Somehow it’s more painful
hearing from you
..
than not

We were dancing
with the sunset around us
waiting for the moon to show
I noticed the stars
in your eyes
shine so bright
look up, you said
I smiled while keeping
my eyes on you
nothing can compare
to the universe I see
in your eyes

I just want to be someones someone
I just want to be his girl
I just want to be yours truly
I just want to be your other half

You're like
my favourite cup of coffee
when I sip
it feels the exact same way
as when the morning sun
shines so bright
it's warms your cold face
on a winter day
- making me feel alive

I am your pillow
and you are my
safety blanket

She gave you intimacy 
I gave you soulmate love 
finding 'the one' in this world
is tricky 
when the one you love
is a selfish lover
Break me down just to get your way
I’ll let you do it
..
Does that make me a selfish lover too?

Your love was like the smoke I never had,
not good for my health

I wonder,
when you look at her
do you still wish it was me?

I wonder,
when you talk about your dreams
do you still hear me cheering?

I wonder,
whenever you hear a giggle
is mine still an echo in your head?

I wonder,
whenever you have a bad day
Do you still want to hear my voice?

I wonder,
if this season
reminds you of me

You know the way clouds gently
strokes each other when they meet up in the sky?
That was how you removed every single tear
Gentle, soft and light as a feather
You removed what made me tear up
Until the day I was bottled up
and I couldn't hold the tears back
Because your cloud had passed me
and you were out of reach 
Moving in a different direction 
It's has been raining ever since
I dont know when it's gonna stop

Strolling aimlessly in my cage everyday
Wake up in the same corner, sadness
were hopelessness is sitting, wrapping its arms around me
I always end up going back to that corner
Can you blame me? I'm captured like this
It's the only place where I find comfort in these dark days
I get up, not much space, each corner
has it's own sick ways of treating me
trying to pull me in, whisper lies
It ends up being the same everyday
When I get too tired of crying with sadness
I go to loneliness, but that's not a friend either
So I turn to the sons of worthlessness
telling myself today is different
but they beat me up, uppercut me every time
And then there's the fourth corner. I never go there myself
It's dark there, darker than any other corner of my prison
Darker and more scarier if you close your eyes
I wont say it's name, it's a monster without mercy
But sometimes the sons throws me over to it
And I don't know when it gets tired of having it's claws around me
suffocating me
laughing at my pain
making my body numb
everything gets so heavy
it's a combination of all the corners
I've heard about how it can destroy you
I can only sit and wait for it to get tired of playing around
with my head

I was dancing with my demons the night we met,
you swooped in and took control.
The most confident soul I've ever met,
the way you studied me,
the way our eyes met.
You had no idea who I was, still you fell,
for someone like me, who you just met.
That night you stole my heart and ran
Gave me a high I've never met
made the demons even more cruel
-
I didn't mind, cause my life was doomed
before we even met

Everyone is addicted to something
I just never thought my addiction would be you

Like a flower in a storm,
break me down

Like a flower in the pouring rain,
I'm drowning

Like a flower in the winter,
freeze me to death

Like a flower in the desert,
crying myself to sleep

Like a flower waiting to bloom,
but never made it to spring

Goodbyes are always hard,
but the hardest goodbye,
is the one with yourself.

My love is like glitter
it's either beautiful or messy

I’m sorry
for what I said
when I thought I was in love
with you

I got caught up in the moment
cause I haven't been the same since
I finally felt content
not thinking about mistakes

'I love you'
really meant
this moment
- But how could you have known?

Woke up
but all I want to do is go back to sleep
because the thought of the real world
is suffocating me

I dip my pain and misery in glitter
to blind you by the joy and colors
but you’ve called my bluff
You looked close enough to see
washed out colors
‘Why didn’t you tell me?’
Ashamed I look down
because I too was
blinded by all the glitter 
So desperately I wanted to be who I’ve always been
so I held on to it
I kept it there for people to see
that I wasn’t completely, 
broken
..
(And maybe I could even convince myself
that I was okay)