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Last night I told her
I wanted strawbeeries

am i stoic
for not feeling anything when in the presence of death
for not feeling anything when knowing it was his last breath
am i sick
for my heart not enduring pain
for my heart disconnecting with my brain
is it heroic
for my own body not to go through the stages
for my own body to be trapped in its plentiful cages
will it click
that he's actually gone
that i should be drawn
to it?

as sunlight's last rays
sink over the horizon
night's long shadow looms

My eyes grew dim
That moment
I first saw you

I swear you took my soul
breathed it in
And wrapped around your
Sweet sugar tongue

I watched mesmorized
As you inhaled
My smoke fumes
Watched me dance
around the room
Spinning on such sweet
afternotes of you

I tried to speak
As i watched my feet
Stood backwards
And felt your finger tips
Glide inside of me

I gazed up and down at you
But to no end
You said we could only be
Lovers after dew

Never before
And never again

I spring
Every winter
Waiting for you

I am truly sorry to say
Today...
Today is the day
Today is your last
But be proud of your past
Be thankful for the time
Be thankful for this life
I know you are worried
You haven't lived right
But don't be discouraged

To some
The things that you've done
They may have seemed wrong
For others, they saw them as right
But don't be discouraged
You can't please them all
We all
Have our rises and falls

Today...
Today is the day
You will fall no longer

Today is the day
You will no longer see hardship
You will no longer feel pain
The world around you
Will drift away

Today is the day
You meet your demise
But please realize
Today
Could have come sooner
Instead,
It's today
Today is just another day.
Like all those before it
Like those that may have come after
Nothing different
Nothing changed
But today

Today is the day
Life flashing before your eyes
Vivid visions
Marbled memories
And colorful recollections
Fading to gray

What lies ahead for you
I cannot say

But maybe this life...

In its entirety...

Is just another day

Falling asleep

Drifting in darkness

Until we awake