Sleeping
The bad dreams
Have me falling off the deep end
When will time resume
And kick off this weekend?

I see the planes fly by
And I just spend my time
Wishing
It’s you or I
What’s my demise
Could it be my feelings

I’ve been running my whole life
What’s the point of it all
Or are we all just dreaming?
I try to decipher this life
I try to comprehend
I try to find a meaning

But this is bigger than                                                             ­                Both you and I

I’m hurting on the cellular level
Where are you,
How are you feeling

I just want to say Goodbye
To my ****** old self
Let them rest, let them rot
They were never part
Let them fall this deep end

Here are my...

words deepest down,
birthing to have sound,
yearning to be found,
turning my frown
about face, one-eighty, and right-around.

This is my...

music exposing my present mood,
renewing my resolve,
tempering my fortitude,
ushering me from out of my solitude,
embracing my greater magnitude,
with unquantifiable certitude.
I'm more than okay...

more than alright,
this is my fight,
heavy smite,
that knock out right,
putting out life's lights.

I am...
this is me foreseeing,
see what I've become now,
is my vengeance, my reckoning,
here walks the soothsayer,
nice to meet me,
now get out of...

my way.

feels like knives in my mouth
needles through my tongue
like when i got it pierced, and my father ripped it out
because he didn’t approve

i have a headache from biting down too hard
my teeth hugging each other
in this sad attempt to feel whole
even though bits and pieces of their body
fall into the black void of my stomach
where all things sick must stay
hidden within

and the inside of my cheek is bleeding
the watered-down red spill into my words
making the clean ones *****
i have to choose my next words wisely
i wouldn’t want to overstep my over blurred boundaries

there are crescent moons in the palms of my hands
they tell me it’s going to be okay either way
little smiles ready to remind me after it’s done
that my chest will remain standing
heart intact, lungs inhaling

i have to remind my legs to keep on standing
because as your eyes look into mine
i feel like I am the only thing you’ve ever seen
and I mean that in the worst possible way

your stare feels like shame on my skin
little burns on my neck and cheek and lips
all the places you’ve kissed before

all the places you’ve touched before
held before
gazed upon like they were fine art before
none of the words
none of those things I said before
matter anymore

because when I told you I loved you
your ‘I love you, too’ sounded
a lot like silence

Maybe somewhere out there in an alternate universe you fell in love with me
Perhaps in this other universe I was the one, and the only one, not the other one
Alternatively, in this made up universe I was not a naive girl who wanted to believe you could give a **** about me

I wish I could step into this alternate reality and feel what it would be like to be loved by you
To be held by you
To be kissed by you
Simply to be noticed by you

I would give anything to waltz into the room and your eyes be drawn to me first
To be the first name you want to call when you have something important to say
To be the girl who holds up the posters rooting for you in any situation

Maybe one day I won't be the other girl.

Lucky i was

Rough tough year
It was for me
Tears and fear of being alone.....
I had .....
But you came along
Gave me everything
I ever asked for
Anything i didn't had

I was the head
You were the neck
Gave me balance
You did
Take care for me
You were for me but changes
Changed me
I took advantage
And those were not my intentions
It was the stage
I was growing
Glowing in the dark
Everyone started to noticed me
Through all you stayed
You never left
As they did
They played me
As i was playing you....
Guilty came
Soon you found out
About my affairs
Out of our relationship
It wasn't fair
Even though..... your lies
I trusted you...
Since the day
I layed my eyes
On you
I saw the real amoung
The fake...
You gave you couldn't take
Now i want the chance that comes second
To make
A difference from last
Its the past
We can wipe it away like dust
Even though it keeps coming again
In our memories with pain
We can't complain
Its life
To us....i wish we can say that with glasses of Champaign
And we will drown the pain
Along with our past that passed....

Lucky....i'm🌹

Community Poem

We are equal, but with diverse ways and meaning of life,
We are equal, but end with same manner in this life,
At least, we all shall wind up, not knowing the end,
At least our fate make us equal to each other, in this life,



We stumble upon the unknown end,
As if it’s a new place or planet,
That we would be going to discover,
As we go, we can’t come back,



Our community is large,
But with less friends,
As we consider others as strangers,
Even though they are our same kind,



They came to this world just like us,
And will come to an end just like us,
Our flowers grow, and rot till time,
Just as us, everything carry same fate,



In our world, everyone is equal,
But we are confined to communities,
Communities are built on a new dream,
That will come to others hands as well.

Source: https://poemtheart.com/poems-about-community/
(By Sarah Shahzad, February 2020)