How cold was the night when Belle learned to love a horrid beast?
How bright was the evening when Wendy chose to never leave?
How silent was the dark when Aurora was sound asleep?
How selfish was the midnight when Cinderella’s shoe fell off her feet?

Now, those are magics and princesses made up of fiction and fantasies;
We are blood and flesh made up of atoms and reality
Who are forced to believe someday we'll be as lucky
To have our own kind of sweet tell-a-tale stories.

But how cold was the night when you waited for someone to come back?
How bright was the evening when you wished upon a shooting star on the sky?
How silent was the dark with your sobs and tears that were left to cry?
How selfish was midnight when you realize no one's returning as you look at the clock?

It all happens after AM
when the night was cold
while the evening was bright
the dark was silent
and the midnight was selfish.

— 𝙘𝙗.𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙙

Slowly
Unexpected
When you thought it was over

today looks like knowing.
it looks like coming to and realizing that making me feel hard to love has more to do with your heart than mine.

realizing you brought out the lesser parts of me.
the unease,
the pain,
the doubt,
all this waiting

and in the end you are only sadness.
and i’ve fought my whole life for happy.
i’ve fought my whole life for the opposite of you.
there are no regrets here, because this brought me closer to myself.
closer to trusting me.

all this time i was waiting for the silence,
to hear the right voice in my head.
...it took so long
because i thought I was waiting for you.

Deathly hollow eyes staring black
Pupils dilated in the abyss
Autopilot is all that’s left
Thoughts flooded of final bliss

Overdosed on emotions
Versatile and utterly unnecessary
My heart is empty but not broken
This feeling is so familiarly scary

This is what I felt in the absence of you
The disappearance of first love
My walls surrounded me, deathly blue
And all was drained from above

Panic and fear is all that’s missing
Manic is the replacement now
My heart wont stop cooing and singing
For the final leap, the last bow

Living in the moment is fright
Terrifying, my soul shivers and breaks
To even imagine going through the night
Without the hope of climbing free

This feeling is what was left,
Its sneaked back into my heart
Unwanted its slowly tearing me apart
And I hope I survive the climb back
The climb back is me
The absence of you,
The realization is what brings
Back me from the absence of me

From being cast to the dark
Torn apart, and nonexistent
From all you left I spark
The climb is what I live through

how dare you come back?
how can you do what you do to me
'Cause when it's you I can't say no,
and it ******* really hurts
that I always let you in
even if you lways leaves me hanging
hoping that everytime you touch me,
the possibility of having you entirely
why can't I ignore you
the way you ignore me
I ****** up so bad..
And this is getting old
how can you come back and go
and leave me empty and sober
using me for that long...
and I let you use me for that long,
haven't you felt a little
just a little emotion
but I guess not,
You said I've given you what you needed
but you never really needed me
I end up crying inside for you
but I can't let you see how much it hurts me
pretending that I'm enjoying
playing this ******* game..
Sometimes when I'm in your arms I wonder
If I'l ever have the chance to be the one
Or maybe not...

I admit, and can't lie
I still love you
after all the harsh cold kisses


I can feel you have nothing fo me
but why you keep coming back?..

Yes I can give you what you need
but I guess I'll never be the one you really needed.

I'd rather you tell me the worst
but why still keep me like this
when I thought you already forgot about me
and me trying hard
you'll come back again and ask for me
ask for more

you got me on your grip
I'm doomed for loving you,
and I guess will always will..

You're not even at my door
and still
I've made a bed for you

I don’t think you like being lost
I don’t mind so much
Truthfully, I usually don’t notice until I’m back
And I realized I glazed through the
Minutes, hours, days
You seem to notice every second
Cringing at the emptiness
I hurt for you
I hurt with you
Sometimes we have to leave
Get lost
In order to find
What we’re looking for
The answer
The part of ourselves
It’s easy for me
To take a step back and wander off
Deep into my own mind
Into other places, other worlds
I can walk right out of reality without thinking twice
And I don’t miss it
I wish I knew how to help you
Make it less painful
Make you less sad
Something I could do
Or say
To make you see
That we need to be lost
To be found