i don’t know how it could be?
that now you are here for me
you're always there to cheer me up
when i feel like i'm about to pop
how could i love you more?
more than you're asking for
i wish i could do the same
embracing you when the rain came
loving you with all of my heart
like no one can break us apart…

How can you carry yourself-
an empty mind, heart, and soul?

my gravel-headed daydream,
or
is your head a cloud?
Your eyes must be water droplets.
Behind tired eyes, I see you
and
the sun is breaking you open
exposing your inner fog.
Why did I think you were made of
small pebbles?
You can be nothing but
the morning clouds drawing their lines
across the sky.

We run in the same circles
I figured this would happen
That I couldn't avoid you forever
I watched as temporary girls clung to you
I pretended not to notice
I smiled too brightly and laughed too loudly
Hoping to that I could cause the same ache in your chest that was living in mine
But I had to tell myself that even though you were here you weren't here for me

Unhinge your jaw and shut your eyes
because the best things in life are simply felt,
and you’ll feel it everywhere if you’re doing it right.
A spark of electricity will ignite where your tongues dance
and it will sizzle through your teeth and down your throat,
lighting fires where you didn’t think could burn.
Curl your toes and knot your fingers into her hair like it is your lifeline.
Weld yourselves together, crawl into each other.
Run your tongue along hers until everything tastes like ‘we’.
Don’t forget to breathe; share the air until it’s gone
and all you have left to survive on is each other’s souls.
And whatever you do, don’t stop kissing her.
If you do, your lips will lose all meaning
because their only purpose now is to taste hers.
Your eyes will open and the world will seem a little grayer
As your soul untangles itself from hers.
Your tongue will become a defibrillator,
trying to revive the moment,
trying to recreate the electricity only you two can make.

How do i know you,
when the rain came down peacefully?
And it happens every year.
Since the year i've started here.
This is still 2015, and it's not over yet.
We've only got 2 weeks until 2016 comes as soon as possible.

Anonymous. 12/14/2015.
©2015 Trevon S. Haywood.

It doesn't matter what I write
This all lives inside me still
Waiting around to strike

I think I've lost before I start
I think I've failed before I've tried
I think it's over before it could ever begin
I am my own worst nightmare

The music I've held so dear to my soul
Should shed light on what I feel
Do you give it a chance
Do you give me a chance
Before you cast you stones and cast your judgements on me

I think I'm fat when I starve
I think I'm ***** when I'm clean
I think that, I'm sure that you could never want me
I am my own misery

The fires I'm watching, so close in sight
Could burn even our sun
Could you come closer, ***
Oh, will you stay with me
This time I meant everything I said, I promise

I think that I'm worthless
I think I'm a prize
I think that I'm clueless
I think that I'm bright
I live in the darkness
But I hold the light
I could get out but there's nothing for me
At least in the cold I have myself