To my momma and papa at home,

I'm sorry, I'm not sorry
I'm sorry that your beloved son didn't turn out the way you wanted him to
That I took a gander in the reflecting pool when you told me not to

I'm sorry that I left home without asking you first
That I **** near died when I saw the truth

I'm sorry that I put up this wall that will forever be between us three.
That I didn't just come when you told me to meet y'all at the tree

I'm sorry that while I was looking at the sunset and dreaming of peace
You were being mugged by this low level thief

I'm sorry that I couldn't come to your rescue when you needed me to
That I abandoned y'all when you needed me most

I'm sorry I pulled the trigger that ended your lives
But please understand I did what I had to do to survive

I'm sorry that though in reality y'all survived
In my heart, the only thing I'm sorry about is the fact this is a lie