You were my drug
You filled me with a beauty
That was never ending
So tell me was it worth it
When you drove me into insanity
Forgetting you is not hopeless
But to do so is pretty tragic
For losing you completely
Is what made my heart so dramatic

I was told that love was within the heart
but to only know that's what I thought 

But the heart can be broken and as well they can see right through 
yet I never even knew 

but as well my hearts not even there
just a hole full of sadness yet it is just so clear

no one can heal me yet no one even tied 
no one can read the truth that's inside

still now and then I see his face the one that killed me
yet now there's still no trace

I was told that pain is just something that couldn't happen to me
but to only know they had lied to me

tears still shed still no one ever sees
darkness still inside of me

the darkness that only wants to be free
free from him the one that dares **** me

I can feel my heart slowly breaking
Still aching, feeling out of place
Hopeless, helpless and broken
Wishing your heart still felt for me

She sits in a chair in a small room
Beside a guy whom she may love
Trapped in thoughts of ***, pain and drugs
Twittling of a blade across her lap
She looks up at him
His blink stair says enough
To make her want to get out of here
But she stands and a waits

Its getting easier and easier to forget your face when all I am to you is a distanced memory locked a way forever in your heart shaped ice box in your tiny cubby space.....

I've tried to hold on
I've tried to stay strong
I've tried to be the best i could be

But no one cared
No one wondered
No one tried to help me

I've searched for the light
But all i found was darkness
I'm broken and scattered
My hollow heart is heartless

With this said i can't take this
I've found the only way to end it
I'm holding this knife with my left hand
Ending it tonight with my right wrist

I'm sorry I wasn't better
But it's not like my life really matter

I lay here beside you
Giggles erupt from my lips
As we talk about anything and everything
Gentle movements of the hips

You ask me why I'm laughing
I tell you I don't know                            
But in reality it's because
I'm scared to show      

All these feelings and emotions
I didn't think I could ever have
This feeling of belonging
Residing in my head

I lay here beside you
Your arms hold me close
Lips pressed together
I now feel at home

I know that once it's morning
These memories will just fade away
I roll over a little closer
As my heart now runs this race

Laying upon you chest
I cling on tight
whispers now over power the night

The world alive above us  
In silence they over hear
I now lay wide awake
But I never did make my point clear

I tied to whisper something
But I didn't want you to hear
So I laid there beside you
Trying to find the words to say
When randomly I whisper

"I love you"
"I love you"
"I love you"

They escape my lips
And danced in the night
As I'm still laying here clinging on tight

I know it's to soon
I know it's not right
But In the end
You'll never know
Because once again I giggle
I'm to scared to show

Running far a way...a way from everything and everyone.... running from the butterflies that once were... from the happiness I feel when I'm with you... im leaving everything behind because I feel so stupid so guilty for falling head over heels for you

Here's a story of a depressed girl
Living in a lonely world
Hiding her wounds
With jack and gin
                                                  
She lived alone most her life
Though the rooms were crowded
Sitting aside from them all
Waiting to be smothered                  

She wrote her feelings among pages
Cutting her memories skin deep    
Leaving scars among the places
Where she used to sleep        
                                                                    
she walks amongst the hidden halls
Leaving no trace to be seen
The color red was her friend
In which was upon
the floors she breath

Such a depressed girl
Looking for a cure
Which she could never find

She looked for better places
Searching for familiar faces
Hoping she would be seen

But never again would she
Have ever been happy
For this depressed girl
Took it upon her
To leave the pages soaked
Forever smothered with her
Hopes and dreams

I loved you when I first met you
you loved me
Days went by
our love grew strong you see
Things fell apart
We went our separate ways
But sadly I still loved you
like I had that day

I waited
Just waited
Waiting for the day
When you would text me

"Good morning beautiful"
How I waited for those 3 words
To pop up onto my screen

I waited    
Just waited
But they haven't came

So I wondered
And keep on wondering
Do you even miss me

a month has gone by
Still no word
I'm so crushed
But you don't see                

I hide my feelings
Behind closed screens
I pretend it doesn't bother me
Secretly it's driving me crazy

I fooled around
I had my fun
But none can compare to you

I miss your silly little smolder
The way you held me
I miss the fun times we had
The endless nights we slept together

I can go on forever
I wish it was different
I know it can't be
But if ever you need me
You know where to find me

His beauty is beyond words
His words are beyond exotic
His mind is a mystery
For in which I want to solve it

I've never met someone
As wonderless as he
The way he made my heartache
Drop down to my knees

He took me by surprise
When his lips came across mine
I looked a way biting my lip

He was a god like no other
So many beautiful women
Had fallen for his power

I was just the norm
The girl that he had mistaken
But it was obvious
That tonight I was his for the taken
                                
He then kissed me again
This time I let him
The way his lips taste
Was like pure magic

Bodies pressed together
Feeling like teenagers
Hoping not to get caught    

Shirts now come off
I cover myself
I hate how my scars
Show in the dark

He grabs my arms
pins them above him
Now fingers intertwined

Gentle neck kisses
slowly I believe this is happening
I then close my eyes

I feel him move lower
His head now reach my thighs
Tiny little nibbles
My body starts to struggle
Never wanting this to stop

"Take me"  

Then our bodies become one
Breathless and tried
Slightly excited
"Please don't let this ever stop"  

Once it's all over
I look him into the eyes
I see the way he looked at me
As if he just won a prize

Little cries come from the other room
Now he's putting on his pants
I look at the clock and notice the time
He says "you can stay for the night"

A love like tate and violet
Tragic but beautiful
Ever untouchable but non lasting
I once thought I wanted a love like this
But I want a love that's ever lasting
Tragedy is beautiful
But I would rather die
in the arms of someone faithful
So why have a love like tate and violet
When you too can create a beautiful love
Full of tragedy but that's ever lasting

Our beautiful disaster
Our greatest master piece
In which the world could see
That we weren't ment to be
Vocabulary so harsh
It cut deep into the seams
Take one more hit
One more mental break
Which only leaves heartache

I wish my words could spill out of my fingertips and maybe then dance across the keys.. With every waking moment my mind wishes to speak... I know not what I say but what I say I say wonderlessly... For those waking moments I can't help but to wonder what was so greatly been unseen....

I wish my words could come out on to this computer screen so that then the world could maybe see just how beautiful and wonderful things could truly be
I'm hopeless and helpless to speak what others can't say, what others can't say some say yet tinderly but as I said my mind races so marvelously that here I am spilling my mind so rapidly...

I hope to capture every thought in my head even the ones left unsaid for those are the ones I wonder so helplessly hoping to seek so endlessly about love and life, heartache and tragedies but at last I'm left so hopelessly clinging on to what little I have left

It started with a bus stop poem
Damaged goods to be precise
She spoke of its words
His eyes on her
He's all she seems to see
      
Standing there                              
She reads black coffee kisses
The poem she once wrote
The week before        

People clap she speaks
"I am the girl they call broken"
They stair
"Damaged goods"
Eyes wonder around the room
Only stopping at him

She finishes
He looks at her
Hand reaching out
She misses

The night goes on
She stands shyly
Helplessly wondering
what people may think    

He tells her
"I'll bring you home"
They start walking
When things start to go wrong

She falls apart
Into tears
He speaks of how he feels
She doesn't want to hear it

"Do you love yourself" he asks
"I don't know" she replies
"Do you love yourself" she asks
"No" he replies

She tells him how she hated herself
How she has no friends
He listens to every bit she says
As she falls apart at every seem

He tells her
how he could never
be with a girl like her
How she has to much baggage

"You need to grow up" he says to her
"Get a job, your ged"
He tells her so much more

At the end they just stand there
Holding on to each other
She cries a little into his chest
Just standing there
Secretly wanting to give him
One last kiss

I sit upon a curb waiting for a bus
That may never even come
I am the girl they call broken
Damaged goods
Because I love to the point
That love is taken from me

I sit here waiting for that bus
Wondering if you were looking
Foreword to seeing me

A boy walks by holding a bag
I couldn't help but to wonder
if there is someone out there
waiting for him like I am waiting for you

Nerve's kicking in
Stomach turning
Tapping my fingers upon this screen

I have so much to tell you
But can't think of the words to say
Because I sadly tried to end my life today

I finely reached the bar
where supposedly you would be
Im now sitting here waiting
hoping helplessly that you'll find me

Checking my phone repeatedly
Still no text to see
This damaged goods
Is arching from
Her head down to her knees

He liked it black
No sugar or cream
16 ounces of pure caffeine

I've never tasted something so bitter
The way it touched my lips
Made my body shake and quiver

This caffeinated high
Drives me to do such things
Like going on endless adventures
Reaching for the extreme

Building staircases in familiar places
But never reaching for the stars
Leaving only a slip of paper
Handwritten with a smile

Silly little light house
Sitting on the rocks
Laying there for hours
Singing and such

I could waste away here forever
There in your arms
But I rather have those
Black coffee kisses
So bitter, so strong

He liked it black
No sugar or cream
These black coffee kisses
Made me forever weak in the knees

She lied there lifeless
Unseen by the world
Her corpse unforgotten in time
Decomposing in the past
Never living in the present
Hopelessly lost in a web of lies
In time she was Unforgiven
Never told she was replaced
The sudden remorse for her existence
Left a bad taste in this time and place
Those who have known her
They dare not speak her name
For that is unmentionable
An unspeakable change in his haste

Trapped in a world full of hate
Wrapped in a net of lies
The things left unsaid
I always hated good byes

Paper filled with heartache
Skin full of lines
I never asked for this
But it's all that lays

When lines so deep
Bleed uncontrollably
Hearts shatter all around me

I try to hide So others won't find
Those lines that fully complete me

Lines upon lines
Oh sweet love of mine
How I dread to see thee