The memories replay in my mind
The poems that I've read so many times
The truth of you I try to find
Scanning each moment, each complex rhyme
I try to understand the scars on your arm
The depression you've resigned yourself to
But I feel in you more than just your blade’s charm
There's a light deep down inside you
So long you've been fighting
To always keep that light
All the thoughts you put into writing:
You're winning your fight
But I still have trouble finding who you are
The truth is more than I can ever hope of seeing
Even in your bittersweet hell, with every scar
You care with every fiber of your being
The truth escapes me
No matter how hard I try
But I do know that you’re a deep, beautiful sea
The reason for the sapphires in my eyes

How lovely, I thought,
To see some red drop.
A splash of vibrant color ,
A drop staining red as it spreads through the water.

How graceful, I pondered,
Like a little fire dancing amongst the air.

What a shame*, I sighed,
That to admire something so lovely, so graceful,
I must shed my skin
to leave an opening
so I may see my blood become a dancer in the wind.

Thank you for the broken heart.
Thank you for the permanent scar.
Because of you,
I was able to find someone better,
The love of my life.

Sitting on the bathroom floor
Getting drizzled by a substitute for rain
I'm scrubbing my unclean wounds
In the hope of washing away the pain

Finally leaving the lavatory
I felt the electronically generated frosted air
I turned on the lights
No one was there

I moved to the bed
Where the pillows lie
As I tuck myself to sleep
I started to wonder why

Caressing my face
With a damp cloth
No tears fell
But who would have thought

As I learned the meaning of
The word treachery
In the dark
You abandoned me

I can't believe that it's you whom I used to write for
And if ever you knew
Of the countless words and that I'm still writing more
What would you do?