Hope
i see him sit across from me
with trouble in his eyes.
he questions why he did it.
wonders why he lives in lies.

a world of uncertainy is flooded to his mind.
his eyes reflect his troubled thoughts
and words of love unsaid.

memories flow to the front of my mind
tears are brought to my eyes.
so long its been, that you've been gone
but i keep feeling it over and over again.

I know inside i love you.
always have and always will.
a part of me hopes that someday soon
you'll come up to me and tell me, all the things i hope for.

but for now i wait, in this chair across from you.
catching you staring at me, feeling your eyes study my face.
your looking for an answer
a thought you can embrace.

but nothing can replace this
this feeling called love
i will live forever in your mind
you won't ever forget me
i'll be in your memory
for all eternity

and i sit across from you
hoping that you'll give
give into what i know you feel
tough feelings that you cope
i'd give anything to have you back with me
but for now, all i can do
is hope.

i wanted to erase all of it. .

Removing tear sick about you. .

About someone who never hurt me. .

About someone who always erase any hopes. .



You came uninvited,

Prints memories for the sake of memories,

Leaving a footrest without meaning,

Which makes me think it is just an illusion. .

But it does not mean,

Like an old paper, burned by fire.



If you understand,

That existence means to me,

like the sun is always shining on the earth pobud,

But that was then,

Long before you leave the self alone,

When the nights are long and cold
and the days are lonesome and blue.
The tears begin to get old
and my thoughts always drift to you.
When my heart is quickly breaking
and I'm forced to search my mind
for something to stop the aching...
you're the one I find.

When I'm feeling helpless and weak
you give me the strength to move on.
When I'm broken and cannot speak
you give me the words to go on.
The happiness I've known with you
is like nothing I've felt before.
When once all was closed from view
now you have opened the door.

You released my hidden emotions my heart and soul.
My deepest love and devotion finally making me whole.
If we are forced to be apart throughout everything we do
  please know that you are in my heart...
and that I'm always thinking of you.

Forever
Darkness surrounds me, will love ever touch my life again?
Agony weighs down my soul as I weep and pray for death.

Pain can last forever,
in your body and in your mind.
Even if I roam the dark forever;
I could find no source of light.

All I have are dreams of you,
Memories of your sweet eyes.
More lovely than an angel;
You were my healing and light.

Darkness surrounds me, longing fills my heart as I bleed away.
Blood drips from my wrist, as I end this cruel life today.

Pain can last forever,
But only while I am still alive.
I don't want the dark forever;
I want rest, relief from life