They tell me to duck and cover
But from who am I ducking and covering from
The white man who wish to see me hang
Or my own brother who wishes to put a bullet in my head
Both sides saying I'm the one you should trust
My own kin and the ones who once enslaved us
And I just sit here in my own little corner in my own little world
Singing twinkle twinkle little star because I don't know where to go
The thing is...
I think I rather sit here and let them both **** each other to hell
Because the fact you both claim the other is a monster has strangely rung this bell
The bell of ******* that is spells out hypocrites
And if you don't know what that means it means you
The kings and queens of the human realm
And to me that's mean everyone because everyone is equal
And I know it's a strange concept but no one deserves to be someone's sequel.
So take a bow because this little play was done right
But it's time to drop the ropes and guns and call it a night

Who is that...
Who is that person looking back at me
He looks like me but, he's not me
Who is he
I can't recognize thee
Is that really me
What is this beast that I've turned into
There is no way that is me,
But it is me
How did things come to this
Help...me
I'm drowning in this reflecting pool deep within the blood sea
Feasting on the soul that use to be me
But it's not me anymore!
It's just not "me"...anymore
It screams begging for it to stop
"Please no more"
Please no more
But I can't stop
I can't stop
Taking another bite as the crimson tears flow from my eyes
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm just...so sorry

It's taken a lot out of me just to breathe
Looking into society trying to be something they wish for me to be
So I wear this white mask hiding my true identity
As I drown myself deep within this black sea
Living my reality in this false dream
Dying slowly
Forgetting all about the true me
Watching these wannabes sipping their tea
As one by one they judge me realizing they did the same thing
So I guess I'm one of them now
A clone with no individuality
Staring at this picture of me wondering who that be
As I sip my tea waiting for the next victim to emerge from the treacherous sea

And with this I decree ******* to be a national holiday
As I give my heart away saying **** what they say
Because on this day love is in the air
But lucky me I am still single as you can clearly tell
But the question is how if there are so many fish in the sea
All swimming right past me ignoring me
Even if silly me attempt to talk to thee
They all just give me the fin and jumps on another D
As he looks back just smiles at me
So here's me wave bye to mr. Luck
Knowing **** well he just wants to **** the sea
Sending them back to me crying
Just to burry their gem like eyes into everything but where I want them to be
Well **** life I scream to the court inside of me
Because I just got sentenced to you thought you were getting lucky
As I get hit with you're such a great guy
Oh my, ***** you lie
Because if I was a great guy why every time I try to talk to you, you say goodbye
I smell *******
But of course you don't think I smell it on thee
But hey this is my life
May I have some more ******* in wine
Because it looks like I'm calling it a night

I wish I never started
Started to believe that there was hope for me in this world
That I could be somebody instead of nobody like my predecessors told me
I wish I never started

I wish I never started
Started to fall victim to my teenage mentalities
Falling in love with a girl thinking I had a chance with thee
I wish I never started

You see,
I have been walking this shadowed path trying to get from point A to Point B
Banging my head against this solid brick wall
Just to watch the blood trickle down **** stained body
Crying in secret because I'm starting to realize that I am nothing more than fool for life's entertainment
As I slowly sink to the bottom of the dark matter sea
Looking at my reflecting as it shakes its head at me

I wish never started
Started this whole mission to escape the pain that haunted me
Believing that there really was a way to escape the endless abyss
I wish I never started

I wish I never started
Started to believe that the sorrows couldn't catch me if I ran fast enough
But now I'm just tired and too drained to look back up
I wish I never started

Just make it quick
I'm starting to get sick of this contradicting mindset
One side telling me that I am something
As the other just laughs and smile letting life do the talking
Popping popcorn over the fiery pitts of hell waiting to roast me
As it determines what seasoning will go best with thee
I'm tired can't you see
But life still pokes me with its pitchfork trying to force me to just give up

I wish I never started
Started to wish that I should start something new
Become something greater than the you in the mirror
I just wish I never started

But hey I'm glad I started
It was fun while it lasted
So I guess what I should be saying is
I'm wish I started sooner

Let us paint a beautiful picture
Using bones as paint brushes
And blood as paint
Let the scream be our muse
And the world our canvas
Let them see my majestic mind
As I haunt down my supplies
Yes, let us paint the most magnificent piece of all time
Let the world know that I've that I have not lost mind
That I'm just committing this mass suicide
That they are the ones who have gone insane
And I am realist who is making the world beautiful again
Oh yes, let us paint this beautiful picture!
Maybe I'll even sign my name with the bodies that remain
Just so the world acknowledge my greatness
As I smile and **** this dead girl's corpse
So sweet, so sound asleep as stroke her hair
I could could just lay here and marvel at the beauty
This truly is a beautiful picture

I write this sad poem because I don't know what else to do
It feels like my mind and body has been separated into two
I find myself staring mindlessly at the sunset and the moon
But In actuality I'm just glaring deeply at you
It has been a long time and I think you should know the honest truth
I love you but that feeling is slowly going  mute
It's funny you think I'm talking about the love of my life
But I'm talking about the guy who lost his sight
The one who wrote this tragic poem on this very night
Who said goodbye as he held his trigger extremely tight

We say we are different
But we only show how alike we truly are
It's as if all we are is a mirror image of the other
Both shouting that I am the original
That you are just a shadow
But let me ask you something
Have you ever truly asked who "you" are
Who "we" are
What is our true purpose upon this meat infested planet
Are we peace bringers
Or is that just a nicer way of saying destroyers
Often you would find me staring at the moon
Asking it for answers that eludes not only I
But the moon never responds
So I just end up laughing and getting lost in the skies
As a kid they told us that every star was a soul that was lost
That now instead of being with us physically they watch over us spiritually
Ha, maybe that is so
But like everything else...
Who truly knows

I live in a land of ice cream and fudge
Where the trees are made of chicken
And the seas red kool aid

I live in a land where instead of cats and dogs we have watermelon with legs
All black presidents expect that one white guy to pretend we ain't racist

I live in a land where instead of the KKK we have the BBC
The Black Brother Clan where we go around lynching crackers and the government don't do **** about it

I live in a land where the black race got all the blue collar jobs
While the whites live in the slums fighting over the crumbs

I live in a land of opportunity for my kind
Where we have everything we need to survive
And actually give to the less fortunate because we have been in their shoes

I live in the land known as the ***** realm
Where both the rich and poor get richer
And no one is truly left behind

I live in land of fantasies and slight vengeance
Where for once we can smile as one
Instead of pointing the gun

Don't you see I live in a wonderful land
One where I wish to never leave
But as I said before this is nothing but a fantasy
So it will sadly never come true

Not now or in a million year

To my momma and papa at home,

I'm sorry, I'm not sorry
I'm sorry that your beloved son didn't turn out the way you wanted him to
That I took a gander in the reflecting pool when you told me not to

I'm sorry that I left home without asking you first
That I **** near died when I saw the truth

I'm sorry that I put up this wall that will forever be between us three.
That I didn't just come when you told me to meet y'all at the tree

I'm sorry that while I was looking at the sunset and dreaming of peace
You were being mugged by this low level thief

I'm sorry that I couldn't come to your rescue when you needed me to
That I abandoned y'all when you needed me most

I'm sorry I pulled the trigger that ended your lives
But please understand I did what I had to do to survive

I'm sorry that though in reality y'all survived
In my heart, the only thing I'm sorry about is the fact this is a lie

In this hand I hold a gun
In the other hold my brain
Now I'm about to go ******* insane
As I drown in a reflexing pool only to come out the ******* same
Only difference is I'm in a new world where I'm considered an outcast
All because I chose my brain over a gun
Because I rather give a life then take it
Yes, apparently now I'm a lame
This truly is a new age
One where a baby knows the scent of **** before he can speak his own momma's name
It's a wonder how anybody can be sane
Because how can anyone stay sane with that knocking sound in their brain
Yelling at them constantly this is wrong, this is wrong, this is wrong over and over and over again
So now I'm picking up the gun
Looking at the engravings oh look that's my name
This bullet is for me so watch me blow out my brains
I'm sorry I couldn't do it, the ******* overcame
Haha...It truly is resilient, the true master of this game
I guess this is the story of all the brains

Into the void I go
Nothing but darkness from head to toe
I'm cold...
I hear a whisper in the distance
It tells me to just let it go
So I do...
I see a light
So I smile thinking it's my way out
But I was wrong...
It was just another void colder than the one before
So into the void I go
With no hope
With no soul**
I tried to find myself
in places that didn't exist...
My soul and heart are filled with void
I tried to find the missing piece
But I only ended up losing more
I just wanna find happiness
Within myself...
Always wandering
If there's a way out of this
....Getting high
Trying to fill this void
Realizing there's no way out
...living in hell on earth

I can't feel my face anymore
It's as if my whole world has gone numb
My wings have been snapped clean off
Now I'm living off the scraps like some type of wild animal
I can't breathe...
Feels like I'm being suffocated by the seven seas
But in actuality it's just the pain getting the best of me
As I crawl attempting to reach sanctuary
But everytime it seems like I'm getting closer to the light
I can feel the darkness creeping up my spine and yanking me back into the heart of the night
It then caress me like a momma to her new born baby
Whispering in my ears there is no escaping
I'm stranded here
And there is no one coming to rescue me
I mean why would they...
I'm in this mess because of those dimwits
Always kicking me and punching me
Making me feel like I'm nothing more then an old piece of chewed up gum stuck to the bottom of your shoes
Can't blame them though,
Because that's what I am
A nuisance, an inconvenience to society
So instead of fighting it let me embrace it
Now I'm dead trapped in a unmarked wooden box

Smiling...

We fought this war together
Standing side by side through thick and thin
Surviving this prison as a team and family
Saving one another from the hell that existed in our lives
But now... That time has to come to an end
Now we walk our own paths
Experience our own adventures
Live our own lives
It is hard to believe that we are all going our separate ways now
That we are actually saying farewell after these long years
When you think about it's actually kind of sad
Because though we hate to admit it,
We will miss each other
But at the end of the day we all can just say one thing
Class of 2016...
***** WE MADE IT

I ain't royalty
But I would hope I ain't got to be .
Because I just want to write some poetry
Telling a story about this underrated loyalty
Because it seems we put our trust in the wrong people and now we're suffering
Unable to walk down the streets without seeing these guns pointing
Engraved with these secret messages that just happen to be not so secretive
Because we all know that these engraving are just names
The golden ticket to the end of your story
Cue the watering
Because now there are loved ones crying
Unable to comprehend what is happening
Asking what did he/she do to deserve this
When in actuality the answer is simple they did nothing
They just fell victim to humanity stupidity
Its greed and thirst for violence is starting to get the best of us
And we just turn a blind eye because we don't want to be next
I mean death, the afterlife, are we truly prepared to face what comes after this
The answer is no because we are weak minded beings who are afraid of everything
So we make these fancy machinery to protect us from our own buffoonery
And that is just how it is
The real truth of our end

Am I suppose to cry
Feel sad because you're not by my side
Make a big scene letting the world know I miss thee
Drowning myself in the vast pitt of despair as I wonder...
Wonder will I ever see you again
Syncing with the rain that pours down upon my head
As I look down into the reflecting pool only to see the past that once was
Viewing it as if it was only a dream
Still reaching out to grab your hand only to have disappear before feeling your warmth surge through me
So you tell me,
Am I suppose to cry
Because I can't feel anything outside of the pain that sings on the inside

Let's be real
My poetry isn't what it use to be
I use to write these poetic lines that made you nod your head to the beat
Made you rise from your seat and do a 360 just to hear me speak
But now if that is what you seek
I'm sorry to disappoint but all you will see is me struggling
Living the recession to the fullest
Unable to connect the dots that float right in front of me
Yes, this is one of those stories
About how one of the greats have fallen from the heavens he once resided
The only difference is I was never a great
I'm just a simple minded being who seeks peace for society's sake
But that's kind of hard when society gets off on war
Creating these war torn third world countries who can't even breathe the air they live off on
Then again I'm only 18 so who am I to call out society and its perfect system that has been in play for centuries
So let me just close my mouth now and send you on your marry little way
But before I go there is just one last thing I would like to say

Act now before it is too late.

I said I loved her but she didn't love me back
My bestfriend tried to warn me but I was as blind as a bat
I gave her everything but all she gave me was a heal up my ***
As she laughed shredding my heart until it was thinner than the grass
How could I have been so stupid
Was the *** really that fat
Was I really that mesmerized by her slim body
Or was it her diamond like eyes that peered into my soul
I said I loved her and that was that
But clearly the love I had for her was worth nothing but shat

They tell us what we do is our choice
Then they tell us what to do and when to do and wonder why we rebel
Saying it’s our future, not theirs
But is it really
I mean…
They tell us when to eat, sleep, and breathe
Tell us to think this way as to another when it comes down to certain things
Then they punish us if we choose to disobey their will
Leaving us confused wondering what we did wrong
Because I swore this was our life, our choice, our will
But apparently in the fine print it reads theirs
So without us knowing we sold our souls to them
Giving them a second chance at life by stealing the life that was meant to be ours
But of course we are wrong to rebel
We are wrong to claim something that belong to us in the first place
So we remain dumbfounded staring at the white wall
The wall as blank as our freewill  
What a deal we made just by opening our eyes
Not realizing the repercussions of our decisions until it was too late  
Now we are slaves in our own living remains
Being taunted by the light that is just outside of our reach
But we don’t cry, better yet we can’t cry because the tears dried up years ago
So the truth is we are empty shells of our former selves
Being controlled by the strings that are attached to our limbs
So yeah…
We are puppets.
Living this non existing reality we call our lives

I know this is going to sound quite dramatic
But twelve years a slave
Now I'm finally on my way out
My debt has been paid
My keep has been earned
The struggle has been real
But now I can smile without a doubt
There have been ups and downs
And times I didn't even have a clue
But now I can honestly say
With my ******* in the air
***** I made it and ******* too
The tears of joy flow from eyes
The laugh of disbelief break free of its chains
2016 has finally come
And there's my freedom dancing along

I am insane
Is what society says when they say my name
I am insane
Because society and I don't act one in the same
I am insane
Because I don't actively participate in life's little game
Because I rather be free to fulfill my dream
And not be chained down and forced to believe this is not who I'm meant to be
So I am insane
Only because I'm free spirited and envision something different for myself
Something society doesn't quite compute in their little brains
So with that being said
I am insane
But I can't say I am ashamed

I use to write a poem everyday of the week
All about the injustices that caused the soul to weep
Because back then I still believed society had a chance
But now as I look around...
I hope you enjoyed your last little dance

I can't help but to ask what war are we truly fighting
Is it against them...
Or is it against the image in the mirror
We claim that ever decision we make is for the greater good of the human race
But we blow their heads off and celebrate it as a victory
And that is what gets to me
How could we smile and laugh as if what we just did was okay
As if the life we just passed judgment upon meant nothing
What if he/she was a father or a mother
One who was just shooting back because their alternative was to bath in puddle of their own children's blood
Can't you see they are fighting the same battle as us
Because they are just like us
They are trying to earn the title is survivor just like us
They just want to go home to their families just like us
They just want to protect their loved ones just like us
But unlike us the majority of them don't make it back
Because unlike us they lay on the battlefield saying their final goodbyes from a far
No one ever thinks about the pain a suffering we bring in order to uphold peace
So allow me to end this with a question

Is it truly peace we seek, if the price we pay is another's life?

Puff puff pass

I wanted to be cool so I gave it everything I had
Only to realize that the cost to be cool was a heavy mass
Now look at me,
The ******* in the grass
Over here trying to pull miracles out his ***
Scrapping up loose change to buy some new crack *******
Trying to get a quick fix from the ***** with the new mix
Whispering in everybody's ears
"I'll **** your **** for a quick lick"
Literally doing something strange for some change
Look how pathetic I became

Puff Puff pass*

sigh

Can't you tell,
I sold my soul that day
Now here I lay under the Sun's ray
Burning away
Hoping I'll leave this world in a peaceful way
All while knowing I wasn't cool that day

In fact,

I was nothing more than a fool wouldn't you say

I was born in the age of the struggle
Trying to become something in a world my kind was not accepted
Constantly dodging bullets that the white man seemed to have an infinite amount of
As the corrupt turned a blind eye unofficially proclaiming my kind irrelevant
All because my skin is not as white as the North Pole
All because before I was born I was labeled incompetent
Unable to do anything other than picking cotton in the blazing heat
Destined to be the white man's little *****
Being blamed for everything even though we can't do anything
Taken from my home against my will
Thinking about the tears my little girl now sheds as she was bend over on all fours
I was born in the age of the struggle
But my struggle is one that never went down in history
All because I am nothing more than a wild beast
Even though I had life that was stolen from me

I wish things would go back to the way they use to be...
You know just us three
I wish my sweet dreams wouldn't turn into horrific nightmares...
That haunt me
I wish I could just watch the sunrise and fly like a birdy...
Or maybe chill under a tree
I wish I actually understood this world...
It always manages to get to thee
The thing there are many things I wish in this life
But most of the time my wishes never come true
But in a turn of events one wish did
After all...
I got you

Broken...
Broken hearts
Broken dreams
Broken fantasies that possess me
Broken manifested destinies
Broken...
Broken bones
Broken souls
Broken inner thoughts that get the best me  
Broken swords that seem to never miss me
Broken...
Broken mindsets
Broken sunsets
Broken clouds that now poor upon thee
Broken dams that wash away all life's worries
Broken...
The world we live in is just broken
But the pieces to put it back together are around us
The friends and family that surround us
So fix it and be proud you have us

Let me be real
This poem is about nothing
It's not about me being madly in love with this girl
Not about the injustices in the world
It is just me writing the words that flow through my mind
The endless waterfall that never seems to cease
So if anyone wish to step up an continue the beat
Or just stroll  down the poetic river that seems to breathe
Please, do as you please and just speak
What comes next is up to thee

So this is Autumn
Don't make me laugh
I remember a time when autumn was peaceful and calming and not this depressing piece of...
Let me not finish that sentence
I remember a time as a kid when I actually did cannonballs in. a giant pile of leaves decimating someone's hard work
That was kind of evil now that I think about it
I remember a time when i laid in the grass as the wind blew across my chubby cheeks
Yes I do realize I just roasted myself
But my point is this bull crap is not Autumn
Since when has Autumn been so dull and crying nonstop as if it is sad
In fact, I can recollect a single time during Autumn I stayed indoors staring out the window wondering why the sky is leaking this clear mystery fluid
And this is supposed to be Autumn
I can't remember a time I could looked into backyard a saw an entire tree of green leaves in November
And this is supposed to be Autumn
This isn't Autumn
This is a disgrace

Hear me,
Hear me speak in my native tongue
This poetic justice
From the artist that never belong
From the... sad child who just smiled on the outside
But on the inside was dying from starvation
I'm hungry...
It feels like I haven't eaten anything for an eternity
When actuality the food has just been running right through me
It's sad that not even food see me
It just falls into barring wasteland deep within the blood sea  
Which are just my tears that never seem to stop falling from the... hell skies that absorb me
Free me...
Free me from the burning shackles that laugh at me
I feel as if I'm going crazy
The sun is cold to thee
I'm freezing
I can't breathe
The shadows are suffocating me
Draining me of my very life force
I'm crying...
In a dark corner...
Burning alive...
In the center of a world that doesn't want me

Good Afternoon,


The following should not be televised but is sadly the truth


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Bang Bang
Well look at what we have here
Another black boy laying on the ground dead
Bang Bang
Two more white boys on the ground gasping for air
Screaming in pain and agony as the blood gushes from their open wounds
**** it!
When will it end
When will the endless of cycle of violence come to an end
Just last week a four year old was shot in the face in a shootout between the white man and a ******
Call the police someone screamed
No, please don't
They don't understand how to handle situations like this 
They'll only make it worse I promise you that
Run, run like the wind or this really will be the end
No that's my son the ******'s momma screams
Her son is on the ground praying for his life
I don't wanna die,i don't wanna die,he cries at the top of his lungs
I'm sorry Joseph, I'm sorry I couldn't protect you, I'm sorry I couldn't avenge you
You see Joseph was his little brother who was shot and killed by a white cop two weeks before
He was a straight A student who just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time
Now we are here big bro seeking revenge for his little brother's death
How noble but now death seeks to reap another life lost in the shadows
**** it the 5.0 is here, disperse
Dang it big bro is dead, and momma just froze appalled by what she just witnessed
The sky really is a painted mural made of blood
Sad tale both ended by the hands of a cop

Now the white man's story was a bit different
Long ago he was a proud member of society
He helped a lot of people rise up when they fell to their knees
Then one day he and his family was sitting at the dinning room table eating the dinner his wife just prepared
It all happened so suddenly he proclaimed
Seven black males burst through the front door and gunned them down in matter of seconds
He was the only survivor, in a single night he lost his entire livihood
Now he is just this hollowed out corps floating in a black ocean
He began to hear voices in his head telling him to **** them all
Thus Joseph life was stolen and left in a dark ally behind the middle of nowhere
Bang Bang
Now this story begins once again
Will the violence ever come to an end

I was just a little black boy born in a raw town
Nothing else but me and my saw now
I could never say that papa was ever around
But I could say that momma never made a sound
She never cried never whined never did any of that crap
She just smiled and waved  as life hit us hard
But I never understood how the pain in her heart
She would never let it show like it wasn't there from the start
But we all knew the truth
Momma was breaking down
She cried silently thinking we wouldn't notice her burning red eyes
As she slowly died on the inside  
Still tryna stay strong for her four little children
But the truth was momma was gone
Died on the inside long ago
Unable to feel the pain that haunted her soul
Sorry momma we wasn't that strong
Should've helped her more
Now you're gone
Six feet underground
Sorry momma may you rest in peace

Freedom...
Freedom is the one thing we all wish to obtain
The ability to do whatever, whenever we please
But by the definition are any of us truly free
Because at the bare minimum we all follow the rules of society

chic chic* bang

chic chic bang
* ring ring* ring ring*
Hello.
No, no that can't be so

All my life I had to fight
Never knew what was wrong or right
Nobody had faith in me
They all abandoned me
But not that man
The man who gave me a chance

Now he is dead
And I'm all alone once again

All my life I had to fight
Never knew what was wrong or right
Nobody had faith in me
They all abandoned me
But not that man
The man who gave me a chance

Now he is dead
And I'm alone once again

But before he went out with a bang
He taught me one valuable thing
The only reason I'm alone is because I chose to be

I could of sworn this was all a dream
Ya know, one of those freak fantasies
But in actuality this is reality
And you expect me to prosper in this so called society
Then you say God is with me
God is against me
God abandoned me
God left me wondering why the sky is blue and grass green
He left me to ponder as to why everything must be
As I drowned in the black sea trying to discover my identity
Then again I'm surprised I even have this opportunity
Considering the streets were my home, my only sanctuary
My parents were poor, and I struggled in school
My eyes were singed shut so I never thought I'd see the light of day ever again
BUT!
I was given the chance to escape the hell hole I called life
And now I fly like an eagle with a smile upon my face
Something I forgotten how to do so long ago
But it feels good
It feels good not to wake up afraid
Not to have to check over your shoulders every five seconds
To know that the people you care about are safe
And the pain, the pain finally dissipates into the dust
i'm free...
I'm finally free
But i'll never forget the pain that haunted me
I'll never forget how I came to be me

Hello mother
Hello father  
It has been a long time since we went our separate ways
Sorry I haven't come to visited you in awhile
Been kind of torn considering this is my faught
If only I had listened you we would've still been a family
I miss you guys
In fact I just wanted to say I love you guys
Of course I can't say it to your face anymore
I’m scared, it’s so cold without your warmth
I’m just sorry
Sorry I took my own life
I hope you can forgive me for causing you so much pain
Well I guess this is goodbye
Hope we can be together again on the other side

If I may have your attention please
Allow me to say just one little thing
And that is tragedy
Tra...ge...dy

If you do not agree that life is a delicate thing
This poem is not meant for thee
Well never mind this poem is meant for you to see
Because this poem is meant for everybody

So without further delay
Allow me to begin with what I have to say
But you cannot say you have not been warned
Because this poem will make become torn

Look around and what do you see
Life...Life is such a beautiful thing
Would you not agree
But life is being stolen from right beneath our very feet

A new threat has emerged from the deepest depths of the darkest abyss
One that has surpassed all violence before our very eyes
It is heartless attacking both our elders and our youth
Proclaiming no one is safe from it's voracious bite  

So one by one they fall
Both our future and our past
Causing one to think will we survive
Because as of now drugs smile as the world trembles beneath its feet

Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Run...Now
Don’t...stop
Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Dreams
Long ago, there was a little black boy with a dream
A dream to one day be free of all the chaos in society
Long ago, there was a little white boy who held a gun up to his head
All because he became fed up with the injustices that trapped him within his own body
They were eight
Since when did the playground for eight year olds become the life that not even us adults wish to live
Since when did eight year olds cry so many crimson tears that they form a river big enough to swim in
Better yet, drown in
Back then this was unheard of
Back then it was war against color
You know those as white as snow against those as black as dirt
Now it is just pure ignorance
You know black lives, white lives, all lives matter
WELL ***** THAT!
The children’s lives are what matter
You know the future of our very existence on this earth
But it seems no one really notice that the children are suffering from our stupidity
Which leaves only one question
Does anybody really care
Tick...Tock
Gun...Shot
Say goodbye...to the dreams...that have been lost

Do I love her?
I can't say that I do
I mean I love her
But I don't love...her
She is really nice and all
Always got my back and what not
But alas I am too young to love
Too young to be loved
I'm not mature enough
Not strong enough
Not fast enough
So do I love her
Maybe...
But as of now...
Love is the last thing I'd call this

Imma just...sit back here and be my...self
As I...watch the world go around and around and a...round
Just chillin beneath the...tree near outskirts of the town
Playing it cool as if...there isn't a worry in my mind
Paying no attention to the time
As the ******* continue to climb
Because...that is who I...am
A laid back ***** who doesn’t give a...****
Another brotha hiding from rules of society
Because in society I will never be a true human being
Cause all society sees is the...color of my skin
So because i’m...black
I am a...cursed being
Another plague that...infects this world with its...nonsense
So I just...tip toe away tryna...live a normal life
As I...carve a ******* in the...very atmosphere
Laughing away as I...live to be free
Lying beneath the...trees near the outskirts of the town
Once again just being...M to the ******* E

Set me free
Set me free
I beg of thee
I'm tired of these ******* shooting at me
Cause It's the same **** everyday
Me running away
Hoping I don't get caught by the likes of thee
And by thee I mean them
The ****** who once bullied me
Punching me
Stomping me
Humiliating me
Making me forget I'm a human being
So I finally got fed and became all big and bad
That's where my story got sad
And I became another victim
Another **** on the street
But I didn't choose the **** life
The **** life chose me

I hate this place
Our colors may be purple, green, and gray but all I see is orange with a number on our backs
059 please step this way
056 please wait in line
0 what the **** is wrong with this ****
We come to school to learn and to better our futures
Not to discover what it is like to be in shackles and orange jump suits
Looking like professional garbage men with guns pointed at our heads 
The air is so stale here that I feel like I'm about to pass out with every breathe I take
Over here got me hyperventilating as I try to squeeze my small self through the small cracks in the hallway
Half the time I feel like a dart on a dart board the way they have me pinned against these lockers
Then I'm the rude one when I finally say *****,get the **** out the way
Cause if we are late it is another penalty going towards us
And I ain't got the time to be sitting in the hole over something I couldn't even control
Like what kind of game do they think this is
Treating us like kindergartners when we are **** near adults
Hell I'm 18 I beat the statistics
A black male and still not in jail
And before you say where are we now
This place isn't jail, this place is hell
Life may be harder outside these walls
But this place I swear is just ridiculous
They swear they are preparing us for college
But in actuality the only thing they are preparing us for is failure

I woke up from a dream tryna understand who I'm meant to be
You know my destiny
My identity
But all I see is a black sea
Correction red sea
Because it has been tainted by blood you see
And it sad they call this a revolution
Because all I see is a mass extinction
My brother and sisters falling left and right
And I'm just standing here being me
Confused really
Because I don't see the point in fighting this war
When after we won there is no point in going on

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
Will she ever come back

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
Will she ever come back

I know I made many mistakes in my lifetime
Many in which I should never be forgiven for
But I don't know if I can live this way anymore
Cause I have never lived soulless before
Now I can't see and my heart is struggling to beat
And I'm craving to be whole once more
Please make the pain go away
I don't want to live this way

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
Will she ever come back

I'm afraid, so afraid cause i have never felt this way before
I just want to hold her once more
Embracing her like I tried before
But I was a fool back then
I didn't realize what we had was so special
That we were actually meant to be forever
And not the short time I was hoping for
Didn't realize how much I falling for jer
Now I'm here wondering what is going on

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
Will she ever come back

I love her, I love her so much
Wish I could tell her how sorry I truly am
I just want to hold her hand and lay in the sand
You know be free under a tree and hope not to get stung by a bee
But I know for a fact she won't see what I I see
Especially after I betrayed her after she she trusted me
I stabbed her in the back and walked the other way
Now look at where I'm at
Standing at the corner with a trick bat
Fighting them off like they are a witch rat

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
Will she ever come back

Somebody call 911 cause I'm having a heart attack
I can't breathe anymore
Cause she on took my soul away
Now here I am staring at the moon wonder will things ever be the same
Will she ever come back
I hope she comes back

I am my brother's keeper not his reaper
But it seems to me people rather die than survive and become stronger than they already were
Tsk shame on them, shame on me
It is sad that we are stuck in our old mentalities
We rather put each other 6 feet underground than help one another climb a mountain
Slavery may be over but now we are just binding ourselves in these rusty shackles that were left behind
They're cutting through our skin, poisoning our blood, corrupting our minds, making us forget that we have come a long way
That we are not where we once were
They strain us, drain us of all of our energy
Leaving us crawling on the floor searching for scrapes to put ourselves back together again
I understand that we are not where we wish to be
That we still have a long journey ahead of us
That we are still marching forward like soldiers
But it is not helping the fact that a brotha can go out and serve in the military for 13yrs and survive but come back home to his own street only to be shot in the head by his own partner
Then we complain saying the white man is killing us
Hell we are killing us
**** black lives matter
**** white lives matter
**** all **** lives matter
What we fail to realize that we are our own future
Not them
We control what we do
We control where we go
Not them
But if we continue down this dark path we are heading down
Well let me just say we won't have a future
And again I say...
I am my brother's keeper not his reaper
But the way things are looking
We will be our brother's reapers not their keepers

Listen to the birds in the trees singing their lovely melodies
Listen to the waves crashing against the shores washing away all your worries
Listen to the Earth shake, rattle, and roll as it dances beneath your feet
Now pause, this is where life was meant to be
A gaint party
Stress free and away from society
But is it ever going to be that way
Hell to the ******* nahh
Though one can still dream
But wait hear me now
We allow life to control too much of our lives
Don't think about that line too much
What we need to do is flow like the waves in the sea
Stop being this thing we are not and just be quote on quote me
And by me i mean yourself and not this ******* you front to society
Hoping to be accepted by thee
Bowing down to its knees
Actually see what is front of you and respond to it accordingly
Now I'm just trying to make this sound catchy apparently
But point blank period
Carpe Diem, Latin for seize the day
And set yourself free from the life we blindly obey

There are a thousand things I can possibly say
A thousand things that roam freely through my head
With all this pain, the endless nightmares that haunt me in my dreams
As I play this stupid *** game life forces upon me
It’s hard, life just isn’t fair
It possesses me, corrupting the way I think
Destroying my sense of awareness as I burn attempting to hang onto my sanity
I feel weak crawling upon the floor made entirely of dead corpses
The thought of death dances in my head as my mortal self fades from existence
Who am I, why do I exist
Why does it feel as if a dagger is piercing my inner soul
I feel like a bird with clipped wings
Standing here watching a part of me fly off into the distant winds
I can’t be alone, there is no way that this is where I was meant to perish
There has to be a way out out of this dark hole
There has to be, there has to be, there has to be, there has to be
There has to be, right?
Why wouldn’t there be
I’m going to die here aren’t I?
No, I’m going to survive
But if I don’t allow me to at least go out with a smile

What kind of sorcery is this?
This is madness I swear
Every time you walk by you take my soul along with you
Every time you speak my mind goes boom, causing my entire vocabulary to burn to ashes, leaving me with nothing
My heart just stops
As my eyes gaze upon the sunset over the horizon
Well, that is what they see, but in actuality it is just you
A bright new star over the midnight sea
And just like the legend of the Phoenix
Where we end it is where we begin it
Leaving the old chapter of our lives behind and starting anew
You know a life where it is not just you then there is I
But me and you
This was just a dream I had, ya know
But instead of just resting on this dream, I really want to make it reality
So this is me asking you no, begging you to be mine tonight
And every night to come

You're always running away
Running never looking the other way
But what are you running from
Are you really that afraid of the pain that you try your best to disappear from society
As if society is the source of your true sorrow
As if the pain is not an inner sensation that erupts in your heart
Where are you going to go anyways
Aren't you tired of always running away
Don't you want to run towards something for a change
Have something other than yourself to love and cherish
I can see that look in your eyes
That look of emptiness and dispair
"Stop hurting yourself",they yell
Just stop and turn around
There is nothing chasing you away but you're still afraid
What are you afraid of, yourself?
You use to be stronger than this
Always running towards danger to protect those you loved
Now you're just a shell of your former self
SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY!
Stop running
It's going to be okay