You left me
on this windy day
and
my heart blew
straight out of my chest
onto the sidewalk
and into the gutter

now what??

you should pay for your heinous crime

The clock is sitting by the bed
I hear it ticking in my head
it's morning that I really dread
time to go and make the bread
have to keep the family fed
if I don't, then they'll be dead

I had it back in October
as the autumn leaves took flight

But then in chilly November
I became aware of my poetic plight

December has arrived
and my mind is still blank

I'm in desperate need
of some fuel in my tank

The words escape me
my mind I can't use

the burning question
where the hell is my muse?

Late at night
when all the world
is sound asleep
I sit silently
at the top
of our favorite hill
and watch the sky
without blinking
not even for
a single moment
I watch
hoping for
some sort of sign
that you are
still with me

do you see my sad eyes?
do you hear my midnight cries?
can you feel the pain in my heart?
or the constant aching I hold inside?

yes, heaven got an angel
the day you arrived
but now
I am living in hell
and the earthly flames
consume me greedily
day by day
pieces of me dissolve
into the loneliness
of my fractured heart
without you
I burn fircely
without even
putting up a fight

There's always a tiny glimmer of hope
left within my fractured heart
when seeing that one dandelion
standing tall after a rainstorm
even after all the battering
that resilient little ****
refuses to give up

You used to call me your
"Lily of the Valley"
now I have to buy my own flowers
and put them in the broken vase
that you left behind when you were
through breaking my heart
Now I feel like "ragweed"
just run me over
with the
"lawn mower" of your deceit
I hope you run out of gas soon
my roots can't take it much longer

I walked outside and saw your face
your head was red like a beet
you had a hammer in your grasp
and I saw you stomping your feet

I watched you close for a minute or two
you really didn't look well
so I decided to do the right thing
to take off and run like hell

But unfortunately you were able to see me
you turned and took off like a shot
screaming like a banshee
your temper was really hot

I ran and ran until I fell
I think I even scraped my knee
Got back up and ran some more
Cause I didn't want you killing me

I ran all day and into the night
I didn't even stop to ***
Trying to figure out
Why you were chasing me

Something was off, this wasn't right
nothing was really like it seems
I heard your voice "wake up wake up"
I was having one of my crazy dreams

I would walk a thousand miles
to possess a thousand of your smiles

I would paint a thousand skies
to see my soul within your eyes

I would challenge heaven above
to be the recipient of your love

I would beat a thousand thugs
if you'd heal me with your hugs

Satan himself I would face
just to feel your warm embrace

Chocolate ice cream running
down my pudgy chin
licking it up quickly
like it's liquid sin

This sweet stuff really makes me
do a little dance
but my *** is spreading
in my yoga pants

I'm gonna have to stop it
and put it down for good
even though I hate to
I know I really should

I'll eat it in the morning
and then again at night
it's no ****** wonder
my pants are getting tight

I could pray to God in heaven
make a wish upon the moon
or stop being so lazy
and just put down the spoon

Falling in love with you
was like jumping off a cliff
with no parachute available
to the very last possible moment

but worth every bit of sheer terror...

This ring upon my finger
means so very much to me
and in your loving arms
is where I'll always be

You've always been my love
and that you'll always be
and I am ever grateful
that you have chosen me

My greatest desire
is to be a better person
than I was the day before

To reach new heights
without fear

To accomplish goals
without seeking reward

To forgive
even when it's painful

To love
unconditionally

and to face tomorrow
with a brand new attitude

Roses are red
and violets are blue
I wish you'd come home
cause I really miss you

If an angel from heaven above
came to rest by my weary side
and said that she would  
grant me one final wish
I would wish
that we had
an eternity
together

and then some...

My love for you
is like the
tenacious dandelion
no matter
how many times
you cut me down
I'll be back...

my mirror always lies
or maybe it's the brutal truth
and I just don't know it

my bed doesn't hold me anymore
my pillows are like stone
tears leaking from me
staining the sheets
like a new born ******

the map in my head
no longer has an "x"
which was how I could find you

the beautiful creation
the masterpiece of us
now just a distant heartache
and
the rumors of my death
were started by me

I have been freed
or so they tell me...

My body aches
in the middle of the night
awaiting your tender touch
Your whispers finding their way
into my deep hidden places
My urges strong and sure
Needing a connection
before I head to the other side
of my pillow

I scream
but you don't listen
your ears
must be broken

you know
like my heart

that thing
you ripped
out of my chest
and stomped on

no matter
I slept with
your little brother
and he says
"you hit like a girl"

my heart weeps
at the thought
of you
in her arms

the dark
slicing away at me
like a cold steel blade
to my skin

the night
choking me
with my own regrets

Notebooks scattered here and there
Broken pencils in cup holders
Empty energy drink cans on the floor
***** of paper strewn across the house
An open thesaurus on the kitchen counter
Instrumental music on loop playing
and the poet themself draped
over the couch cushions fast asleep
with all their clothes on...

Sometimes
in the middle of the night
I sit in the middle of my country
in the middle of my state
in the middle of my town
in the middle of my neighborhood
in the middle of my house
in the middle of my room
in the middle of my bed
wondering
what the hell happened to my life?
and how the hell did I get here?
and as a matter of fact,
who the hell am I
and
what the hell am I planning to do
with the rest of my life?

distant thunder calling
mugginess in the air
late afternoon showers
welcomed
                   by
                        the thirsty flowers

once upon a time
there was a girl named Sue
I fell in love
with her glitter tattoo

it wasn't real
I knew it from the start
I didn't care
I just wanted her heart

so I went to the store
to find me a tat
all I could find
was a friggin' bat

so I spit in my hand
slapped it onto my chest
it looked pretty awesome
I never would've guessed

I got to her house
and knocked on the door
she jumped off the bed
her feet hit the floor

She got a look
at my new tattoo
then she whispered
"I love you"

The setting sun inspires me
to settle all my affairs of the day
to let all stresses fade away
into the deep velvet purple sky
and allowing all the daily problems
to disappear silently into the horizon

Your crimson lips
upon my brow
your breathy whispers
upon my tender skin
your cool fingertips
dancing across my cheek
the chill is unforgettable

I am forever in love with you
You are my whole life
My soulmate

You're better than...

a whole field of wild flowers
the sunrise after a rainy week
a 3 day long snowstorm
a brand new pair of shoes
a crisp $100 bill
the Northern Lights
raw cookie dough ice cream
left over pizza
the first morning glory that wakes
the highest snow capped mountain

and last but not least

you're better than...

ME

so thank you for loving me like you do
my precious love

I LOVE YOU

"a bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck, a barrel and a heap and I'm talking in my sleep...about you