"How do I become successful?"
"Are you alive?"
"Then you're already doing it.
Keep it up."
Wait a moment after you open your eyes,thinking and wanting to just go back to bed.
Realize you can’t.
Sit up and look out the window. Contemplate jumping out.
Distract yourself and tell yourself you’ll jump tomorrow.
Get dressed, wander to the bathroom thoughtlessly, and do the same mundane tasks you do every morning.
Start to smile. Who knows,maybe you’ll fool yourself.
Repeat the next day.
i was told how to pick up a pen and write
i was to scribble in certain ways to make a symbol
they said it would ground me
it would connect me
what am i supposed to connect to in the first place
they showed me how deep
how deep it could be once i picked up the pen
i could write whatever
just give it to the paper
a paper doesnt feel
it cant cry
it just cant
so why would i not give it my pains
i could be free
but a pencil cant be free without its paper
thats as far as i will get
I spewed this nonsense out in just a few minutes, while I feel like I've been staying up late for hours, yet it's only 10 p.m
Whether a comma, or colon:
Punctuation slows my rolling
I need no period. When I end
no Capitalization when I begin
Rulelessly I flow my art
Not a single!
Are you not the one
Where a question mark
No longer goes
Warp the structure
Bend the lines
Put in repeat
Let emotion unwind
Your poetry's the best
Be your own ruler
Pass your own test
Take your own road
Where ever it leads
Lover or hater
It's all poetry!
No matter who you are
You have my deepest respect!
Reread all old messages
look at old pictures
Cry your eyes out
Once you finished pitying yourself, get your **** togheter
Delete everything, photos, messages, everything
Remembering you didn´t delet their number
and calling them, drunk
Regret everything again
Watch 90´s love movies and eat ice cream
Get dressed, make yourself ready to go out
Get drunk again
Do not call them
Cry yourself to sleep
Stand up, you are strong.
Now tell that the mirror another 99 times.
Smile, it´s okay to happy
Remember you could live without them before
Breathe, look around and notice the world didn´t stop spinning
Remember the good times, but don´t cry. Just smile
First, you must let yourself be swallowed by her
You must relish the way she digests you
You must watch the cold gear of a tired jaw grind you to sand
You must taste her tastes
And smell her scents
You must become her if you wish to love her
Second, you must navigate her
You must become the cartographer of her hips
You must name every hair
You must know every scar and blemish like a captain knows his shore
Understand all the ways you fit into her arms best
You must memorize her rocky coasts if you wish to love her
Third, you must bleed for her
You must let her pain bruise you instead
You must drown in your own tears just to keep her cheeks dry
You must kneel for her on broken glass
Become her knight
You must be willing to give your soul to know she’ll never have to give hers if you wish to love her
Fourth, you must kiss her
You must taste the salt of her skin between your cheeks with every breath
You must bind her like a captive in your lips
You must make time to just
Kiss her like she’s the last person on earth
You must make her your favorite flavor if you wish to love her
Fifth, you must hear her
You must make your cheeks curl like hers when she recounts her tales
You must welcome her into your ears like your favorite song
You must hum the contours of her voice as you float between her spaces
Feel the bass drum of her heartbeat
You must dance to the sound of her breath if you wish to love her
To write a love poem for her
You must write with the words she taught you
You must speak in tongues
You must spell it out in the colors of her eyes
In the long hugs that mean only themselves
You must be fluent in her if you wish to love her
If you want to write her a love poem
You must first fall in love with her
And by then
You’ll have already done it
Written September 2018
Fall in love and get your heart broken.
If you already did, then do it again,
and write about someone new.
Let the cycle continue—
until your heart breaks.
And you can no longer feel.
And you become numb and cold.
Then you begin to wonder…
Why am I doing this to myself?
Why is this happening to me?
Why am I just cycling around like a bicycle...
In the endless pit of despair?
When is someone not going to break my heart?
I wrote this after my first heartbreak.
Step one: Never let
Anyone get close to you.
I failed step one.
Step two: Don’t ever
Show anyone that you care.
I failed step two.
Step three: For the love
Of god, don’t hope that they’ll stay.
I failed step three.
How to put your emotions in a box and lock it.
Find directions to the rabbit hole.
Follow it deep into its darkness,
Make a trip out of it.
Remember salvation is found,
At the bottom of a bottle.
Spoiler alert...it’s not water.
Get ****** up,
Look in the mirror,
And question this thing staring back at you.
Fourth and final step,
Repeat until you hit rock bottom.
That’s where you find freedom.
I am home writing a poem
Elbow on thigh
Cheek on bended knuckle
Mind on furrowed eyebrows