thought of losing him I weave Love within these tears ☆●●♡●●♡●●☆ ~Christi Michaels~April 2015~ Copyright © 2015 Christi Michaels. All Rights Reserved. ♡●♡●♡●♡    Ode to Joe   ♡●♡●♡●♡ This poem was written upon Joe entering Hospice. His sisters provided Constant Vigil and Loving Care. Joe passed on 8-15-2015 This was read at Joes Military Burial Fort Snelling National Cemetery Fort Snelling, Minnesota 8-31-2015
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Apr 11, 2015
Apr 11, 2015 at 9:35 PM UTC
♡ Ode to Joe ♡
king of the sea, with a rigorous exoskeleton peeling away moulting causes such distress, exposed to the thrashing undertow of the sea and enemies who protects you? a callow arthropod poised on fractured shells it isn’t your father, balancing a bottle of brandy between his lips or your confidant, skidding his tires across your mind a starfish tried, she threw her arms round your shell as you added new muscles underneath she stuck her tube feet in her claws as you brittled her skin she said I love you and you retreated when you are 70 and clamouring the floor put your arms behind your back to beckon her to you try – she is the sea and no one owns her.
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Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 3:38 PM UTC
the lobster
I knew you or knew of you I almost knew you I suppose But I didn't get the chance. I'm not sure if the chance was offered or not. I don't know if I could have been your friend, a confidant, (your savior?) I don't know that I could have helped. But maybe... I could have said something, done something, simply sat in your presence until you felt like existance was managable. Until you felt worthy, valued, realized your importance. Until you felt like you could stay. (God, how I wish you had stayed) But before I got the chance... You put that gun to your head. You put that noose around your neck. You put that knife to your wrist. You took one or two pills, too many. You left me here. ALL of you, (even if I never knew you) left me here, and I'll never know if I could have Helped If I could have helped make it okay, manageable, real, made you feel loved. (because I would have loved you) But I want you to know... I wanted to.
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May 6, 2013
May 6, 2013 at 3:49 PM UTC
End of Life
I. I thought you were the one. I imagined us flying to Manila, meeting the entire family, you proposing on the pristine sands of Boracay or in the small village where you used to play with spiders. I thought of possible baby names pronounced beautifully in both of our families' native tongues. II. We grew together, abandoned defenses until you were my only confidant. I still haven’t recovered from the way you used that against me: Sealing my confessions into bullets in a magazine and making sure I was centered in the crosshairs of the scope, a different kind of target practice. III. You were my special kind of poison, the kind that slipped through my veins unnoticed until it corrupted my cardiac muscle and collapsed my lungs. I ate away at myself until I was small enough not to threaten you, and even that wasn’t enough. I finally got the courage to leave you, but I formed a thick cocoon around my chrysalis of secrets to protect myself from you and the next. IV. It’s been two years and I still have you, your mother, and every Carlsbad or Mira Mesa area code blocked. You realized you could invade my voicemail so you rang in 2019, screaming whiskey-soaked wishes for a better year for us both. I honestly believe you want that, in your own way. I wish you the best too, but I have outgrown you.
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Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 3:58 AM UTC
Metamorphosis
most of my life I have tried to keep appearances and show the world that I was a strong confidant young man I smiled my polite smile as I was dying inside, so afraid to share with any other human being all the shame and guilt I kep buried deep inside I have a fellowship of people today, where our common weakness unites us and we find strength in mutual vulnerability when I embrace my weakness, I allow God to enter into me through my wounds how easily I forget along with the rest of the world that God chose to meet us face to face in weakness, in a flesh like mine
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Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 8:33 PM UTC
the gift of weakness
her words snap me back to reality, away from supposition and hypotheticals, into her arms where I feel safe. blue eyes that pierce whatever darkness i thought i had and lied to myself about, eyes that see me for a who I am and who I want to be. imagine walking down a darkened path, content in the streetlights that guided you home, and spotting something small and kind. whatever it is you imagine, it beckons you to hold it and when you do, you smile, truly and impulsively. that essence is a woman, and one i admire. someone beatiful, kind, and funny, including her incessant snoring on already sleepless nights because a cat is begging for food but you feeling comfort in their REM cycle. too little space to be your own, but enough heart to bridge the gap. imagine, then, that someone places your hand on their lap when you drive, but are equally willing to do the same, in what feels like an equivalent exchange of heart and sheer goofiness. and tell yourself it doesn't feel right that you were able to find home in them, effortlessly and happily. you won't and can't, and neither can i. words can't express that she has been friend, confidant, and a visual marvel, and someone i envision as a pillar of my bright existence.
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Jul 14, 2023
Jul 14, 2023 at 9:25 PM UTC
a woman i admire
For Emma Ottinger “I put out (my stories) just because” “just because” that’s the best excuse you got girl? cause be-ing just is a **** good one way back in March wrote a declaration^ to all those just beginning with an iota of courage and a good story telling way of seeing and the secret sauce-way to spin my imagination in my eye sockets with their well words, for I am a drinker of the beaujolais firsts of the new grapes of young poets words welling springing from between the oohs and ahs and the damns - I wish I had wrote that... so here’s a hero push - so many kinds of bread to fill our baskets, please girl may I have some more? so here’s to you - and the Great Plains that birthed you, and the breadbasket of four poem/stories you poured out that were so far from plain, how could you know of seas and sea foam and cobalt and mahogany human body parts? and the speech patterns of waves that took me decades to learn? use those “Jacob’s ladders between your fingers,” “whistle me like a stray dog following,” for that’s what “the kingpin of my flighty wits” requires, for this old scribbler is now: “firmly rooted for a girl who's bold enough to crack the whip over her head if ever went to war with myself. A confidant that won't run, won't offer half truth when the whole of it is all that actually matters.” so write with that window light on and wheat fields that can be reenvisioned as the gray-blue sea from which I crawled out of croaking... to read you rightly 6/25/18 10:25PM
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Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 10:37 PM UTC
For Emma Ottinger “I put out (my stories) just because”
For Emma Ottinger “I put out (my stories) just because” “just because” that’s the best excuse you got girl? cause be-ing just is a **** good one way back in March wrote a declaration^ to all those just beginning with an iota of courage and a good story telling way of seeing and the secret sauce-way to spin my imagination in my eye sockets with their well words, for I am a drinker of the beaujolais firsts of the new grapes of young poets words welling springing from between the oohs and ahs and the damns - I wish I had wrote that... so here’s a hero push - so many kinds of bread to fill our baskets, please girl may I have some more? so here’s to you - and the Great Plains that birthed you, and the breadbasket of four poem/stories you poured out that were so far from plain, how could you know of seas and sea foam and cobalt and mahogany human body parts? and the speech patterns of waves that took me decades to learn? use those “Jacob’s ladders between your fingers,” “whistle me like a stray dog following,” for that’s what “the kingpin of my flighty wits” requires, for this old scribbler is now: “firmly rooted for a girl who's bold enough to crack the whip over her head if ever went to war with myself. A confidant that won't run, won't offer half truth when the whole of it is all that actually matters.” so write with that window light on and wheat fields that can be reenvisioned as the gray-blue sea from which I crawled out of croaking... to read you rightly 6/25/18 10:25PM
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i find myself assuming the role of quiet observer, looking around discreetly, and with more interest than i let on, i am transfixed by the simplicity with which complications arise between crooked pathways and straight lines of people, walking around interacting on levels that confound me and it makes me feel like an island yet uncharted sand untouched, bare of footprints and most of the time, i like it the feeling of being clean unsullied by those complications and i sit on my shore, watching the ragged ships sail by and the gulls circle, crying out why? why do we do these things to ourselves? why do we hide the truth and perform the lies? sometimes, i assume the role of confidant, of living journal and i describe the weight of the words dropped on my pages to nobody, because it really isn't my place to trivialize darknesses other than my own and i understand, i do but i feel lost, some days among the black holes of people who cannot escape their own space their own star-flecked universes and their planets crash into mine Milky Way swerving out of the path of destruction and getting lost in their dissolving sighs and i feel heavy with the ink of their confessions heavy with the advice that they ignore heavy with the simple ideas that crowd my head, circling like those gulls crying out why? why do we do these things to ourselves? why do we confide in strangers and never trust our own star systems to find their way back into orbit? i find myself assuming the role of me, of my own name displayed proudly on my sleeve familiar letters that seem to betray my transparent, flickering image warm and true to friends' eyes, perhaps but the spaces between the characters are what appear to me in the mirror not the black lines but the grey areas and i feel that transparency often when i am surrounded by that sea once again as i so often am and the waves just seem to crash right over me feeling invisible, and yet somehow too visible to ever be a part of the current, it seems as each whisper, each ripple each glance, each possible missed chance each glimmering sail upon the horizon appears to laugh at me whether it's my sad, slow swimming or my ragged inward appearance that shines through the cracks in my face it all becomes part of an image that i see burned upon the surface of my soul and some days it truly feels like even the gulls are circling around me, crying out why? why do you do these things to yourself? why do you even bother?
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Jan 28, 2014
Jan 28, 2014 at 2:11 AM UTC
circling gulls
i find myself assuming the role of quiet observer, looking around discreetly, and with more interest than i let on, i am transfixed by the simplicity with which complications arise between crooked pathways and straight lines of people, walking around interacting on levels that confound me and it makes me feel like an island yet uncharted sand untouched, bare of footprints and most of the time, i like it the feeling of being clean unsullied by those complications and i sit on my shore, watching the ragged ships sail by and the gulls circle, crying out why? why do we do these things to ourselves? why do we hide the truth and perform the lies? sometimes, i assume the role of confidant, of living journal and i describe the weight of the words dropped on my pages to nobody, because it really isn't my place to trivialize darknesses other than my own and i understand, i do but i feel lost, some days among the black holes of people who cannot escape their own space their own star-flecked universes and their planets crash into mine Milky Way swerving out of the path of destruction and getting lost in their dissolving sighs and i feel heavy with the ink of their confessions heavy with the advice that they ignore heavy with the simple ideas that crowd my head, circling like those gulls crying out why? why do we do these things to ourselves? why do we confide in strangers and never trust our own star systems to find their way back into orbit? i find myself assuming the role of me, of my own name displayed proudly on my sleeve familiar letters that seem to betray my transparent, flickering image warm and true to friends' eyes, perhaps but the spaces between the characters are what appear to me in the mirror not the black lines but the grey areas and i feel that transparency often when i am surrounded by that sea once again as i so often am and the waves just seem to crash right over me feeling invisible, and yet somehow too visible to ever be a part of the current, it seems as each whisper, each ripple each glance, each possible missed chance each glimmering sail upon the horizon appears to laugh at me whether it's my sad, slow swimming or my ragged inward appearance that shines through the cracks in my face it all becomes part of an image that i see burned upon the surface of my soul and some days it truly feels like even the gulls are circling around me, crying out why? why do you do these things to yourself? why do you even bother?
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the devil on my shoulder is also my best friend not because i enjoy his company but he's the only one who will listen the angel on my shoulder left after too many mistakes said i was breaking his tiny heart didn't know how much more he could take so the devil now is my only confidant the only one who helps me out sure we get into some trouble but he never has a doubt he doesn't leave when things get hard and i know why that is he likes to see my life spiral downwards because then it relates to his
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Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 4:51 AM UTC
devil on my shoulder
Oh sweet garden. Dearest friend, My conscience, Confidant, Companion-perennial, My hands desire, Let me be your Guardian Angel among the flowers. Not for me H.C. Anderson’s grisly tale of sunbeams and sick children, with the angel filching the flowers to bloom more brightly in heaven than on earth. God forbid! My garden is my heaven, and I’ll make myself wings if I must to fool such fair-weather flowers
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Sep 28, 2012
Sep 28, 2012 at 2:28 AM UTC
An Angel in the Garden
I have fought hard with Anxiety Having been swung between Two spheres of moods One of melancholy and the other Of excited elated optimism Between the two I would exhaust myself Day and Night And to deal with my emotions Was no easy task I would cry and weep I would feel down And blame myself I would apologize For being thus I was not in my element I tell When I am fresh I feel I have lagged behind Due to missing things while at low It has been one sad plight For me to have come thus far I am still hopeful of a day When I have overcome These swinging moods I hope to keep a positive Spirit that enables me To act constructively When I can't be constructive I would just start affirm That I am more Than I think I am Then I start To work like I have been Able bodied and able minded Sitting here jotting down makes it all come to view. Affirm and believe that is what i do now to be better each day I am responsible I am reliable I ma resourceful I am resilient i am healthy; i am lucky ; i am virtuous; i am organized I feel the energy when I say these I act different when I say these I have faith surging into my veins From somewhere or nowhere I create, I cook, I clean, I write, I eat, I make tea, I feed my family I pray, I meditate, I am not overwhelmed i am a wonderful person When I affirm I can live with this person She is good to me She thinks highly of me She attracts nice friends to her She is just pleasant to be around She is someone I could love forever She is my friend and hero She is my superstar and confidant She is all I need to keep me Close to the Creator I love her I love me I love the positive me I love the quiet me I love the peaceful me I love the loving me I love the lovable me i love all that she could be I love all that she gave up for me I love her day and night I love being with her all my life I need noone but her I need nothing but her love I need nothing but her assurance I need only her She and I We are one and the same We play and plan together We are best friends We create our good times We are the joy of the world We are the gift to the world Together we conquer Together we let go Together we enjoy the ocean Together we go places Together we are I and myself
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Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 7:57 PM UTC
Overcome Anxiety
I have fought hard with Anxiety Having been swung between Two spheres of moods One of melancholy and the other Of excited elated optimism Between the two I would exhaust myself Day and Night And to deal with my emotions Was no easy task I would cry and weep I would feel down And blame myself I would apologize For being thus I was not in my element I tell When I am fresh I feel I have lagged behind Due to missing things while at low It has been one sad plight For me to have come thus far I am still hopeful of a day When I have overcome These swinging moods I hope to keep a positive Spirit that enables me To act constructively When I can't be constructive I would just start affirm That I am more Than I think I am Then I start To work like I have been Able bodied and able minded Sitting here jotting down makes it all come to view. Affirm and believe that is what i do now to be better each day I am responsible I am reliable I ma resourceful I am resilient i am healthy; i am lucky ; i am virtuous; i am organized I feel the energy when I say these I act different when I say these I have faith surging into my veins From somewhere or nowhere I create, I cook, I clean, I write, I eat, I make tea, I feed my family I pray, I meditate, I am not overwhelmed i am a wonderful person When I affirm I can live with this person She is good to me She thinks highly of me She attracts nice friends to her She is just pleasant to be around She is someone I could love forever She is my friend and hero She is my superstar and confidant She is all I need to keep me Close to the Creator I love her I love me I love the positive me I love the quiet me I love the peaceful me I love the loving me I love the lovable me i love all that she could be I love all that she gave up for me I love her day and night I love being with her all my life I need noone but her I need nothing but her love I need nothing but her assurance I need only her She and I We are one and the same We play and plan together We are best friends We create our good times We are the joy of the world We are the gift to the world Together we conquer Together we let go Together we enjoy the ocean Together we go places Together we are I and myself
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