Resentment, It really is unfair that I entrench you in despise But looking in your eyes it's just not cutting through all the lies The lies I tell myself so I can get by feeling alone Disconnected All the ******* time I'm only reflecting how you make me feel Difference is mines with itnention while your is innocent still.
The only way I see this isn't through my eyes But crying everytime I see Something which you can't make mine
Mine is home Mine is love Mine is the effort you got to despite all above.
But the word forget has froze you still Stuck in care and sweetness But passion and **** need to be separated my love.
10mgs, 20mgs. One,two,three.. day after day. All just to keep this artificial smile on display. Days drag out and the little stars that twinkled in our eyes now replaced by black holes. Our soulless bodies sinking like broken bottles in the ocean. The happy memories that haunted our minds nearly gone, the goosebumps we got when we remembered our first kiss are no more. Bodies numb. This feeling,this curse; inevitable. Every child born after condemned to a lifetime of synthetic happiness. In capsules of sea foam green,and custard yellow. To be taken like our favorite candy. The amount being consumed will become ungodly leaving hollowed shells and the walls to talk to. Only the last glimmer of light in your pretty little head can save you. Every memory. Every emotion colliding like a kaleidescope of color. The thoughts of him,thoughts of her. The voices... Another simulation complete.
not sometimes, not constantly. well i'm not too sure. maybe..
i feel like i'm constantly being dragged in every direction, the stars are plucking at my hair like strings. and my mind- it seems to wander, goes anywhere else but where i need it to be.
i will never understand why my feet forget how to walk sometimes, no they're not judging the way you walk- well, now, maybe. i'm not breathing that loudly- stop it you know how to breathe, now you can't catch your breath.
i will never understand why my eyes flicker to find people who i assume are looking or thinking about me. no one cares.
sometimes my mind feels distressed, and oceans form inside my chest. voices threatening immediate attack, inside my head I only see black. the gentle waves lap over my feet, from my terrifying mind I do retreat.
I take this page and bleed myself out, my words I could never live without.
Why is it you choose to only yell at me How come when Something goes wrong Im the only one your blind eyes can see I mean ya it was me but only to a certain degree You talk to them but to me u act beastly You say I can talk freely But then stop me in my tracks saying u disagree You throw my will around like a frisbee And when I react you say "woah calm down love take a knee" You love to preach how I can be "anything I wanna be" Yet when I tell you you act as if your the referee Calling me back to reality You cook me on the stove like I'm a panini And yes that maybe have been a hyperbole But It's like I'm trying to live my life without a short coming And your killing me slowly ur like a H.I.V In fact it feels like I'm throwing a party But you don't like it so ur knocking on my door like ur the l.a.p.d I'm Tryna rid u of my life a.s.ap But I mean hey ur my parents and I'm and only fifteen
I don't want to kick the hornets nest But I am felling quit depressed And begaining to get awful distressed There is things I need to express Because my chest is really compressed I know it's from all the stress It will be hard for you to digest But I have to get this off my chest This problem must be addressed I think it is for the best That all of it is confessed I know after I tell you, me you'll detest But maybe that's for the best
Oooh never mind I'll just keep these hornets in their hive And stay in the shadows and hide