Chaos in my mind
Spirals on repeat They left me behind Blisters on my feet I’m lost and I’m blind Empty and Complete I try to chase my thoughts But they end up chasing me
Dying out in dreams
Living another nightmare Anxiety screams These unlettered fears A cosmic scare.
Will you ever shut down? Had to ask.
Providence the dreadful mystery;
The impeccable dignities and places Sweep in spirals, from the sand; that blowed And licked at your feet The world Conceived before those hills Foot-fast; Look, where He strove to get at.
At a place where no one hears
At a time when no one sees Waves flows down along with tears And a full lovestruck world begins There is a bitter metaphor That let the days drip off the sun And all the dreams that we adore Were that full world that had begun Spirals, spirals The way it is We keep going on Spirals, spirals The way it feels We keep moving on At a place where the night ends At a time when stars burn down Hearts open along with men Voices become an only sound There is a late evening laughter That let the talks come back to live And made the words become lighter So the voices again could breathe Spirals, spirals The way it goes We keep advancing Spirals, spirals The way it loves We keep on wishing At the center of the circle The warm beating of living souls That noise so soft and so little A small echo of it still falls At the top of the sky Dazzling embraces in the heat Holding close whatever comes by Turning it into years so sweet Spirals,spirals The way it was We keep on learning Spirals, spirals The way it shows We keep on spinning.
i don't want to die.
just not exist for a while. sleeping but the world forgets about you for as long as you lay down. a quiet body in an empty room. i am running from my problems but i run in spirals.
So what if I love you?
Do you care? I don’t. If you don’t try, I won’t. I’ve tried to the best of my abilities. To me this is a mystery. Why do you hurt so much? I’m in constant misery. It’s not your fault. Please just tell me why. Poking and prodding, Until they die.
drifting in and out of wakefulness
feeling everything and nothing all at once that lump in my throat but i can’t cry i shut my eyes and press against them my palms. i see swivels and vanishing spirals, i see everything and nothing all at once and i’m begging for it not to stop. i scream into a pillow leaving traces of saliva i still can’t cry, i still just can’t cry. my head hurts like a hundred fingers flicking at it it tingles like ants crawling underneath. it feels sunken like the titanic with all its people and i’m jack in the freezing water. my eyes heave and try fluttering shut i say no, not now. it’s strange how my brain is a different entity, almost like a guest that is always “going to leave” but ends up staying the whole time. maybe if i slit my forehead open the ants under my skin will stop maybe my head will finally feel light even though my hair has been gone for days. dear disheveled mind, *******.
Close your eyes
staring at the sun it’s dropping fast burnt umber runs Mountain auras dividing shadows lights the purple line between day and night Dark silhouettes sinking deep illuminates behind the promise of sleep Night stars cascading emu peeps between milky light eternally creeps Shooting stars bright inner eye sees cacophonies of colour shapes our very lives It’s dreams, it’s time it’s endless and divine this half way place all here, sublime It’s spirals, it’s dots it’s country, it’s us explaining the universe simple yet complex
There are storm clouds up in the sky
raining down terror on my eyes humanity spirals for a slow demise all our documentations are filled with lies oh please wake me now this dream it is foul see lighting touching down am i finally awake now see the clouds slowly passing by see myself as I slowly die am I falling trying to fly searching for truth with the lies