"I'm okay" "I'm okay" whispering to myself, hanging upside down tears dripping down to my toes when I break down mid stretch. "Just breathe darling" I coach myself, nearly rocking back and forth on the wooden floor while the clock reads 12 and everyone else is asleep.
The muscles wrapped around my chest and my back draw tighter still -like piano strings: they wait, poised for the merest sound of footsteps. And the air doesn't quite find my lungs my mind won't come off high speed and I thrash through piles of ******* to find the water-stained, warped, ripped notebook and a gaudy pen.
Then I begin to scribble, compose, quietly wail and rage as stroke for stroke I map out my traumas and my guilt; slowly tattooing my hurt like poetry on my skin.
And here we go again; So why don’t you just go ahead? Tell me why I'm wrong And that you’re strong and that you long For better days with me That will never leave your days with me Right before you slam the door and leave with me With me and leave me behind My heart and my soul intertwined with yours and i can’t quite Take back what you stole And you throw it away Away and away little bluebird fly away He swears he never meant to hurt you this way But he did And you can’t fix it And he can’t fix it So just write, little bird, write Until the pain fades away.
Be careful who you give your heart to - A Knight in shining armor may be yet another captor in disguise; without teeth, but with tongue just as sharp.
Gandang iyong taglay ay naguumapaw, at ang ugali'y napaka. Higit pa sa nakikita ng aking mga mata, Ako nga'y lubos na humahanga. Sa aking panaginip ikaw ay napapasama, Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip, aking sinta.
Ako sana ay iyong namang bigyan ng karampot na pansin Sapagkat ikaw ang pinakamahalaga sa akin. Nagiimpok na ng pangarap, tanging hangad ika'y nasa aking paningin, Sa iyong mata ako ay matagal nang nagpapaalipin.
Sampung minutong paggawa Maayus-ayos na pagtula Ito ang pangpawi ng mga luha Na ikaw lamang ang maygawa
i have been fighting for so long can i rest for a while? i have been hearing a song just to survive another mile another mile filled with burden, filled with heaviness and sadness i have been searching for the place i belong that will never use me as a wile i have been finding rights between wrong because i am so fragile fragile to accept that truths were made out of lies i have been faking myself to be strong is it obvious that it's a lie? i have been keeping this for so long can i cry for a while?
12 am---inside a blanket, shivering from a cold night, heavy head wants to pour out words i cannot say for the mean time;(
who knew it was going to be this way? for you to believe that your life is amazing and nothing can break this stream of happiness you are drunk on. for you to only then realise that this is a world you have created as an illusion for this dystopian world that surrounds you.
no one can hurt you. or so you thought...
you've only ever been open to everyone around you. this is the source to your ultimate weakness. and you're the only one to blame.
you're vulnerable and have no opportunity to fix this. maybe this fact isn't a bad thing; we're just viewing through a negative perspective.
on the road to self-destruction... and i didn't even notice since i've been blinded.
- i want to scream in your face all the things you've done to hurt me... but i've been told that if i don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. so i'll bite my tongue.
Light shines through windows, painting on comfortable carpets. Stairs creek after steps passed and throats clog after whispers caught. Waves crash against sand, playing soft symphonies in lonely ears. While hearts break as glass smashes to floorboards and bodies fall into pieces.