Amusement

What am I a clown?
You think I'm here for your
******' amusement?


Senryu in Darkness

as she breathed her last
she recalled her words of praise
~ he has strong safe hands


The Marital Aid**

my career as a marital aid ~ over
my batteries had died long before
you chose to leave

my heart is pumping its last motions
impaled on sharpened sticks
(of its own fashioning)
each one a lie I told myself
(as if it were truth)

when they ask you -
tell them - yes
hearts can commit seppuku

I witnessed mines do it today.

~ B****** heart !

already I feel empty

still...the mining of my heart
continues apace
...the riches are almost
fully depleted now
...and still I open the gates
to 'this claim' with hope
each time you arrive in your
grimacing excavator.

I watch as the
gallows **** heap
that is soon to replace
my once priceless gems
grows in ugliness
in the full knowledge
that you are already
prospecting elsewhere

feel free to tell me
how much you love me
- she said to me
as she travelled on her way

I sat in Ireland
She drove in the States
I rested upon her dashboard
in a pixellated mess
my words spoken by a robot

and 'Siri' was heard to say
You're the leaves on my tree
- the stars in my skies
You're the rivers to my seas
(without you what am I?)

You're my reason for breathing
~ The glint in my eyes ~
You're the spice in this stew
You're the only one of you
I'm so lucky to have met
~ beautiful you

... I love you

(even Siri sighed, I think)

"Stop playing with your nuts son. You'll get them full of hairs",
Said SNL netball's most famous coach to his one and only heir.
"Pa... tell me another story...how the Scampers won the cup"
"Another one - there is only one", he said, lifting Junior up.

"But you tell it so well", Sean Jr said with a twinkle in his eye.
He has my wiley charm thought Coach, of that I cannot lie.
Coach Sean Shortt (Shortty) was full of pride - he gave his tail a twirl,
i'm really glad we had a boy though I'd have been happy with a girl.

He cleared his throat, "we'd reached the Finals in the year of ' 78,
Folks said it was 'cause I was chief but the team that year was great!
With Sammy Strain and Sereena Skylar; best Goal Attacks I ever saw
And Skittles Sloan - Wing Defence - what she couldn't do with a ball...!"

"Oh Dad! Fast forward to quarter 4 - the most exciting part !!"
Sean Jr was tired from school that day - Bless his little squirrel heart.
"Well it was even Stevens" Coach continued "only seconds on the clock.
I thought I'd never see the end my heart ticked with every tock."

"ShingleWood Sneakers were in terrific form - they hadn't yet been beat
But we played them at their own game and we really brought the heat.
Man marking and super fitness was the key to my strategy
Fair play as well but I fought for every single foul and penalty."

"Their main man was super tall - long tail - wore a medical mask,
For fear of seeming obtuse, I thought it prudent not to ask.
He never missed, this big GA - kept scoring goal after goal after goal.
I never seen the likes of him or his skills, son - Upon my soul!"

"His crowning moment a penalty - he surely couldn't miss, I'd bet.
He didn't!! And our hearts all sank like the ball, clean through the net.
Then they Gatoraded their coach but most of the liquid went the hero's way
Revealing a painted tail - a scandal!! - whispered about still, to this day."

"A raccoon ringer! - flown from the States, with a stripey lengthy tail -
To deceive the whole of our sainted league but their wicked plan had failed.
They were disqualified - to us, the cup -  I got Freedom of the Wood.
And though we ne'er won again - those memories still feel good."

Shortty gave the lad a loving look - bed time was fast approaching
- Stories have to end some time; so with Life and so with coaching -
"And what did we learn, my only son, on that fateful glorious day -
Apart from the obvious that squirrel tails arent monochrome, they're gray."

Junior huffed a pretend sigh because he really loved this tradition
And with a proper unpretend yawn he said without sedition,
"The moral of the story is to strive through thick and thin,
No Sir, winners never cheat - and cheaters never win !!"

...and so to bed...

not a star
in the sky
nor one dappled
dew drop
through which glory
of sun
nor God
shone ~

not a canary
in full song
nor polished gem
nor finely
crafted gold
piece
nor Da Vinci muse

nor any man-made
wonder of
this world
or God-made
of the next

could take my eye
the way
your countenance
has claimed
my sight ~

and none
would
make me
celebrate
my blindness
the way
you do.

...and delicious as her lips,
as entrancing as her mouth,
as tender as her kiss
might be....

his eyes
were filled with sadness

he knew he could not keep her
~ his one dream in this world
would not be fulfilled

oh!, yes ...
she was destined to be his alright
his most wonderful memory only

a memory that would warm his heart;
a memory that would break it with each recall
but that was a pain he embraced as surely
as if holding his one and only herself

she would be with him always
in here  -  ♥  

to keep him smiling
through his loneliness

for angels visits
to people such as he
were always short lived
**...affairs

It has been years in the making - and yea!
Our hearts will have more breaking
And our lives - privy to even more shaking
but the prize will be ours for the taking!

On a ship tossed by sea and storm
With words from one another to keep us warm
Our course will not be easy ~ not the norm
But like steel in such fires our bond shall form.

So hoist up our flag ~ to each other betrothed
Look to the future; for our pasts shall bestow
All the lessons we need to see our love grow
~ guiding the way for a bonding of souls.

"Keep the faith!" shall be our battle cry
Before us those lacking ~ their hearts now do lie
For success is found in the try and try
and an unshakable belief in the You and I.

watt
watt
watt
watt
watt
watt
watt
watt
watt

In my palm I laid a single grain of sand - and studied long with the eyes of Man.

Then when my eyes acquired the truth the reality of the Universe did blooth

That grain of sand - it 'twas a planet -
with seas and lands and tiny humans 'pon it

The lands were home to many people
   - some were with; some without steeples

They had cities wide and planes and cars
     and schools and courts and homes and bars

I looked closer still with wisdom's sight
     and I got a Universal fright

Outside a small town like my own -
was a beach like that I'm stood upon!

And on that beach I saw a man
a-peering deeply at his palm

~ Closer still I did exam
.... and his interest,

(I swear to God
with raised right hand)

  was just -
a single -
grain
of

s
a
n
d
"
'
'

The cavern was huge and brimmed with echoes
and painted with shadows by unseen flickering flames.

"AH! Sir, you've arrived"
(He put his hand over my head to shield
it from the jagged rock edges that
constituted an opening into the cavern)
"Welcome to 'Love' "- he pointed to a little sign on a chain
"Im Cupid"
(Cupid is not a small chrub after all, believe me!)
"I'll be your host tonight and for the forseable future"
(He sniggered a coda - 'well yours anyway...')
"I'll show you your table, where you'll find your beloved already seated."

She got up as we approached and offered me her dainty digits
(Cupid whispered to me)
It was Madison Johnson whom I'd met a the wake I'd just come from
"Isn't she just the most beautiful thing you ever saw
- and she thinks you're the bees knees. ....enjoy"

(he left us, I think, I can't recall; too busy looking into HER eyes)

"So... that Cupid guy....huh?" I stammered as I began to swim in her gaze



"AH! Sir, you've arrived."
(I saw him switch the sign, Cupid, turned it deftly as some new guy arrived)

(He shielded the head of old Mr Bruce at whose wake I had been an hour ago)
"Welcome to 'Hell' !!"

"I'm Old Nick/Bellezebub/Betelgeuse, yadda, yadda, whatevs.
- Now, get. *******. in. there!"
('Cupid' kicked poor Mr Bruce with his ... hoof,
the leathery point of .."his tail" shimmered in the flames).

Sometimes -
  she is so very
'(*******) tea and scones'

But
...

by the way she sips
  from her china cup
with pinkie extended,
each time
miming
the perfect embouchure

I know that she tends it -
the fire

she could send a man over the edge
but not the
- devil inside me
~~~~~ twisted energy ~~~~

ancient eyes scoping the curve in her form -
her carotid smile
pulses - synced - with my carotid length

she is my dawn -
I
may just prove to be her
twilight

Sometimes we don't even realise
that we are so

d
e
e
p

in the abyss

because it has become the norm

until a kind soul brings light

~ thank you Cat Fiske.

I love you...

~ I really do ~

And I love being

~ with you ~

yet when we part

my heart breaks

~ knowing ~

you still sleep

with your spouse.

Your finger
traversed
your rouge
lips

Landing
vertically
with a husky
shush

I was
reminded
then
that blood

...is thicker...

when i unsleep ~
the moon is my sun

the spider
who inspired
Robert the Bruce
with its eight legs of
never give up
~
obviously
never
had its
heart
bro
**ken

Blow to me
flamenco kisses
and
your hearts desire

We'll tango
on the cold red tiles
in shadows
of candles

And pasodoble
with a cigarette

while the moon
windbreaks and peeks
around
crisp sheets

and unmade love.