and all the pain you felt when it was over
made you realize that
god was dead, and
hell was real,
so why bother anymore?
you taught yourself
how to feel nothing at all,
and thats when you discovered
that it was easier to exist
when reality was altered,
and your hands didnt shake so much
when you were holding onto a lighter
for dear life.
and jesus christ you wanted
to light yourself on fire,
just to feel something
other than this sadness,
but you're a coward,
so you settled for your
fifth cigarette in 3 hours

Something with fate and the day it was sealed. Go back to a time where I could have changed his life and he could have changed mine. The day when I saw him standing alone. I was a coward. Still am.

I might compare ourselves with the tides in the sea,
though this might go farout.
A single roller comes splasing into the land
but just for a minute or so,
because by  then, the waves slowly ebb back into the ocean
to be in its original form.

Goodnight,
That's all I said,
Because fear was stronger than my mind's might...
For in reality, I wished to be in your bed.

Relax, ***** minded beauty,
I wished you were sound asleep in my arms...
Because I knew when you're sleeping you'd be more than a cutie
And the comfort of my arms would keep you out of the way of Harm's.

I was so desperate to cuddle with you,
To close the distance that's making me blue,
That I was contemplating pulling a Romeo:
Climbing up your balcony just to serenade you.

But I guess I was too scared,
That you'd be surprised by how much I cared.

I continue loving you from a distance,
That one chance you had, you missed it.

You lit the flame, I ignited it, so I'm the one who's to blame.

I let you in, tried to open you up, while knowing what I was getting involved in...

You cut me off when I needed you most, tried to warm your heart, when I saw you were cold,
we've grown so close became vulnerable.

"I should have known."

Now I'm here, with my heart strings bleeding , because you cut them by leaving.

Right when I needed...
I pleaded...
But you're cowardly conceited...

You're afraid of love,
I can see it in your eyes,
"Don't look away."
No need to masquerade,
I see it through your cold disguise,
"Please be brave."
I know you want it,
you're suppressing it like I.

A part of me already knew you would do something like this...
I didn't want to believe that it was true.
Why would you start pretending I never existed?
"Just like I predicted."
You dismissed it,
Instead of trying to fix this.