You are my citronella
When my thoughts hover like mosquitoes salivating for a bite
You say, “not today ladies”
You are my natural remedy for a challenging foe...
Myself
Keep smelling sweet with a hint of citrus
My mind depends on it

Chamomile and roses
Their warmth circles the frosty air
My nose is tickled with comfort and grace
You words steeped in love
Could life be this simple?

Backwards; maybe
I'm not upside down
I'm looking for a new perspective
When you are down; you're really up
So perk up; all is well

You have asked me to love you like you love me
How can one love anything without the "love of I"
I is for me and me only
You so loved the world so I could love myself
The winds of change scatter the feathers of my heart
Spinning
Twisting
Flipping
Your outstretched hand catches them
Finger tickled by their softness
Your touch warms them
May I love as you love

Love handed to me on a silver platter
Indecision
Indecision
So much indecision
My head and my heart are plagued with internal tug of war
Feet slip
Face down in the mud
Love lingers like the smokey taste of last nights cigar
One never forgets the best

They say talk is cheap
I say its priceless
Supply and demand
Its cheap when its abundant
But oh so priceless when the market is dry
Where is my bailout?

My lips drip with your kisses
My heart stammers
My veins bleed your love
Warm
Comforting
You course through me
Wild and strong
Where did I go wrong?
I’ve lost myself; I’ve lost you

I'm banking on Love
Hope I haven't over-drafted

Your eyes meet mine
They say mine
Like an anchor burying into my cornea
A window to your heart
You’re mine; I’m yours
But
Mine means
Rewriting
Undoing
Replacing
Replanting
****, I wish the eyes could talk

The road is long
The mountain’s grade is steep and relentless
Hairpin turns
Collapsed Bridges
Sheer cliffs to one side
Wind at our backs; up and up we go
Fog
Nothing compares to fog
Fog appears from nowhere
It’s damp, slow, creep engulfs your sense of comfort
Disoriented
Confused
Lost
When will my fog pass; our mountain is beautiful; our journey an adventure
Don’t let the fog take you from me
But don’t let the fog corrupt
If you choose left; I choose left
The tip of the mountain cuts the thick, damp and moist blanket
Press on; the winds have shifted; your gut pangs with direction
Walk; don’t run
I’m on your tail; guide us
Our compass is oriented
Fog’s merciless lingering
Your wit cuts it like a knife  
One foot in front of the other
Together we trod
Together we tread

V4
Thank God I’m upside down
Then the world looks rightside up
Sweat, nope; pores chose bourbon instead
I climbed a V4 to right my world and sweat out my pain

You’ve awoken my heart
So wake up please
I’m getting sleepy
My lucid dreams smother and inject terror into my heart
They terrify me
Wake up please
I cannot fall asleep

Pain
Healing
How is it that these can be synonyms?

Everything makes no sense
Everything
I’m spinning and I can’t stop
What do I do?
Confusing right and wrong
Love and Depression blending into one
I’m sinking
Down and down I go
The man I want won’t be mine
The man in front me I deceived
How did I get so lost?
I give up

Yes, I love you
No, I won't pretend I don't
Yes, I am sad
No, I won't give up
Yes, I care about him
No, I don't want you to leave
Yes, you are my everything
When will I stop asking myself questions
Who am I fooling in this world?
Her
Him
No, myself
Ponder that please

My heart nestles the word's problems
Love wins right?
So why do I feel poison?
My heart's beat is timid and shy
Light the match
Burn the ships
Send the flare
Don't sink

This place is full of demonic step sisters
I miss my pristine Cinderella
Can we skip the ******* slipper
I’m waiting

My heart pounding on the door of my chest like a bailiff demanding the rent to be paid
No, I say I just can’t
Acknowledge me please, says my love drunk heart
No, I say just can’t
But to ignore me is to ignore yourself, says my grief stricken heart
No, I say I just can’t
Nothing is stronger than my relentless beating, says my powerful heart; I’m waiting when you’re ready
No, I say I just can’t
Love my dear it can and it will

I say you didn’t change someone’s character
So ***** them
You say you can’t change them either but you’re wonderful
**** you
You won’t let me forget who I am
Ohh you and your beautiful heart

Long day
Meeting
Yelling
Fine I’ll have a salad
Love spilled out in green spinach
One day I’ll love myself as much as you love me

God so loved the world that She....
Gave Her only son; duh
She also turned our feeble existence into a barren, destitute and flood soaked wasteland
But then came the Rainbow
Her Rainbow
Her plea to humanity for forgiveness
Love spelt out in ROYGBIV
The sky glimmered with the foreshadowing of the ultimate form of sacrificial love
Let my heart be ensnared by Her Rainbow
Her grace came at great cost so mine wouldn't have to

Missing; nope you’re not missing
In; but you’re still in my life
Action; you’re the action in life
With each tump of my heart you course through my veins
Your love is the marrow of life and it drips from my lips with every formulation of “I love you”
Nervous butterflies fly in my belly because they can’t find their nectar
You’re not missing; my heart disagrees
You’re clearly in; but in is a mater of perspective
You’re full of enriching action; but my anxious mind struggles to keep up
You’re not MIA; My pesky friend named “Mr. Self Love” took the bullet this time

Chalk flakes from callused hands
Eyes squint; lucid dream; solution clear
Inverted two handed start
Left, then right
Feet jitters, ****
Breath; check your feet; flag left
Crimp; bump right; match
Check feet; heel; stick it
Breath grace in breath grace out
Dart right; swipe left; switch feet
Nailed it

Love; spelled L-O-V-E
It’s easy to spell but it feels
Butterflies no corosive acid pulsing through your stomach
It ignores the rules of phonics; the O should be long.
Just as it ignores your needs and relentlesslessly courses restless could be’s through your soul
Love should be from fairytales but Cinderella needs to wake up and be punched in the gut by love’s true force
Where is my ******* missing slipper?
Love isn’t a four letter word. It’s nothing more than self-sacrifice with a cute ******* bow on it.

You're the rose that grew from my concrete
Why a rose?
What about a sunflower?
Roses show beauty; sunflowers show joy
You are inexhaustible joy
Roses are fragile; sunflowers are bold
Your boldness drips like honey from your lips
Roses are elegance; sunflowers radiate
You are exuberance
My light, My vitality, My sunflower

There she stands the willow
So calm and full of grace
Her twisted branches intertwine with outrageous strength
Her leaves tickle the wind with a divine grace
Her branches wave and say come rest with me
Just be she says just be
Her angelic spirit fills my thirsty soul

Her hair is black
Her shirt is purple
Her lips are pursed
Her eyes read confusion and frustration
However
I see your eyes they read hello
I see your arms they say why
I see your lips they seek answers
My soul thirsts for peace
Inshallah.

The flakes tingle my heart
The snowbank builds and I feel
frostbite
I'm used to the cold
Lets weather on

Tears of Grace

I pour it out to the least of these
Yet some see ******* as grace
I ask is it given or is it deserved
Grace is given
Grace is love
Love is deserved