I just feel dizy Where all the time go Nothing is logical and I've lot the sense of purpose And even though I'm still a human My body makes me feel like I'm just a reject Reject of stars Reject of life Nothing is logical and I've lost the sense of purpose My body's flying But I stay put down Is this really the end of my existance?
you turn to me but i'm not there i'm drowning i told you but you couldn't listen the thoughts won't make sense none are clear they're surrounding encompassing and unnerving if i take one last breath would you notice the body folded neatly lying under the baggage you placed on my back i can no longer support myself but you won't take the load stuck inside your head and i'm stuck with you if i stop speaking i'll stop breathing so i'll carry on until my fingers are shaking too much from lack of oxygen or sometimes too much i can hear my breathing speeding up faster ready to take off and fly away with what's left of my soul and spirit that you didn't crush still going as i recognise the dizzy daze i'm falling into waiting to collapse in on myself for maybe the last time for a while at least we both know it won't happen because of you i couldn't however much you argue and scream and shout or maybe it's because of her calming my mind ok i have to stop now i told you it would get too much once again i say i'm sorry remember me or the old me if you can it wasn't your fault
kiss away my pain softly please all i can ask for is that you don’t hate my dismay because somehow someway after yesterday when you kissed me i got the rush that i once felt in the dizzy of our laughter and this morning it hasn’t gone away
Change: I hate this anxious feeling just before a change, Hate to have this feeling when I feel overwhelmed and everything becomes hard to manage, Heart beat runs faster than train, this makes me feel so drain, Man! Why it doesn't have a stop just like a train? It makes me feel dizzy, when I try to control, Makes me wonder from where It comes, all of sudden, I lost in its thunder, And it does rain, When it makes me completely lose my brain. Hate to have this feeling just before a change.