"kmh" poems
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to lose you.
I don’t know what to say.
I just want us to be okay.
I have to move on.
I’ve known for so long.
But I don’t want to.
I don’t want to lose you.
- kmh
Sep 1, 2016
Sep 1, 2016 at 11:57 PM UTC
You’re beautiful;
A strong maple in autumn.
You don’t care about me.
You let me go,
As if I was the last leaf on your highest branch;
Slow and gentle;
Falling to the ground now.
You’ll grow new leaves in the spring.
I’ll just crumble into the earth below you.
- kmh
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 12:36 AM UTC
My heart pounds like thunder.
Your eyes shine like lightning.
We crash together.
There’s a storm inside of me.
The sound is muffled,
The flashes slowing.
We’re diminishing now.
You brewed a hurricane inside of me.
The birds are out,
Chirping, whirling.
The sun is shining.
It’s over.
And you’re nowhere to be found.
- kmh
Sep 11, 2016
Sep 11, 2016 at 10:46 PM UTC
I stopped painting flowers for you today.
All the petals have fallen off.
You’re no longer part of my thoughts.
I’ve gotten you out of my head.
I loved you at one point,
But that time is over now.
I stopped painting flowers for you today.
Now there’s nothing left.
- kmh
Nov 13, 2016
Nov 13, 2016 at 8:27 PM UTC
I don’t know who I am anymore.
I’m just a lost boy at sea.
Crashing waves inside of me.
Saltwater in my veins.
Drowning in my pain.
The tide eases now.
I’m slowly recovering.
The waves at a halt.
I was once a lost boy.
And now I’m crowned the king.
- kmh
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 2:35 PM UTC
I miss high school.
Not the overdramatic girl yelling at the top of her lungs.
Not the so-called friends that left me stranded.
Not the hours of homework on something I still don’t understand.
I miss people.
I miss moments.
I miss routine.
I miss him.
- kmh
Aug 26, 2016
Aug 26, 2016 at 1:28 AM UTC
I thought I was over you.
I thought I was done.
I thought I was moving on.
I stopped thinking about you.
I thought that was the end,
The end of something that never began.
I was wrong.
- kmh
Aug 29, 2016
Aug 29, 2016 at 2:33 AM UTC
I thought I was okay.
I thought I was getting better,
finally getting over you.
But then there was a night that came;
I saw your face this time.
You were standing there,
as stunning as could be.
As much as I thought I didn’t want you to turn and look at me,
my heart pleaded for your attention,
even for a brief second.
Things happened that night;
not between you and I,
nor between the sun and the sky.
It was another love of mine.
Everything was shattering and it was my mistake.
It was deteriorating,
breaking at the roots.
But you were there,
and my heart skipped a beat.
I tried to pass it off,
but my heart wouldn’t budge.
That night I came to a realization:
I won’t be over you anytime soon.
- kmh
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 12:19 AM UTC
And somehow you're still the one.
You're still the same boy I love;
the one I fell for years ago.
You're still in my heart.
I know I'm not in yours,
but I can't help, but hold you in mine.
You were my first love.
And I know that no matter what I do,
I'll always be in love with you.
- kmh
Aug 23, 2016
Aug 23, 2016 at 12:47 AM UTC
I love you.
I still do.
I was never yours.
And I know I never will be.
But these feelings won't go away.
I can't erase my memory of you.
You just won't fade away.
I guess you're here to stay.
I'll keep my distance.
I know you don't care.
I just really miss you.
And I know I always will.
- kmh
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 10:44 PM UTC
You and me,
we have a past.
We have a history.
Never together;
almost, but not quite.
We were strangers.
We were friends.
We fell for each other.
But we couldn’t be together.
We both knew that.
We had history with others;
we just couldn’t let go.
We fell apart;
so close to love,
yet so far gone.
It dissolved.
But things change.
We’re friends again.
Really good ones at that.
Closer than before.
And that’s all we’ll be;
Just friends;
For now that is.
- kmh
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 2:00 AM UTC
I am lost.
Trapped in an ocean.
Waves of depression,
Crash against my heart.
There’s a lighthouse,
But she won’t show me the way.
The tide is coming in.
It rushes through me.
I see the coast,
But I can’t reach it.
The salt water stops me.
I am drowning.
- kmh
Jul 11, 2016
Jul 11, 2016 at 12:35 AM UTC
I'm falling back in love with you.
I know they say that you can't love someone you've never had.
They're wrong.
Like isn't a strong enough word for these feelings.
I'm falling back into you brown eyes and amazing smile.
I know you don't love me,
but I can't help, but fall.
I am falling into infinity,
And I'm just barely through the surface.
- kmh
Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 3:55 PM UTC
Nil are the things that conquer the speed of time.
Not the cheetah racing to its prey,
nor a car upwards of 200 kmh in a 85.
Not the sinking of confidence when faced with doubt,
nor a kid escaping against curfew orders.
Not the changes of a lover’s feelings without warning,
nor changes of one with bipolar struggles.
It’s the spasm of the way things exist.
Distracted even for a second, as
everything gallops into history you can’t recuperate.
Close the curtains of your sight,
and be amazed at the speed of the sun.
From the beginning, time a long stream,
forever a gravitational pull,
for those who wrestle to keep up with it still,
while abundant of others who have finished their race.
It’s always the same orbit.
With the impossibility of changing choices,
welcoming this new year,
In something so metaphysically tangible,
yet so unaltered.
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 12:21 AM UTC
A smoke filled bedroom;
Pills on the side table.
His hands of ice.
Sliding down his pale skin.
Deep breaths.
He shudders.
His eyes once so blue,
They’ve turned to stone.
Deep breaths.
He panics.
The sadness inside him,
Overwhelmingly calm.
It creeps over his shoulder,
Flowing through his veins.
It washes over him now.
Deep breaths.
He exhales.
Silence.
It’s over now.
- kmh
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 2:54 PM UTC
Here’s to what if.
What if everything that happened between us was meant to be?
What if we could start over?
Would you be willing to meet again?
Or would you just stay in your ways and move on with life,
never questioning?
Maybe we weren’t meant to be together then,
but we’re older now and things, they change.
So have we? My feelings for you haven’t.
I still love you.
Do you love me?
- kmh
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 2:41 PM UTC
You're like gravity,
dragging me down to this hell we call heartbreak.
I'm crashing into the depths.
And the shadows call your name.
The demons within us,
they shatter in between,
leaving shards behind.
This pit is never-ending.
You used to be my light,
a lantern to lead the way.
Now I sit here all alone,
the space around me dark.
The air like the winter,
cold and heartless.
You left this hell.
Now I'm just hanging.
I know you're fighting your own demons,
but I know your hell is bright.
You have lanterns hung along the walls.
But I lost my only light.
I'll just sit here in the dark,
Waiting for it to come back on,
but I lost it.
I lost you.
- kmh
Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 3:15 PM UTC
I can’t be with someone that is glued to the past and so full of nostalgia.
I just can’t do it.
I can’t wait around for you to get to the present day.
Oh boy you’re stuck in time.
Who knows how long it will take for you to come to your senses?
I won’t wait around for someone like you.
I refuse to be dragged back in time,
for that will only hurt me more.
So I have to let you go.
Let you fall back so far behind.
- kmh
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 1:22 AM UTC
I am overthinking.
I am always sinking,
into this abyss,
slowly, like a kiss.
Some days I am down.
Others I feel like a clown.
I just want to be free,
free of this anxiety.
I am not happy,
nor am I sad.
I'm full of panic,
not so manic.
I'm losing my sanity.
Held down only by gravity.
I just want to be free,
free of this anxiety.
- kmh
Jul 10, 2016
Jul 10, 2016 at 11:47 PM UTC