Sunburns that hurt like hell--
All the secrets we would tell--
Summer nights that wouldn't end--
Thank you for being my friend.

I sit on my bed
and just stare at the floor.
A car passes in the distance
but I hear nothing more.
My breathing is shallow--
my heart barely beats;
I dig in my mind
for the memories I keep.
Flashes of you
and what we once were
cross my thoughts
in heartbreaking blurs.
I remember us laughing
and talking
and planning:
Planning a future
that's no longer happening.
Forever, we promised,
but we were naive--
We had no concept
of what forever could mean.
For forever's
not measured:
It's no length of time.
It starts with "hello"
and ends with "goodbye."
Sometimes it's years.
And sometimes it's seconds.
We promised forever
and I know that I meant it.
Because I'll always remember
what we use to be:
what I said to you,
what you said to me.
Years from the moment
that you walked away
I'll still remember
the sorrow and pain.
I'll always remember
you and me together
because it changed me forever.
But I wish that it didn't
because you're so indifferent.
It's as though, for you,
we never made a commitment.
When I couldn't give you
what someone else could,
you walked out of my life
and you walked out for good.
Didn't ask for some space.
Didn't say, "hey," in the hall.
Just walked right on out
like I meant nothing at all.
So you couldn't have meant it
when you promised forever.
You treat me as though
we were never together.
And this hurts me so much--
I can't even describe
how my gut clenches and twists
when you’re on my mind.
Because I gave you a forever.
A forever I can't get back.
Because I died that day
that you left me like that.
I morphed and I changed
into somebody new;
From the ashes of us
a new person grew.
You took a forever
because I’ll never be
the person I was
before you hurt me.
And all the memories
that we made together
are tainted
and haunted
and will be forever.

Take your time.
Please don't rush.
Sleep on it
if you must.
Don't decide
based on lust.
'Cause, if you do,
I'll be crushed.
So take your time
and please don't rush.

I need to know
that you stopped
and put in
some decent thought,
listed the pros
and the cons,
weighed the rights
and the wrongs.

Give this decision
thought and time
even if you don't
change your mind.
You hold my life
in your hands:
all my dreams,
all my plans.

Take your time.
Please don't rush.
Sleep on it
if you must.
Don't decide
based on lust.
'Cause, if you do,
I'll be crushed.
So take your time
and please don't rush.

You look at the sky
and see the stars.
You want to hold them
but they're much too far.
You look at the moon
shinning bright.
You find hope
in its dim light.
But nothing can brighten
the darkness you hide;
the darkness that crawls
and haunts you inside.
A lonesome tear
leaks from an empty eye
as you stare and marvel
at the dazzling night sky.

Goodbye to all the friends I knew.
I loved the time I spent with you.
You made me laugh though things were bad;
I won't forget the time we had.

I hate that kid with all my heart.
Wish I could tear him apart.
But morals, values, all that ****,
are keeping me from doing it.

Bring me down
into sleep.
I need it now
so drag me deep.
I'm ready for
the dreams it'll bring.
I need to hear
its soft voice sing.
I need to feel
forgetfulness
within my mind
of uselessness.
Let it take me
forever more.
Let it cure
these aching sores.
Let me stay
within its waves
and feel its urgent,
violent craves.
I need to leave
this world tonight
and slip into
this sleep of mine.
Let me hope.
Let me dream.
All I ask is
let me sleep.

Seventeen,
with my whole life ahead of me.
Wondering what will I be?

I've lost some friends
a while back.
I close my eyes;
hear fading laughs.
It makes me long for the past.
I wish that I
could turn back time,
stop all that
which made me cry;
prevent all those hard goodbyes.
But I can't.
And that is that.
I must survive from where I'm at.

Seventeen,
a confused me.
Unsure of what I want to be.

So many choices
now to make.
I choose my path,
pray I won't break,
struggle on through my mistakes.
I try to do
most things right.
Early mornings,
later nights;
hanging on for dear life.

Seventeen,
ashamed of me.
So scared of what I'm gonna be.

Starting to think
of what life will bring:
a husband? kids?
a home? a dream?
Who will be there,
at my side,
through both the great
and horrid times?
For what and whom will I cry?
Will the friends
that I have now
survive the years
beyond somehow?

Seventeen,
barely me.
No need to fret of what I'll be.

I am young
and in my prime,
a thousand ways
to pass the time.
The days will come
and I will know
what is down
this winding road.
For now I'm
ignorant and naive
with my whole life
awaiting me.
No need to know everything.

Seventeen,
completely me.
For now I'm all I need to be.

I sit alone
with my thoughts.
I tried to run,
but I got caught.
Turns out I'm not
great company.
That's why
no one is here with me.

Here is my heart
and here is my soul
poured onto pages
that nobody knows.
Nobody's read them
and nobody will.
My mind, though so restless,
must remain still.

Darkness comes and clouds roll in
and thus a thunderstorm begins.
Suddenly there is a flash,
a booming jolt and then a clash.
From the evil, looming clouds
raindrops fall, smacking loud.
The big, bad storm causes quite the fuss;
children scream and parents cuss.
The TV screens have all gone black
and people find it's light they lack.

I heard a howling
in the woods,
freezing me
right where I stood.
That sound:
it turned my blood to ice
I knew he'd hunt me
this full moon night.

Great, big footsteps
pounding near;
Their deadly echo
resonating with fear.
His heavy breathing
reeked of blood and thirst.
I knew right then,
I was in for the worst.

I clutched my throat
in desperate need
of oxygen
so I could breathe.
Unluckily
I began to faint.
Knowing, once black,
I'd never wake.

And just as my eyes
began to close
I saw his wet,
sniffing nose.
I felt
his snarling teeth
biting deep
inside of me.

Then I knew
that I was done.
I had lost
and he had won.

Ignore the hurt.
Ignore the pain.
Ignore the pictures.
Throw them away.

Ignore the emptiness you feel.
Just tell yourself, "it isn't real."
Maybe if you just ignore
your shattered heart upon the floor
then maybe you can just pretend
that you never lost a friend.

I don't want to live a lie,
but I don't know what the truth is.
I don't want to die tonight,
but I don't know how to live through this.

Just one more day
and all pain will end.
Just wait until morning,
it'll be better then.

I wake up to find
that the clouds are all gray,
but I still have hope
that it'll be better today.

I pack up my things,
but they fall to the floor.
Still, I am hopeful;
Let's just get out the door.

I sit in the back.
I stay out of the way.
Smile as people pass,
but no one looks my way.

Alas it is silent.
I'm ignored, no surprise.
I walk home lonely
with tears in my eyes.

I run to my bedroom.
I close the door.
I whisper in my head:
just one second more.

Just one more day
and all pain will end.
Just wait until morning,
it'll be better then.

So quick are we to pass the blame
onto someone else's name.
We quickly spread vicious lies
to insure that others are despised.
We push those around us so far down
with all the **** that we spin round.
No one is innocent of this cruel game
for if you were to look, everyone's to blame.

I am unaware of the time right now,
I haven't got a clue.
The sun is gone.
The night is black.
And all I can think is you.

Usually the night time
is time for my escape;
time for me to slip to sleep
and dream of better things.

But lately I've been hesitant
to lay myself to bed
for I can't get thoughts of you
to stop spinning 'round my head.

I cannot fall into sleep
once switching off my light
for thoughts of you
and what we were
keep me up all night.

Until exhaustion finally pulls me
into long awaited sleep
where I wander aimlessly
through memories that I keep.

And, though I want it badly,
I know my rest can't last
for nightmares quickly drown me
in memories from our past.

Once again I am awake,
stirred restless by my mind.
I count sheep, not to sleep,
but to simply pass the time.

I am unaware of the time right now,
I haven't got a clue.
The stars have gone.
The sun is bright.
And all I can think is you.

I found a piece of your heart.
You must have left it behind.
But that's all right because with you
I left a piece of mine.