One day, maybe in two years, I’ll eventually
finally experience the rush
I’ve dreamt of the future
that I so terribly ached
for, that I would undoubtedly risk
the factors of throwing away used
items that I no longer cherished, used
people only needed to be a stand-in, and eventually
the risk
will not catch up to me, since the rush
of real happiness overshadows the ache
like a penumbra clearing away in the future.
But it’s terrifying knowing that the future
will become a washed up, used
daydream to quiet the ache
I thought would never eventually
stop the overflowing rush
knowing that my biggest dream is entirely a risk.
I am willing to take the risk
so that my deserved future
will swell over the echoed rush
coffee beans stained used
cups will eventually
wash away ache.
supposed to be a sestina but I got tired and confused and frustrated, so I may delete this
