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10.6k · Sep 2015
"The Cancer Society"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
We're like stars who shines
But later, our light dies
Dispersed as an unwanted material
Oh, what a cruel shame

Society is messed up I tell you
That's who you should blame
Thanks society for killing my light
Thank you for making me want to die.
7.5k · Sep 2015
"The Cosmic Dreamer"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"I am a cosmic dreamer who's crestfallened in her deceitful catastrophes."
3.8k · Sep 2015
"The melancholic anxiety"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"I'm battling so much fear and so much pain.
In my mind, all it ever does is rain."

3.2k · Sep 2015
"Frost Bite"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
His eyes are as cold as the winter breezes
I try my best to cave through but everything freezes
"Let me in!", I beg
But he's too drunk within his emotions in a bottle of keg

His walls are up again
With emotions scarred into his skin with the markings of a pen
Tears well up in his eyes
He tells me goodnight

"No! No!", I scream
But the darkness consumed him as it seemed
I too, got ****** into his darkness
Now I knew, he was my fatal nightmare chasing me in my dreams.
1.4k · Sep 2015
"The incurable insanity"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
We're all admitted into this disease
Lost within our minds
Suffering our endless pleas
It's an infection in mankind

Inevitable like death
A plague in our hearts
It's our killer yet our friend
A catastrophe written from the start.
crybaby911 Sep 2015
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I am a cosmic wanderer
Lost in the darkness and shimmerness of his eyes
I'm in love with the darkness he breathes
And the stars he exhales.
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1.3k · Sep 2015
"Cry, no one cares"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"Wah. Wah. Wah," the crybaby said.
Her insecurities are always, constantly being fed.
Then they shove a pacifier into her mouth.
To ignore their blabbering self-doubts.

mama. <3
1.2k · Sep 2015
"Paradox¿"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
She is a chaotic mess
Who is a genius yet makes no complete sense
She is weak but willing to fight the war
She constantly asks herself, "How long and how far?"
How long until the storm ends?
When will her thoughts finally be her friend?
Because inside, it's a monstrosity and it's killing her with curiousity
Consumed in her chaos, in her little paradox.
1.2k · Sep 2015
"Mystical Illusion"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
You're in my reality
You're in my dreams
You are all I see
You make me scream

Get out of my head! You undesirable *******
No, please don't break me further
Don't tear me apart
But my words drifted in the wind into a soft murmur

My eyes are cold
Expressing no emotions
My soul was sold
And you bottled me with potions

I scream
I kick
Get out of my dreams
You're making me sick

I awake
Distorted in all mental confusion
My senses became opaque, written in my mistakes
Because you are just an unforsaken illusion; stuck in the gravity of my imagination.
1.2k · Sep 2015
"My Paralyzed Heart"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
My heart aches to be loved
To be moved in many ways
But my feelings were always shoved
Into the dark, excruciating haze

I want to feel something
Anything in fact
But my heart is on a hinge
Feeling numb, my emotions going blank

It's cold in here
Filled with my salty tears
It starts to beat slower
Breaking into large shears

I barricade myself
Afraid of being loved, not being hurt
My feelings bailed
Saying I'm a curse

My feelings back stabbed me
I feel so paralyzed
Now I know, now I see
It's my own personal sign

I wasn't meant to be loved
No man can fix my agonized heart
It's never going to be enough
To fix what's been long broken and deserted.
988 · Sep 2015
"Light Switch"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
There will always be the wicked in the light
And the good in the dark
So beware of your sight
For the stars that shine too bright are too far

Awaken yourself into the glorious dimness
Where humans coexist
We are the good in the wickedness
What a shameful catastrophic bliss

Heaven is what we call it
But we are both the angel and the devil
This is what we call our catastrophic bliss
Where our mistakes are our own bill

We are the abandoned children of the universe
We are alone in our hearts
Shifting in our doomed curse
Because we are the fault in our stars

Close your eyes
Open our lies
We're all left in the ditch
Because the inevitable universe has turned off our light switch.
949 · Sep 2015
"My mental insanity"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
I am that quiet girl
Who's absorbed in her thoughts
Self destructed in her twirls and whirls
Hanging in her knots

Everybody assumes she's fine
That she's content
It will all tell in time
When she loses her mind; peculiarity bent. ♭
834 · Sep 2015
"Shush, shush"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"Don't look into the deep aspects of my mind.
You'll shiver from all my mental crimes. "
798 · Sep 2015
"Crybaby"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"She is a crybaby.
Downpouring in her flesh and glory.
Self inflicted in her catastrophes."
752 · Feb 2016
Galactic inner void
crybaby911 Feb 2016
She breathed in the darkness
But illuminated light
Attracting others to her never endless heart  
Eyelids that uncovered stars
And a galactic, mysterious soul
Which was like the universe, ever expanding
A new kind of solar system
Thoughts that were ever so changing like the constellations
Connecting all her fractured aspects
A black hole
With an emptiness inner void
That pulled me in
A beautiful universe filled with its oddities  
So peculiar, yet so mesmerizing
You just can't help it
But to fall in love with her
Because she sparked light in the darkness
While her universe shrunk and became less condensed
And she thought that she was nothing
But in all her glory, she is something...
697 · Sep 2015
"Dark River"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
My eyes are crying for help, can't you tell?
Or are you guys under some kind of spell?
Don't you see the bones and ashes crushed within me?
Don't you see my eyes speaking to merciless pleas?

It's killing me inside
I may smile but please look behind
Blocked by this superficial monstrosity
It's growing furiously

I am no longer here
Drifted away in my tears
You guys couldn't see it
Now I'm lost and can't be found within

Taken away by the tears I shed
Wept away in all the hurtful things you said
Tears are my blood that I have bled
I no longer exist because your words have pronounced me dead.
682 · Sep 2015
Please Don't
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Please don't call me beautiful
When I am marked by beastly scars
When I have accepted the true aspect of what's real
Until you have seen the true magnitude of my chaos that expresses true horror

Please don't teach me that I'm worth it
When I have finally gave up on myself
When I know that I'm a mishap that doesn't fit
Until you have seen my perspective of this world-death

Please don't feed me lies that I'm kind-hearted
When I punish myself for being who I am
When I can't find a reason why I started
Because I'm am swiped as an awful scam

Please don't spit in my face that I'm authentic
When I know my smiles are fake
When my face is stained and I just say I'm sick
And I'm the only thing I hate

And please don't stuff that word acceptable into me
When I know I'm a misfit for being a non-conformist
And I know I can't run free
When I'm under society's rule of dictatorship

But if you see my scars
The emptiness of emotions in my eyes
Please know I'm voyaging in a war
And when I have lost, note my last *sigh
662 · Sep 2015
"My Caged Shadow"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
It's growling at me
With its emotionless eyes
As my fears grow, it starts to see
It's growling with all its lies

Black as the devil's soul
Creating a never endless pain
A dead wicked ghoul
Stuck like an unremovable stain

It taunts and laughs wickedly
It spitted out, "You're weak just like your mother."
I spatter out bitterly
But it doesn't seem to bother

Bickering, bickering for who's right
The lies connected my fate
No longer do I see the light
I'm no longer in the zone, going mentally insane

"Let me out!," I shrieked
But it smiled and escaped
I'm no longer within the breach
I'm all caged.
633 · Sep 2015
"Never endless"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Unceasing mental conversations
Unceasing mental wars
Physical distortions
Unhealing scars

*Fix me doctor.
573 · Sep 2015
"☹"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"Happiness is artificial. A fake act of getting through life."
553 · Sep 2015
"Crestfallen"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Life itself, is a crestfallen beauty
A paradoxical melancholy
A chaotic mess
In our self altitude
An oxymoron
A self destruction for human kind
552 · Sep 2015
"Break Free"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Depression is only a figment of the past
So remove yourself from its intoxicated dark magic
And relive your life once again.
*I hope to all of you that are in this state, breaks free from this mental insanity. You deserve to live life, you deserve to be yourself again.*
532 · Sep 2015
"The Last Goodbye"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Mommy, mommy
I was in shock that day
Can't believe you took your life away
To see you like that was a terrible nightmare
Giving me such a hermondous scare
Your face grew pale
Which led to a horrific wail

Seeing you covered, being pushed to an ambulance
Certainly, left my life unbalanced
The night before was clear that you were up to no good
Which I should have understood
I had  promised to make you proud
Making my teenage years out of bound

No words can be explained
But indeed my emotions can be addressed
Missing the laughters, the hugs, and the kisses
Especially those unfulfilled wishes
Looking back, you made me stronger
To make life's expectations much more longer

Sleepless nights, unforgotten dreams
Flashbacking to the walks we took,  bursting out a scream
The more I forget the past
More tears kept running back
That's why I believe in love at first sight because I loved you sinced the day I opened my eyes.
Old poem .
516 · Sep 2015
"The unloveable torture"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
They always told me I wouldn't be loved
Because I'm a stupid paradox
They always told me I never fitted in
Disposing me as if I was a great, big sin

I begged them to accept me
With all my never endless pleas
They disagreed since I was different
Because my mind is terrifyingly bent

Tossed me aside
In the ceasing riptide
Screaming for help
But my scream came to a muffled melt

Drowning in the deep waters
Because I'm a blue falter
Lost in the craziness of their minds
Saying goodbye.
515 · Sep 2015
"Unheard Mischiefs"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Voices, voices is all I hear
They tell me to come over here
I silently say no
Then they turn into crows

Nitpicking on my skin
Leaving marks of my sins
They laugh and laugh
Their laughters turns into wraths

They throw me against the wall
Feeding me pain like its a brawl
But I don't fight back
All my willpower were taken into a sack

The voices are winning
I am losing
Then you whispered into my ears
Saying to stop drowning in your tears

You lend me your hand
And said we'll fight the voices as we firmly stand
They're gone
Whistling to a mortifying song

You too, soon disappear
I start to fear
I try to feel my way out
But there's no way out

You stole the key
Closed me in the darkness
Taunting me, shoving me into the walls
My heart cracks and out he crawls

He lends his hand
I reached for it but it dissolved into sand
He fades away into my past
I'm free at last.
473 · Oct 2015
Lost.
crybaby911 Oct 2015
I am mentally toppling in my own thoughts
I thought it was love that I sought
Now, it's fazed in the opaqueness of my confusion
I lose myself, again, to depression.
426 · Aug 2015
"Happy Psycho"
crybaby911 Aug 2015
She laughs when she inflicts physical pain
Her face are covered with old stains
Rocking back and forth
She counts to four

Laughing, crying
Her heart is dying
Filled with insecurities and self hatred
That's all she painted

Looks in the mirror
Shivering from her exterior
How can one be alive but feel so dead?
That's all she said

She broke down and counted to four
Who's at the door?
They found her body
She was dead and all ******.
368 · Sep 2015
"Dark Mist"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
Because we're all dead inside
With nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Hiding from our mistakes
As if it's our own keepsake
It's igniting and the flame is getting higher and higher
Stop! It's getting much more brighter
Leave me in the dark mist
Leave me in this unknown blankness
Because I'm all fine
And I know I wasn't meant to shine.
278 · Sep 2015
"Hide & Seek"
crybaby911 Sep 2015
"Play dead", they told me.
But I never woke up.

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