I jump to my bed
To scared to rest
For the monster below me
Waits for my slumber

My mind moves quick
My heart beats faster
I lose all common sense
And let the fear take over

I shack under my covers
Waiting for it to all be over
I lie awake for hours
Keeping back the panic

Slowly
Gradually
Painstakingly
I fall asleep

~

I wake to the light
Through my window
Warm in my bed
Surrounded by nothing

My monster is gone
Not forever
But just for now
I smile with relief

Quite
Still
alone
I'm safe

*Well at least for one more day

Twin towers up so high
Who know they'd fall from the sky
Fifteen years ago
A tragedy that we all know
So many died
And so many cried
Now all can do is remember the dead
We think what can not be said

When my day is feeling gray
And my mind is in disarray
I look outside
Only to find
A blue butterfly
Fluttering through the sky

When I saw the blue
Of its wings as it flew
It brought a smile to my face
As its wings flap with grace
It brings happiness in its wake
And many friends does it make*
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Our doubs make us feel caged
In our head's wars are being waged
The pain we hide behind our eyes
We will crumble before you even realize
We put on our best show
So that you will not know
Our soul are litted with scars you will never see
And we wait for the day we will cease to be

I don't want you to leave me
I want you to always be by my side
I don't want you to disappear
Not be swept away by times tide

It's the only certain thing in this world
The hands of time will never stop
But the time I have is never enough
Please someone turn back the clock!

Your hair has greyed but your face kind
Your teeth are false but your words are true
Your smile is old but still as warm
Some day I wish I could be just like you

I want you to live for an eternity
But even an eternity has to end
I can do nothing no matter how hard I try
The scars of time will never mend

The memory of you will last forever
I will always remember our bond
So all I can do is wish you luck
In the world that is beyond

I call you a brick
Because your head is to thick
To comprehend what I'm saying

Your opinion is like a wall
And your brain is just too small
To change your point of view

You are not always right
Everything is not so black and white
You can change what you think

Is it all in you mind
Or are you just so blind
That you can't see the truth

It's OK to be wrong
To not be so headstrong
And be like everyone else

Have a change of heart
Because thats what makes you smart
So learn to keep a open mind

*Don't be a brick

You've known me all my life
So why can't you accept me
I can feel you watching me
Judging me for being me

I'm still the same person
I haven't changed at all
But yet you treat me differently
Like someone you don't know

I no longer feel so open
Like I need to hide
To not show you the parts of me
That you know are there

I thought I could trust you
I thought that you cared
I thought you would still love me
The same way you did before

But I was wrong
And I still don't understand
Why you can't let me be me
And show you who I am

The freckles scattered across your skin
Are like the stars upon the sky
Each one is special, unique
Different but still dazzling

There are too many to count
But you will try anyway
Getting mixed up somewhere
Between the moon and the milky way

They are all so beautiful
And are like no other
So don't try to cover them up
Or hide them from the world

*You never know,
One of those stars might be a galaxies

Making friends is hard to do
But I think I've made one in you
As friends we are all set
Even though we've never meet

I knew you before I knew your face
Getting to know you feels like a race
You are so friendly, amazing and kind
Your good qualities aren't hard to find

I can't wait to hear more from you
Keeping in touch I will certainly do

The lone wolf cries out
Howling into the night
Mourning his lost lover

He calles out to the sky
Asking to not be alone
But he is a lone wolf

A girl sits on a park bench
Her head back looking at the sky
Hair waving gently in the breeze
Her old summer dress hanging loosely
On her small frame

Many people walked past her
Happy family's going to have picnics
Friends laughing and smiling together
People by themselves
Going about their peaceful lives

Not a single person stopped
Not even giving the girl a second glance
They seemed not to have seen
That she was far to skinny
Or the faded lines upon her skin

It's not that they ignored her
They were just so naive
They didn't know the signs
No one taught them to recognize
What was there before their eyes

So when the girl stood up
And walked right out the park
They did not stop her
And did not know
That this day would be her last

I lie
I know I do
And that you do too
I lie about things that matter
I lie so that people won't chatter
I lie to feel that I am blameless
I lie but am still not shameless

When I was 5 I was a lier
I stole chocolates from my mother
Then I told her it was my brother

When I was 10 I was a lier
I did not do what I should have
But I said it was all I could have

Now I'm 15 and am still a lier
My friends ask me why I don't smile
I tell them that it's just my style

I do not want to be like this
I wish I could say what is true
I wish that I could breakthrough
This web of lies
To do so would be unwise
I'm far too deep within this hole
And the time has taken its toll

*But I lie because I'm scared
Of what people might think
If they knew what I do when they blink

There are always first times for things
Like the first time you took a step
Unguided by your parents
The first time you were kissed
By someone who wasn't family
Or even the first time you learnt to ride a bike
Without the training wheels on

But there are also first times for things that didn't
Like the first time your mother didn't tell you goodnight
Because she was too busy and forgot
The first time you didn't celebrate you birthday
Because you were getting too old
Or the first time you didn't see someone you love
Because they were no longer alive

And the worst part about these first times
Is that you don't see them coming
They are what always follow
The last times that you never expect

*But sometimes the first time you didn't do something
Can be more painful then the last time you did something

"Please don't leave"

She just gives me a look
But thats all she needs
To show all her feelings

"How can I be leaving
if i was never really here
in the first place"*

Her voice filled with sadness
As she turns away
Walking with sure steps

I watch her back
As she walks out the door
Tears rolling down my face

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The light bulb flickers and then goes out
Just when you think its gone for good
It stutters back on
Its bright light spreading across the room once again
>
The girl suffers, struggling to stand tall
Just when she has fallen
And you think she's down for the count
She gets back up with a smile to show all
<
You know that one day the light won't turn back on
And the room will be filled with darkness
Until the day you buy another
Replacing the old with something brand new
>
You know that one day she will not get back up
And she will be defeated and lost.
Until the day that you decide to help her up
Out of the sympathy in your heart
<
But the new bulb will never be quite the same
It will always be a slightly different shade of light
Never quite as bright as it use to be
>
But the girls smile will never be quite the same
It will always have a slightly different feeling behind it
Never quite as big as it use to be

^
**But just because its different
Doesn't mean we don't love it just as much
It's special in its own unique way.
There is no way a replacement could ever be the same,
So you shouldn't expect it to be

There was a young boy
A child as lost as one could be
He did not know who he was
Or his reason to be

The boy found a room
The room had no purpose
No reason to be
But it was still there
Like it was just meant to be

In the room he found a mirror
The mirror had no point
No reason to be
But it was still there
Like it just didn't even care

Above the mirror he found a sign
The sign had no explanation
No reason to be
But it was there
Like it just belonged

On the sign he found writing
The words had no meaning
No reason to be
But they were still there
Like they were just meant to be read

The boy read the writing
Trying to find an answer
To find who it was
That made him feel so lost

But after reading that writing
Upon the sign that belonged
Above the mirror that didn't care
In the room that was meant to be
He no longer needed to find an answer

The boy who turned away
From the mirror that didn't care
And walked out
Of the room that was meant to be

He what not lost
But all so not found
He was someone with a purpose
Someone who had found meaning to their life
He knew what he had to do


*'The mirror will reflect your greatest enemy' read the sign

There is mask I wear to cover my face,
A mask that I can never replace.
I know my mask will keep me hidden,
From showing my feelings that should be forbidden.

When tears fall from my eyes,
My mask will only show lies.
Sometimes I wish I could to be true,
And show people that they haven't got a clue.

But later I know it is all worthwhile,
When I can finally show my real smile.

I hear the creaking of a door in my mind.
I couldn't help but feel inclined,
To look behind,
And see what I might find.

But I did not think,
that it would be my well of ink.
I couldn't help but make a link,
To an old kitchen sink.

When I saw that inkwell,
I needed to quell,
The fear that fell,
Upon me as my very own barbell.

I knew what it mean,
And that it was not its intent,
To torment,
But I wish that it would relent.

So I could just spend,
Sometime to amend,
And apprehend,
The part of me that has reached a dead end.

Often the ones who hate themselves the most,
Are the very same people who are the most loving.
They give out their love like giving bread to birds,
They throw it all away and forget to keep any for themselves.
That is why it is up to us to give them some of our bread,
no matter how stale,
To those amazing people who have nothing left to eat.

At some point in every child's life they will wish for the gift of flight.
They will want wings to soar through the sky,
following the birds on the breeze.
To escape all their worries and doubts by simply flying away.
But we are all human and are not capable of such things.
Knowing this we still naively dream of one day being able to fly on wings like birds do.
But maybe one day, if the many children in the world just keep wishing for the impossible, then maybe, just maybe a miracle will occur,
and one beautiful little child will have their wish granted and an angel will be born.

The soldiers are shouting, ever do loudly,
Representing their country, ever so proudly.
The children are crying, as gun shots fill the air,
As their parents promise to always be there.

The hospitals keep crowding with men that are dying,
Wives and children can't stop themselves crying.
The women are moaning, just singing a song,
'Why must we fight, can't we just get along?'

Cannons are firing, gun shots ring out,
All we can hear is shout after shout.
This war is pointless, why do we fight?
This battle I know, will certainly be tight.

It feels like this war will never end,
My battle scars will never mend.
And here I am in a hospital bed,
Because a bullet, when straight through my head.