My heart aches for you, my love
Were it that I could shield you
From every harsh word or bitter truth
This world dare cast your way

I would do it without a second thought
If it meant you would be unhappy no more
With every sob that escapes your lips
Such pain wracks my chest knowing you suffer so

If weep you must, do so in my arms
For though the world might forsake you
Know that I never will
For I love you, now and always

find the pain
seize it
like a dagger
and twist it
deeper

let the blood flow
like so many emotions
that we ignore
simply thrumming
inside our veins

Raindrops like gunshots
On my window pane
Burnt out with self-doubt
Seeping through my brain

five, six, seven, eight
we will not cut today

four, three, two, one
we promised we were done

eight, seven, six, five
we'll get through the cold nights

one, two, three, four
we said there would be no more

i so thank the hands that crafted
the masterpiece that is you
and the red strings of fate
that has brought us together

You are my sun
And I, your sunflower
My life revolves around
You who shines on me

And yet at times, I feel
Like I am more the moon
Our hearts are one
Yet our minds cannot meet

It feels as though we are
Forever on opposing ends
One always overshadowed
Inevitably by the other

You are the sun
Bold and bright yet brash
Sitting high in the sky
Caring and yet cruel

At times, I am the moon
Bleak and bereft
Surrounded by stars
But equally so of darkness

I wish to hide in that darkness
And wait until the day
For the eclipse that shall bring us
Truly together again

You are my sun
and I, your sunflower
I look only to you
I bloom for no one else

The ardent love
Planted in my heart
It blossoms fervently
Violently for you

You mean the world
And so much more to me
You’re my piece of heaven
Fate has sent you to me

You are the dream
I can hardly believe
Never thought possible
Coming true just for me

baby i'm your poison
and you're my antidote
a taste almost divine
sinfully saccharine sweet

raise me from perdition
with your heavenly lips
kiss me til there’s nothing left
but marks blossoming red

let's let go for a while
don't be shy and come closer
i promise i won't bite
but i'd love it if you did

darling just wait and see
we were made for each other
i'd love to see how well
those hands fit around my neck

my body is leaden
with the weight of my sins
heavy and burdensome

a persistent reminder
of wrongs long past and yet are
impossible to atone

looming overhead like rain clouds
full to bursting with painful thoughts
brimming with more tears to be shed

perhaps it does not linger so much
above as it does below our feet
like black sticky tar or deep quick sand

every step forward is taken in vain
serving only to drain us completely
of what hope we might have possessed

to you, I am a fine wine
sweet, silky, at times aggressive
housed in glass, i'm delicate
to be enjoyed on occasion

by my neck, I wish you'd grab
hold me roughly without a care
take all of me selfishly
until nary a drop is left

for you are water to me
cool, calm, and most refreshing
constantly i thirst for you
to drown me in waves of pleasure

i kneel at the water's edge
wishing to see that calmness break
to feel the ripples of want
overtake and overwhelm me

My gaze does not land on your figure
Unwittingly or by chance
It is drawn in, inexplicably
By your arresting presence

It awakens an aching hunger
Deep-seated and desperate
Which consumes me entirely
Until I am slave to it

I yearn for you unabashedly
For your entire being
A fervent desire so profound
For you I would mortally sin

Just look and I'll be at your mercy
One word and I'm on my knees
If anything is certain tonight
It will be me begging "please"

you make me want to **** myself
and it shouldn't be so
you who make me so happy
make me want to go

though the sadness that i feel
is not equal in measure
i cannot deny
that those feelings are real

i can't jump out the window
i can't set myself on fire
i can barely speak my mind
where am i to go

to speak while one is maddened
is driving whilst blindfolded
you do know what you're doing
yet at the same time, you don't

the anger and frustration
is a deep and heavy fog
that envelops all your sense
and whisks it away from you

your hands grip the steering wheel
and your foot steps on the gas
you don't know where you're going
you just know you have to drive

while you know that it's reckless
it simply cannot be helped
you're blinded by a purpose
that you know isn't worth it

the breaks are all but broken
and there's nowhere left to turn
the journey will have to end
at your point or another

you can't see the aftermath
but sorely, you can feel it
like watching a tidal wave
when it crashes, so will you

you are the gentle sunshine
the million little dust motes
that drift in through my window
in the wee hours of morning

you are the fluffy white clouds
that appear in the heavens
like an old friend popping in
joyfully, out of the blue

you are the bold brilliant moon
the endless amount of stars
in the night sky as I stroll
and think of our adventures

you are the cold winter wind
that lightly caress my cheeks
when I retreat to my bed
revelling in thoughts of us

Of age old lighters
All vast and sundry
These are what make up
My father's hobby

Stuffed into his desk
Were such novelties
He could have boasted
Twas as large as he

Regular raven
With his jewelries
His full collection
I never did see

Only when he passed
Did I lay my eyes
On all the treasures
That drawer did hide

Every size and shape
Of lighter there is
I guarantee you
There was one of his

So much like his gauds
His wondrous person
Never came to light
Til he had passed on

Head pounding
Like rainclouds
Filled to burst
With dark thoughts

Chest aching
Like her arms
Weeping red
And throbbing

Tears running
Like her dreams
Ever farther
From her grasp

Heart breaking
So much like
The promises
To herself

so tell me, darling
can you even count
the endless numbers
etched into your skin

you can cover up
all your little scars
but there's no hiding
the ones left on your soul

can you almost feel
the dark heavy weight
of 3 am thoughts
that scream "you ****** up"

the ones that linger
that hide and pretend
that things are okay
when your insides ache

Alone in the world
Wandering eterne
I serve no purpose
I am always lost

Clumsy and unsure
You came to my side
Bad jokes, sparkling eyes
I was all but lost

****** in by whirlwinds
And fate's grand scheme
Such happy fun times
We were beyond lost

Dumb fights and distance
Distrust and silence
Convenient outlets
You were, to me, lost

In quiet silence
Cold beds and regrets
Lowly and wretched
I have, to her, lost

It's better this way
Quick breaths and rashness
With tear stained eyes shut
I am, to none, lost

I'm left stricken with awe
You're a god in the flesh
With your trailing kisses
You bring heaven to me

I'm your little angel
A devil in disguise
Take me to nirvana
Make me feel like a god

We can burn in hell
With its black lit flames
Their heat can't compare
To that which we feel

To that which simmers
Underneath our skin
That flickers and licks
When our bodies meet

clouds darken the sky
with their endless rain
foreboding silence
settles and blankets

yet through the despair
of those who cry woe
a brightness pours through
unabashedly

a ray of sunshine
does your dear heart hold
thank you for shining
your light down on me

your endearing warmth
melts away my doubts
like so much piled snow
making way for spring

i've known the summer
and its blazing heat
its fun adventures
for all of my life

yet your cool nature
and slow gentle winds
it incites in me
a new sense of peace