"intensions" poems
Look at her elegance
She draws you close
And with one simple smile
you have lost all hope
She had other intensions
When she let you in
The angel who once
Loved you
Cried tears of blood
You poisoned her
You made her dark
All because of the
Weakness of your mind
And heart.
Sep 23, 2013
Sep 23, 2013 at 10:27 AM UTC
To me Zeyda means a strong man
A man who can admit his mistake, but does not dwell in regret
To me Zeyda means a loving man
A man who will tell you how amazing you are and that he will be there for you no matter what
To me Zeyda means a caring man
A man who will put his well being after his family’s and because of this has a family who makes sure he is well
To me Zeyda means an honest man
A man who always has the best intensions for his friends and his family
To me Zeyda means a knowledgable man
A man who has seen many things yet is still able to admit his ignorance and at 80 still is willing to learn, grow and change
All these things and more are what a Zeyda means to me
But Zeyda, you are more than a Zeyda
You are a father, a brother, a husband, and a friend
You are someone who loves so many people unconditionally
And as much as you cherish all of us we cherish you as much
I am so grateful for so many things, But being able to call myself your grandson is one of the best things of all!
Jun 7, 2013
Jun 7, 2013 at 11:16 AM UTC
sitting here in the cusp
of a greedy world
where each seeks something
only for own good,
i would rather have
a bouquet of goodies for
me and my folks
particularly as the new year begins,
i look back at the cosmic awareness
of knowledge seeking
ancient brahmins,
and get amazed at
the altruist spirit and
sense of renunciation, they
made a common daily practice,
that rang loud in chants
during elaborate rituals
of fire sacrifice
in ancient times.
one by one, putting an enormous collection of
offerings ; butter,variety
of sacred wood, flowers,herbs and grains
in to flames, with the accompaniment of
chants of benediction and good thoughts,
in unison, each one asserted in chaste Sanskrit:
"This is not for me"
"idem na mama"
with each offering.
the Gods could have any reason,
not to accept those offerings,
given away with purest of intensions,
that changed the ionic configuration
of the atmosphere, more beneficial to humans
by changing air, land and water, pure
and full of life force.
Jan 1, 2012
Jan 1, 2012 at 1:03 PM UTC
Stuck in a trance
Unable to see
Waltzing with the angel
Mixing in her darkness.
Questioning your every remark
As well as insanity
Run into the valley
Let the shadow of death consume me.
Delicious misery
Has consent to do no good
Dependent on them
Any who come along.
Spawn of the devil
Argument with innocence
Bitter sweet intensions
In this game called love.
Sep 7, 2013
Sep 7, 2013 at 9:39 PM UTC
How standard and usual
A pathetic attraction
Oblivious of two
Ignominious lovers
I crave diligence
While ignorant to the thoughts
and intensions of his mind
Save me, Lord, from destruction
just this once,
For his heart can match perfectly with mine
How typical and useless
rejecting our relations
despite wanting his effort
to love me, dearly
I crave remembrance
ignorant to the thoughts
and intentions of his mind
Save me, Jesus, from repulsion
just this once,
For my feelings I can no longer hide
How standard and usual
A pathetic attraction
oblivious of two
Ignominious lovers;
blind in the love shared
for each other
Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 6:37 PM UTC
Stuck in a trance
Unable to see
Waltzing with the angel
Mixing in her darkness.
Questioning your every remark
As well as insanity
Run into the valley
Let the shadow of death consume me.
Delicious misery
Has consent to do no good
Dependent on them
Any who come along.
Spawn of the devil
Argument with innocence
Bitter sweet intensions
In this game called love.
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 12:27 AM UTC
White Buffalo
So intense,
she is,
with her visions of saving the world,
she is,
a White Buffalo…
so when she expresses her lofty aspirations,
and she regrets her past oppressions,
she tells me that when she tells them,
her visions of saving the world,
they tell her she can’t fulfill them,
I tell her she can,
I tell her she can do anything she wishes,
because there is a significant difference,
between possibilities and probabilities,
and just because something is improbable it is not impossible,
honestly if she has visions to save the world,
she should pursue such honorable pursuits,
honestly,
don’t ever let anyone,
tell you you can’t do anything,
give no energy to the lethargic cynics,
don’t let other people’s broken dreams,
fracture the magical dreams you have,
you are,
a White Buffalo,
you are,
a medicine women,
you represent,
divine feminine energy,
you are a healer,
you with all your attributes,
are in a prefect position,
to overcome all oppressions,
please help,
help heal this planet,
help heal humanity,
from all the harm that Man has caused,
we need the healing power of Woman,
Man,
has done so much damage,
but not too much damage,
to not be able to reverse this curse,
let her heal this humanity that hurts,
holy Goddess,
hold me honest,
rest me upon your *****
this world’s in trouble,
let’s make love platonic,
let’s create what they said we couldn’t,
wouldn’t,
it be great,
if we could,
take down the wooden stake,
that’s been used to crucify our Lord,
Lord,
this is,
all getting,
too intense,
to be ignored,
we need,
a woman leader,
because woman is the true healer,
and every man should bow before her,
I am ready to surrender my ego for sure,
no cure,
can come from the poison,
masculinity,
has been too intrusive,
with it’s ways that’ve been forced in,
without consent,
He’s impregnated hatred in this matrix,
created the meanest fetus,
then made her birth it no abortion,
consent,
is not meant to mean yes when it’s said through coercion,
stop ****** the world,
consent is not meant to mean yes when it’s said through coercion,
intensions,
bent,
we all want to find Hope,
we’re just not sure where Hope went,
this is all so incredibly intense,
So intense,
she is,
with her visions of saving the world,
she is,
a White Buffalo…
∆ Aaron LA Lux ∆
from '777' available worldwide
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1548700746
Jul 17, 2017
Jul 17, 2017 at 7:59 PM UTC
I wish you could see through me
So you know my intensions with you
I wish you could read my mind
The less I have to verbalize the less you question what is true
I wish you would let your guard down
Allow your heart to be free
I wish you would stop combating
What is undeniably meant to be
I wish the words I articulate
Could teach the morals I value
I wish you were open to understand
Not everyone is out to hurt you
I wish the past hadn’t happened
But if that were so, would you still be you?
I wish you could understand what true love is
Detach the vines you allow to trap you
I wish you could find yourself
Without losing parts of you
I wish I could tell you it is easy
Without having that be a lie to you
I wish my unsaid wishes would someday come true, but they won’t.
Decision set in stone, No one ever again shall become close to you.
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 5:56 PM UTC
Every word,
And evey smile,
Laughing and joy,
Let's stay for a while.
Sharing secrets.
And from the start.
You had a piece of me,
A piece of my heart.
I was there for you.
A shoulder to cry on.
"Through thick and thin,"
An unbreakable bond.
But you forgot,
What we had.
For someone else,
it makes me sad.
He means more to you.
A change of perception.
I dont want to hurt you.
Im now competition.
But
i dont want to compete.
But
You don't need to me to feel complete.
I thought you did,
But now I realize,
Your true intensions.
So was it all lies?
Was that "bond"
Really there?
All my pain and suffering,
You didn't care?
You
You tell me your selfish.
But I say your more.
And you still tear me down,
Until i hit the floor.
You cant breathe,
If he loves anybody.
And you cant bare,
If that person is me.
I just want,
My friend back.
When did,
Your heart turn black?
Mine never did,
And it never will.
I just want everyone happy,
But you can't swollow that pill.
I won't allow,
You to ruin.
All we have.
We don't have to end.
You don't benefit,
From seeing me smile.
But i want whats best for you,
Please stay a while.
A friendship and a relationship.
Are completely separate.
How could just drop everything,
Like you don't give a ****
I listened you.
I respected you,
I supported you,
I loved you as my own.
I held you at your weakest point,
When you trashed my throne.
And what do I receive?
What do I get in return?
A guilt trip,
And a lesson learned.
I don't want to accept,
Your insensitivity.
So just know,
No matter what.
I will purely love you,
From forever to infinity.
Mar 16, 2014
Mar 16, 2014 at 8:26 PM UTC
I get tempted to call but she wants nothing to do with me
Id like to hear the siund of her voice
I fell in love now she dont want to friends
I was good and things came to an end
My intensions wete good
Now im left feeling like im no good
I dont want just anyone
Getting my life together so I can be someone
It just ***** how you love someone who is great
Settle for less aim low but thats on her
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 11:01 AM UTC
Your eyes look into mine
Graze at me one more time
Your hands begin to twitch
As you feel the nervous itch
Your legs begin to move
Opening to the moon
Now my eyes start to wander
Intensions no surprise
holding back, binding time
from docile to volatile
Walk on the water for a while
I'll show you the way
The way everythings the same
My eyes examine you
you examine me too
lets us stop this dance
let us do what we long to do
connect my energy to you
I'm here inside you
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 4:49 AM UTC
You sublimely lied to me
and then you lied some more.
You said you were not ready
as if you were before.
You took my warm intensions
and made them your soft bed.
You made your own inventions
proclaiming them instead.
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 10:23 AM UTC
Drinking till I pass out.
Mind spinning.
Blurred vision.
****** intensions growing.
Craving another shot.
Wanting another kiss.
Heart slowing down.
Feeling free.
The beat of the music,
pounding in my chest.
My feet moving to the tune.
My *** shaking to the rapping.
Drinking till my life is just a meaningless leaf,
falling from a tree.
One shot, two beers, three more anything.
Yum yum.
Let it hit me till I fall.
Nov 18, 2013
Nov 18, 2013 at 9:45 PM UTC
It's hard to be sure when you're so certainly uncertain.
You are my heart.
I am an afterthought.
I kid myself again.
It'll hurt,
but at least I have good intensions?
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 11:38 PM UTC
I went out and all I can do is think of her
Talked to a good friend she told me dont worry love with find you stop looking
I got lost in her eyes and lips told her who I use to be. I get tempted to fall into bad habits but I cant and wont go back. We shared our experiences I had more to say because im older. Im thankful she listened and didnt see me differently.
I didnt fo anything wrong I had nothing but good intensions. Ive been good not sure how to explore the world of relationships it just hurts me and I hurt girls unintentionally.
I miss my old life but know im meant to change be and do better not sure what though.
Im one who is constantly thinking of all the possibilities. I need a job I enjoy I dislike ppl that make my **** job worse then it already is.
Jan 4, 2014
Jan 4, 2014 at 5:28 AM UTC
when I walk down the road
what is it others see.
Are their smiles complimentary
or are they laughing at me.
I have done much to warrant this,
caused bad thoughts to flourish.
So now I plant good intensions
and hope these new seeds will nourish.
May they grow like a blossom,
these seeds in their mind
and just to show that i've changed
I shall be extra kind.
I shall show them the hatred
that once surged through me
is now no longer flowing
and if they can but see
they will notice a change.
See the old ways have gone.
They can witness first hand
the bad deeds are all done.
I think it will be hard
because I've made many cry
but with a new look on life
I'm determined to try.
Perhaps within time
others might come to feel
that this is the new me.
This change is the real deal.
But wether or not
that they ever forgave
I will show to myself
and take good to my grave.
I hope when they look
in the future at me
a more prettier picture
is something they might see.
That they may, in the long run
let there hatred depart,
allow some small piece of me
to get into their heart.
I hope that they will see
good intent from this guy.
do not see me as evil
but as he who did try.
That is high on my wish list
of how this story ends
but til then I'll continue
to make my amends.
But as I contemplate
what it was that they shun,
I'll try so hard to copy
what many others have done.
By making a change
of themselves for the good
they became better people
but don't be misunderstood.
It can be just as hard
to turn you'r life about
as it is for the good-guys
who wrestle with doubt
and the reason is this
it can be so hard to live
when it's easier to hate
than it is - to forgive.
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 3:29 PM UTC
I wish I could find it amusing to see
How an unevil man is rendered demon
By the cloaking of his good intensions
By female addiction to victimization.
I hold out my broken heart.
You scream at the sight of blood,
Squeeling: *"Murderer! I can see your red
Hands from here! Holding some poor
Thing's
Heart."*
Aug 11, 2014
Aug 11, 2014 at 6:23 PM UTC
I admire you with such passion
But I struggle with my expression
I will revolt you
Frightened I struggle with words
I've disguised my love in some reverse Trojan horse
With intensions so pure
But delivery so weak and misconstrued
Yet there are times that I woe you
With my elegant declarations of love
I expose my well guarded inner thoughts
To you in plain sight
And instead of mocking them
You cherish them and feel my true passion
Sep 1, 2012
Sep 1, 2012 at 10:42 PM UTC
he got some bad blood
running up his veins
he got some wolf teeth
tearing up that lace like that
he got some soft lips
kissing the mayors no good ***** rotten rich teenage daugther, with her red lips and her bad intensions
he got himself a real nice face
smiling like that, getting 20 percent off addi mays special pancakes with pork bacon and scarmbled eggs drizzled with her top-secret mable syrup
*the boy got himself some bad blood, wolf teeth, soft lip and a real nice ******* face*
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 1:43 AM UTC
I wish I was 18
It'll be officially legal to **** myself slowly, thank God for cigarettes
I am the bad thought that does your son good
I am the regret that does your daughter good
We feel right, doing what pleases
It doesnt look like we can lose
Our intensions will never lose
And I'll probably go hell... bauptized
I just finished showering, but my soul is as ***** as a **********
As ***** as your girlfriend, as ***** as your mom
It's 10:23 pm, and I'm confused between a poem I cant write and a poem I'm writing
I dont know where I'll end up
I don't know much
Much of anything
Anything of nothing
I don't know nothing
The only thing I know is that I'll do good to worms when I'm beneath the ground and they're hungry
Jan 13, 2014
Jan 13, 2014 at 11:27 PM UTC
I can no longer breathe without the regrets of pushing you away....
my eyes cloud up as my mind reveals our finest memories,
the little time that I had you to call mine.
I failed to inform you as much as I sought out to..
that you are the very thing that keeps me striving to move forward.
you are the very blood in my veins keeping me alive and breathing....
but I could not tell you this.
I could not let you know the things that I held inside,
in fear of rejection.
in fear that the words I longed to speak would push you further than the actions
I had revealed to be me....
I gave you my breath,
and you let it go....
but I forgive you for it all, for you had no intensions of hurting me..
did you?
Jun 3, 2013
Jun 3, 2013 at 3:53 PM UTC
I can no longer breathe without the regrets of pushing you away....
my eyes cloud up as my mind reveals our finest memories,
the little time that I had you to call mine.
I failed to inform you as much as I sought out to..
that you are the very thing that keeps me striving to move forward.
you are the very blood in my veins keeping me alive and breathing....
but I could not tell you this.
I could not let you know the things that I held inside,
in fear of rejection.
in fear that the words I longed to speak would push you further than the actions
I had revealed to be me....
I gave you my breath,
and you let it go....
but I forgive you for it all, for you had no intensions of hurting me..
did you?
Jun 3, 2013
Jun 3, 2013 at 3:53 PM UTC
HER LIPS SPOKE OF
WISDOME FED BY SCIENCE BOOKS
AND HISTORY TEXT AND
PHILOSOPHY OF ASSUMPTIONS
CARRYING A STRICKING EYE
FOR STUDENTS THAT
WON'T SIT STILL
SHE CLAIMS SHE LIKE'S IT QUIET
DURING FREE TIME OF READING
BUT I'M STARING DOWN
AT TEEN MAGAZINS
CAUSE MICHAEL JACKSON
MAKES ME SHREEK IN MY SEAT
AND I SAY NOTHING NOR
READ NOTHING BUT
STARE
ADMIRINGLY AT HIS
PUZZLING FEATURES
THEN HER VOICE RISES OVER
MY HEAD LIKE FLYING BULLETS
MISSING MY BRAIN AND EYE SOCKETS
BUT SHE PLUNGED INTO MY EARS
LIKE THUNDER BULT AND LIGHTNING
AND MY SEAT WENT HOT
WHEN SHE STARED DOWN AT ME
HER WORDS CUDDLED UP
AGAINTS MY IGNORANCE
AS I FIGHT OFF THE BALANCE
SHE NEVER
OBTAINED TO
MAINTAINE
MY ATTENTION
ONLY FEAR
MY HEART POUNDING
!!!STARTLED!!!
AT HER
RATTLE SNAKE INTENSIONS
AND HER VENOMOUSE WORDS
FELL UPON MY
LOW IQ
SHAMED AT MY ABILITY
TO LEARN EVER SO SMALL
AND SHE COULDN'T MANAGE
TO STAND UP AGAINTS
MY DIFFICULT APPLE
BITTEN BY SO MANY
BITTEN AT THE BIRTH
AND EATEN BY THE BEAST
OF STUDENTS WHO
STAND EGO HIGH AGAINTS ME
TURNING HEADS AT ME
WITH A GLARE IN THEIR EYE
THAT ONLY HORROR MOVIES COULD DEPICT
SHE DECIDED TO
FAVOR
THE WIDTH
THE DISTANCE
AND
THE RISK
OF HAVING ME
HER STUDENT... AT ALL...
AND TELLS ME
"YOU WILL NEVER WIN,
BUT I WILL"
??????????
WHY MRS. ANDERSON...
WHAT EVER DID YOU MEAN BY THAT
23 YRS AGO I WANNA KNOW????????
BUT I COULDN'T CONCENTRATE
OR PAY YOU THE FAME
BECAUSE YOU STAND UP THERE
LIKE SOME PRESIDENT OFFERING
NO LESS THAN A TOOL
I CAN'T GET TO A HIGHER LEVEL
LIKE THE OTHER KIDS
FEELING LIKE A ROBOT
STANDING IN LINE TO EAT
STANDING IN LINE TO PLAY
RAISE MY HAND LIKE A CONVICT
TO GO TO THE BATHROOM
AS IF THIS WERE THE MALICHA OR
A **** OR NOZI OR HOW EVER YOU SPELL
THE **** NAME
CAUSE IT AIN'T ENGLISH
YOUR RING TONE PHONIC VOICE
RINGS IN MY EAR TO THIS DAY
AND YOUR PIERCING DULL BLUE EYES
IS ALL I NEVER WANT MY CHILD
TO HAVE AFTER ME
A TEACHER WHO THINKS
SHE IS THERE JUST TO BEAT DOWN
A CHILD
IN THIER MINDS.
© S.T. Rebel of Eden
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 11:12 PM UTC
Open your heart to me,
And you will see all
The wonders that can be,
Shed some light
On your scolded heart,
And you will conquer the fear
That hides in your soul,
To escape the prison walls
That turn you inside out.
Open your heart to me,
And your soul will never
Lose its love for life,
To be enlightened by
The suns epic rays,
Dancing in the wilderness,
With the courage that embraces
Your true colors,
To capture all of life's bad intensions,
And embrace all that you can be.
Open your heart to me,
And you will understand
What it truly means to be loved,
To be accepted in a dying society
Filled with hatred and agony,
For my heart will never stop
Beating for you,
For it is wide open,
Waiting for you to break out,
To take our love for
What it is.
Oct 25, 2013
Oct 25, 2013 at 7:54 PM UTC
The feeling
underwater
embodies you
A feeling
of time
almost appearing
non existent
Hands motion
slow,
graceful
Sunlight
beats down,
touches your
bare skin
The sun,
deceitful
Wants you
All of you
stay,
stay.
Just a little bit longer..
Down,
A silky temperature;
euphoric.
You love it here.
Your weight
A simple balance;
above
But down,
Go down,
But up,
You're up.
The air in your lungs
competes to keep you up.
An unwelcoming gasp
of O2.
You don't want it.
You don't want it.
The desire
No,
The need
for more attention.
Remember the water
will kiss
that pretty face.
You're back!
Welcome,
Welcome!
This time
with rocks?
They can come too!
Oh yes, Company!
But,
It's been too long
Down here
and you have changed
The rocks
did this to you.
You no longer allow
the water
to comb
your gleaming
shimmering
hair
That skin
is no longer sun kissed
A shadow
above
your still body.
Your hands,
lost
their playful
intentions
We miss that.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 8:31 PM UTC