My thoughts
They can get scary
It's threats, more often than not, not empty
It's hard to convey what they say
They whisper a fray of cliche self hate with 41 years to work it's way to this level of decay
It's all consuming, engulfing then removing positivity 'til it's so scarce I'm left to pretend mostly
A sparse landscape of depravity naturally
Clear cut to make way for the fear factory
The soul fractures, now solely fear so to ward off lonely I let it stay
Not knowing how to play
Leaves me in the dark on what's at play

My thoughts
They aren't worth a penny
My two cents is free
I'd pay you to take them all completely
Is there a chance it gets messy?
Abso-freakin-lutely
But oh what a hero you could be
Imagine it up on a marquee, shining brightly
"Some dumb fuuck, a heros story"
(A family movie)
I'll be the monkey in the middle, come meet me
Come greet me and see purgatory, my state of temporary suffering and predetermined misery
What I'm forced to portray is only done cause I must obey or pay some ******* up penalty
Knowing I am the game and the prey, feeding a self-righteous gluttony
How much more do you want from me?
How much more must I contort for thee?

©2024

𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒈𝒐
𝑯𝒐𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍 𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒚
𝑳𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒃𝒊𝒈 𝒏𝒐
𝑪𝒐𝒛 𝒘𝒆'𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒕𝒚.

𝑯𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕
𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒇 𝑰 𝒈𝒐 𝒃𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒅
𝑫𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒅
𝑪𝒐𝒛 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝑰'𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕.

𝑪𝒐𝒏𝒇𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖
𝑨𝒔 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓
𝑮𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒄𝒍𝒖𝒆
𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒒𝒖𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓.

𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆
𝑻𝒐𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒙𝒕 𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒛𝒐𝒏
𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒊𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏
𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒇 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅, 𝒘𝒆'𝒍𝒍 𝒄𝒐𝒑𝒆.

लम्बी हँे रात काली, कल होगा फिर सबेरा ——२
धड्कन बढालो तुम दिलके अप्नी रातमे कोई जगेगा

गातँेरहो गीत तुम अप्नी कल कोइ सुनेगा
धड्कन बढालो तुम दिलके अप्नी रातमे कोइ  जगेगा

लम्बी हे रात काली कल होगा फिर सबेरा ——२

उम्मीदँे फरियादँे तुम गा कर सुनाव ——२
दर्द भरी पलको तुम रो कर सुनाव ——२
बातँे बारसातके तुम हस् कर सुनाव ——२
खाब भरी पलको तुम गा कर सुनाव ——२

गातेरहो गीत तुम अप्नी कल कोइ सुनेगा  
धड्कन बढालो तुम दिलके अप्नी रातमे कोइ जगेगा

लम्बी हे रात काली कल होगा फिर सबेरा
गातेरहो गीत तुम अप्नी कल कोइ सुनेगा
समरती पाऊ आकर कल तुुम्से  मीलेँगा
खुली आँख आकर तुम्से वातेँ करेगा
दिप साफ आकर तुम्को राहँे दिखाएगा
गाते रहो गीत तुम अप्नी कल कोइ सुनेगा

लम्बी हे रात काली ,कल होगा फिर सबेरा
गाते रहो गीत तुम अप्नी  कल कोइ सुनेगा ——२

"What is that you wanted to tell me?"
Everything that she mused to utter,
Appeared to dwindle away
Failing to convey, trying to cover it she emitted a mutter

(flashback)
"Oh! Why can't I convey it?"
The room echoed by her repeated query
While she stared at her tired reflection
Only the seized silver image can hearken her clearly

In fright of loosing someone;
The people who are her life's vital part
Failing to convey her love to them;
To the people who are the beat of her heart

But now, plucking some grit;
She desired to convey it all
"Uh...I uh... It was th...that"* she stuttered
"Nothing much, how are you?" she finally call.

**© by Ruman Hafsa

Words may be a hindrance
Forming hard crust over feelings
You wanted to convey
At the core of those words
The true meaning is lost forever
At times, when words don’t suffice
Pure and raw feelings are more potent
There are many miles traversed
Between the feelings and the words
Somewhere, the line is drawn inadvertently
Hurdles imaginary are the toughest ones
Endless numbers of words do not right
The wrongs meted out to the true feelings
Heart will wither away, if not revived
At the avenue where words are shunned
It’s where hearts shall meet, without prejudice
Not weighed down by the frills of words
Life is embellished with silence
When hearts do the talking, sans the words