Please don't call me beautiful
When I am marked by beastly scars
When I have accepted the true aspect of what's real
Until you have seen the true magnitude of my chaos that expresses true horror

Please don't teach me that I'm worth it
When I have finally gave up on myself
When I know that I'm a mishap that doesn't fit
Until you have seen my perspective of this world-death

Please don't feed me lies that I'm kind-hearted
When I punish myself for being who I am
When I can't find a reason why I started
Because I'm am swiped as an awful scam

Please don't spit in my face that I'm authentic
When I know my smiles are fake
When my face is stained and I just say I'm sick
And I'm the only thing I hate

And please don't stuff that word acceptable into me
When I know I'm a misfit for being a non-conformist
And I know I can't run free
When I'm under society's rule of dictatorship

But if you see my scars
The emptiness of emotions in my eyes
Please know I'm voyaging in a war
And when I have lost, note my last *sigh

Mommy, mommy
I was in shock that day
Can't believe you took your life away
To see you like that was a terrible nightmare
Giving me such a hermondous scare
Your face grew pale
Which led to a horrific wail

Seeing you covered, being pushed to an ambulance
Certainly, left my life unbalanced
The night before was clear that you were up to no good
Which I should have understood
I had  promised to make you proud
Making my teenage years out of bound

No words can be explained
But indeed my emotions can be addressed
Missing the laughters, the hugs, and the kisses
Especially those unfulfilled wishes
Looking back, you made me stronger
To make life's expectations much more longer

Sleepless nights, unforgotten dreams
Flashbacking to the walks we took,  bursting out a scream
The more I forget the past
More tears kept running back
That's why I believe in love at first sight because I loved you sinced the day I opened my eyes.

It's growling at me
With its emotionless eyes
As my fears grow, it starts to see
It's growling with all its lies

Black as the devil's soul
Creating a never endless pain
A dead wicked ghoul
Stuck like an unremovable stain

It taunts and laughs wickedly
It spitted out, "You're weak just like your mother."
I spatter out bitterly
But it doesn't seem to bother

Bickering, bickering for who's right
The lies connected my fate
No longer do I see the light
I'm no longer in the zone, going mentally insane

"Let me out!," I shrieked
But it smiled and escaped
I'm no longer within the breach
I'm all caged.