Deep as the ocean
Controlled by emotion
Forgetting about devotion
Choosed to live in an illusion

You know it can't be kept forever
But you still choosed to hide it
You're not a good pretender
Someday , you'll feel guilt

He was dancing between forces of light and darkness.
His eyes celebrated journey of sun in the sky
looking in it for ancient knowledge
invoking light and fire of all stars
praying to divine source of goodness
pretending to be white lunar light.
He told me' You must be light to give light,
fire to give fire in this dark world.
All living matter belongs to light.
All living matter is thought of God.'
I needed him as I need breath to live and die,
as astrology influence of stars and planets
as east west to embrace direction
as plants cosmic rays to exist
as body cells Infinite Intelligence to guide
as child womb to grow .
I guess he has good heart underneath
worthy miracles come to him
even if he appears to me like black moon
hungry for light to experience pure moments.
He called me Venus, Isthar.
I called him hidden mystery of universe.
We both spoke soul to soul
with codex of love
and sacredness of spirits.
I was Divine Godess filled
with smell of white roses
illuminating his mind.
When night came
he loved me with power of Gods
embracing my crown between stars.
Showing me constellations and moon
he became almighty Creator
giving brigtness of all of cosmic creation to me.
My mother told me
'Choose your man wisely.'
But what is wisely
doesn't come from heart.
He was first man
who didn't break my heart
and shattered my dreams.
I choosed him following my heart
and voice residing between my heart,
fate and God's inspirations.
When he looked in my eyes he told me
'Vision of God is clear to me.
Loving you I am one with His light.
You gave me eyes of God.
I am godlike, goddess like
I am His wings of Love above all
Existing only for you and our love.
I am prayer of your heart.'
Angels created intimacy and ecstasy
between our bodies and worlds.
Sacrifice, sweetness was my gift to him.
'Guiding lantern of my heart' he called me.
Holding his head in my arms close to chest
I was morning and evening star glorifying law of love .
He was guardian Angel of my day and nights
rebirth of my soul to escape death
music and poems of my longings
force of attraction between our hearts.
It was romance of souls and minds,
body to body, spirit to spirit
intimacy of clouds carrying our hearts
close to Mars,
closeness of bodies, kiss of breaths
unity of flames, memory of Eden.
My mother told me 'Choose your man wisely.'
All I know heart is wiser than mind.
Listen your inner voice
blood, veins and cells
God's whispers of intuition
and you will find the one.
This love is return to Source,
fullfilment of human emptiness
not caring for pride, humanity.
It's nakedness of souls
celebrating acts of closeness
not looking for any other lover
not knowing beginning and end
of falling in love and being in love.
'Let his fires and silence burn you.'
pure passion whispered.
I choosed wisely.
Soul to soul.
Heart to heart.
Fire to fire.
God making two one.

Tension clouds suffocate... he who waits...anticapates...complication...Of atmospheric pressure...Pushed down around ones thought...process of elimination...what shall be removed...what release will be choosed...Liquid, soild, gas...condensed behind the mask...Steam, Clouds, Rain...Suffed behind the Pain...Suffocation...breath.after.breath.after.breath.after....Cl­utter...Breathe, Stop , and Release....The tension Clouds that are around...Hope.Pray.believe. yes it takes all three..to breathe.Deep....Deeper.......Deeper..........Release....

when i first saw you i new u were  the truth i choosed .
So thanks for doing all that u do to make everything  true.
When  i couldn't  move i knew that u were the men at the moon.

Waiting on me in a room,  telling  u that i couldnt be fooled .

But baby i knew that you  did so much you can do .
To prove  that you love me to .

i love ❤ huby husband fiance

I'm a relic of the past..
Something that time should of wiped away while passing through, and yet choosed to drop here. A place where i don't belong.

I was never meant for this world. A place where concepts such as compassion, sympathy or love have almost become exctinct from the people's minds a long time ago.

I should of have been born when wars where fought hand to hand. Clothes where made only by silk.
And wise men were tutoring right before your own eyes.

Purpose is what gives me hope. Helps me breath at nights.
Dreaming is my escape from this misery. Making me feel whole when everything else feels hollow. Guilt is my motivation when there's nothing more to fight for. Pushing me to fix everything again.

And sorrow is my only companion. Never to leave my side. And what a strange companion it is. She has no tongue or language to use, yet constantly whispers in my ear. Often using my own voice.
No arms. Yet i feel her grip all around my chest, sometimes even within my soul. Strong as ever. She screams when i'm asleep. And whispers when i'm awake.

She's my one and true friend. Never to leave my side until this journey ends. And time himself takes pity on me..

I gave up and I choosed to be blind.
I covered my eyes and I left everything shine through.

Without awareness.
Without faith.

I fell in love
with a ghost/witch/mermaid
The prettiest girl in the world
In any century
Atlantic City
Nineteen Eighty-five
  
I'm not sure who to point
or blame for the how or what
that led to change
the level of my dimension
Don't know why
  
But if I ever get to her again
and if it doesn't lead to sin
Not sure if I'd grab
the bargain or the Bible
  
I gave her just one kiss
to dare and tried my best
to not to stare
at all her hard shell/hard sell
Custom Homemade Ocean Jewelry
  
Tried so hard to hide my fear
of dying could not take the cold
hard facts of life's blatant destiny
Desire hurt my soul
  
I had to come back here
Again just to see your face
I bet that someday we will
Finally be friends or so much
More than that I don't pretend
I warn you Sam my
One and only friend
  
And if you knew my sister sue
She stunk
The world then had her due
I may
Not never
Know what door she would have choosed
  
And if you stick around
choo-choo
You'll hear a song/can sing along
about some trains
that I pretend I knew
  
The turtle and the snail
They ride on tender ground
I miss you girl
I'm tying this old country
Song to you
  
I was way to young to
let my burning ash exist
Had much more yearning
to do learning
what was asked, I just forgot
Don't know if I have that
much more to counter
  
No lady
bug would ever sing
about my blues
I have no ring
to give I even lost my broken teeth
  
I lived a week
Four Million years
or somewhere in between that
Dear you can
not preposition end a sentence  
  
And if you know that I'm a tease
won't be surprised
But I won't leave you
Hang around
I'm sure there's plenty more
  
Well look at that I'm tired flat
I wrote two pages how 'bout that
I guess it makes no sense to further carry
On again I could just turn
  
the page
hey now, see that
I got more space to write
more facts about my life
and why I am so crazy
  
Her fins they flapped I followed
Her a million laps
from old man-
hattan lower end
I mixed it up my friend
No really
Hope there is no more confusion
  
I don't no life
I just exist
I tell no lie
I swear sweet miss
So don't you try
to get me into trouble
  
The turtle and the snail
will ride the earth once more
go where you go
I've been there
So I'm ducking in again
  
I think I'll have a beer
This ends I'm sure
it's not one of my gems
But what more do I need to say or do
Then sit here and songwrite again
or write haikus that never end
on this lazy Sunday afternoon
  
The turtle and the snail
will ride the earth once more
After we're gone
They'll still be here
Go bang a gong
They're two slow pokes
One's soft
One's hard
You figure out which
One's made just for you
  
An oyster clam or
Lady bug would get eat up or  
Just get stuck
No more eating that much
Pasta without salad
  
And now it's time to
Get on board
Hey you Choo-Choo
Four-Fifty-Four
I'm gettin' out of here
Hear what I promised
  
I don't know but I've been told
The Redding Railroad dropped its load
Go take the B&O; to someplace new
'Cause California outgrew you
With double headed 2-82s
Canadian Pacific calling you
No B&M;?
Rutland will do
with RS3 and 2-8-2
to Lake Champlain the 201 with you
  
Delaware & Hudson call
'ol Henry Stewart
from Whitehall
he's steering Alcors3; the engineer
But don't look here
'Cause I'm not there
That bobby fooled you/disappeared
and lookit
where'd they go?
that's all the words!

Horoscopes give us insight. & hope.
New ways to heal & cope.
Next in line, for second time.
Second best?
A place I detest.
Another casual conquest.
Never your first choice.
The wrong face & a different voice.
You choosed your choice.
Am I not the most beautiful?
You know I never do what I am told.
Am I too ugly, fat, & old?
I am what is left behind.
I gave you the space & time.
I am no where you will find.
Unstore all your hopes.
Work & don't be broke.
I am like gold & well defined.
I'm # 1.
My work here is done.

© Harmony Sapphire . All rights reserved,

In my jealous mind it was bound to happen
but with who?
you’ve could of chosen the one of the lustful types you oh so hate.
rather you choosed one i respect so much.

i ran home for the first time since high school
and returned to my bed and did nothing
the same nothing i did all day
i lay thinking
the same thinking i did all day
of you
now its no different if not worst

im so ******* dumb
Should of listened to Hunter
Geez how many times have i said that out loud?

i’m at fault for caring
i’m at fault for thinking you did to

back to the blue sun, back to being alone, back to feeling sad.

Ohh God ,,my god,,
why u cruel ,why you so angry upon me
back my power oh dear god ,back my power oh dear god,,
all session are emptiness,without my rain power,,,

without a one droop water,Birds as without wings flying over the sky,,
animals feel pain without water,worlds empty without rain,,,
back to power god ,back to my power God,,
ohh Almighty God ,,,
God say,,,dear cloud,,,
u do not have to worry my child about emptyness,when u had that power what you do?
you do unxpected things ,having proud,prejudice nd lazyness ,,
why u thinking about it,,have to keep it ,,truth..
purity nd chestity is above to all..
cloud  answed ,,knowing wrong way choosed i had,,
not soon know about falut of mine , but soon i get realized about flult,,
apolizise my wrong path,give me pardan,my Almighty god ,,i come on my keck,,,
once let me right to proof..
ohh god,,,,,,,,, my dear god,,,,

nd God said,,,God thinks deeply nd had final decision,,
nd give to back power of cloud,,,,said just be pure nd faire
nd let'the hold ur setuation on ur solder,,becomes preety answer get you in ur way
just put it hold ur dignity along  with innocecence,,,dear my watery cloud proofd that thou might be fair,,
power is power,nd make to right it....

....
nd then finaly cloud get their power from The Almighty God,,,
nd bottom of the line is we dont have right to done anything about nature becouse lots of things are influenced by this wrong way...
which wehave to missused to though having so called FUN..........
,,,,

Moonshine stars align
Two ropes choosed to intertwine

Something happening something divine

when the clock hits nine
It is time for our valantine
I am getting ready for the dine
I  order your favourite dish
And for me some wine.

Something happening something divine

While we are waiting let me tell you the story of theboy who thought he will never be fine
Who could set all the day doing nothing but to whine
who always has looked for his anodyne
Who didn't know you will be the plot twist of his storyline.

You wonder what we are?
Pittiless wave and shoreline
Red petals and carmine
Something happening something divine.

(Chorus)
In the love, i was on the 7th sky,
In my own world, but i never try
To listen you,
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true,
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words
Life be different, we still be together
If i could ever understand her
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words

(1st verse)
Midnight in the snowy winter
I was about to make a joint filter
Her call was in my brain, when no one in the shelter
A swain guy, a one side lover but deep somewhere
mind refusing him, heart tackling to answer
Losted in her thoughts and ensnared...
I wish i could listen you when you were there
Halfway through the session my mind started wander
Her voice was echoing in the ear, asking if i fear for being alone
Have you ever regret for the things you did wrong?
My heart is not ready yet to accept that you are gone
But somehow i managed to move on, sometime i missed you,
Sleepless night trying to figure out how will i forget,
You broked me babe, i dreamed about our duet
But you don't deserve it, i loved you with all my feelings were in the heart
But you divided it and shattered in two parts.

(Chorus)
In the love, i was on the 7th sky,
In my own world, but i never try
To listen you,
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true,
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words
Life be different, we still be together
If i could ever understand her
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words

(2nd verse)
What if i hurted you, were you able to forgive me?
I had a nightmare and bad dreaming
I wish i could hurt you back and break you bad
But my ethics don't allow me to do that
Tell me why you make me sad, you loved me, didn't i loved you back?
I had a wish that your are the one with whom i can spend 9month
Yeah, you heard it right, befor you broke me i was pregnant
You never asked me that, you never feel what i feel
Some serious injuries took time me to heal
I was not your business deal, that look for profit
Now you are alone and its not my fault
I choosed to be happy, i am being with it
Hope you listened me carefully now
How can a broked one have a trust again
I moved on dear, and the new life begined

(Chorus)
In the love, i was on the 7th sky,
In my own world, but i never try
To listen you,
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true,
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words
Life be different, we still be together
If i could ever understand her
I've been a deaf, forgot to be true
Now only regrets remain for not to heard
Her unspoken words

(hook)
are you faking smile on happy moments sometimes
But only known you are sad deep inside
Why do you always need a guide to provide
A knowledge about a life, can't you decide the way you gonna try
Why? Always depending on other guy?
I had those mistakes, and she said me bye
Don't you think i didnt try, you need always to be right
Be happy be with whatetver you have, or else to get everything you'll have to fight.

(3rd verse)
Then friends entered in shelter, and destracted,
Her words stucked in mind so Started thinking ahead
Since the day we parted, i feel like i'm discarted,
I'm not live and lively, but i'm alone and lonely
When i look at your pictures, they remind me your smooth texture
Sometime i feel loose in my body, babe, on the fantasies of your body
If you can hear me, come near to me sweetheart
Hold me with your palms, and feel my body parts
They all are numb without your lovable heart
I loved the thing that you made a new start,
I was still stucked but with a regretefull heart

We all play this game each day,
A game called 'life',
We take decisions like rolling a dice,
Unaware of what this dice of life would bestow us with,
Is it predetermined?? Fate they say or can the game be turned any moment!
I choosed Time!!
Time to pick,time to choose ,time to doze, time to run and time to fun,
I took a leap of faith,
taking my destiny in hand,
Challenging the almighty's plan!

you are a poet
because you could enjoy it
just like the bottle of wine you choosed eagerly

They say....
Man are trash...
They say...
We broke their hearts
They say...
We do not give them attention....

They say...
But never see their wrongs...
They say....
But they never loved us back as we did
They say...
But we are the one sacrificed alot broken hearts we carry...

They say...
But they never understand...
What damaged they did...
Silent we remained....
Label us with names...
When you didn't give me a chance to love you and you choosed him...

Silent i remained...
As they say
Man are all trash...

-kay🌹

Like a child I sat in a corner and played.
Intuitively did the things that I wanted so the ones around me had to be persuade.
Mindless as a stone I kept on going.
Perfectly playing the part of a fool without me knowing.

Brick by brick my body slowly crumbled.
In the eve of night my life suddenly stumbled.
Zoned in a derailed capacity and now with a limited motion.
Keeping only my mentality but unable to make a notion.
I started to realized my biggest mistake.
Talking to the wall and the ceiling now finally seeing the path that I choosed to take.

I am at this turn in my life where choices are important. The only thing I need to remind myself is to not settle for less than I deserve.

The day I choosed to just stop looking and keep stable all of you pop up in my life, it’s just a small Hello what’s up but for me it’s destiny telling me *** are you sure ?

Feeling like hercule when he has to pass all those obstacles and finished anyway to hurt himself.

Can just someone come and tell me what’s best ? That would scare most of people that would relax me with life I would follow : just tell me what’s best I will put my mind there and don’t ask for anything else but tell me or show me something !!!!

Stop sending my past show me the future

Please tell me why you got close....
Please tell me why i was who you choosed....
Please tell me why you kissed me that day....
Please tell me why you said you wont ever leave me that day....
Please tell me why what I'm scared of most is happening today....
Please tell me why my whole life was going to disappear today....
Please tell me why your hurting me today....
Please tell me why you dont try understanding me....
Please tell me why you said you wanted a family....
Please tell me why its all not a lie....
Please tell me why...

The clock-compass offering of King David to Sholmó myrrh-timely is golden as a frankly incense.

I'll open my mouth one last time
In deep sayings
of the "hidden manna",

I'll speak in
Incantations (sacred sayings)
as one Oriented
In Oath & spells
from roots & truth,
I'll reveal it all in sequence.

Sons of the soil;
the ****** shall give birth to a child,
mother nature is our ******.

These are the 3 form of Gods will:
The good, permissive & perfect.
(the tree of good  principles
& the only evil in it is disobedience,
The tree of perfect & true standard balance).

For the image of God is his "Character behaviour = True Morality"
&
the likeness of the Lord is his "perfect calculation = Literacy "
So understand when I say
I & the Father are one,

For when the Father said
"two shall become one" (Absolutely absorbed)
this is what he truly mean

You must be in a deep sleep
having your ribs punctured out
by observing thoroughly in your mind
a woman's Morality & Literacy
If she's truly matured.

For when God formed a woman
all he made is a literate who is morally matured free from distortion & contamination,
so anything less than this is
"woe unto man".

Remember it was never said he who marries finds a good thing,
But he who "discovers true marraige materials"  (a morally matured literate woman) finds a helper & obtain favour from principles & laws.

Therefore the flesh of a man's flesh
is a woman of the same soul attraction (so carefully check if your features truly Jibe).

  The bones of a man's bones
is a woman of the same conscious interest (so carefully cross-check if same things excite you both).

& To be taken out of man
is to share the same intention (observe carefully if you both share same view & Ideas of things).

Also recognise to be a "Man"
is to be fully matured;
Attaining your daily growth
of literacy & morality
until you achieve the balance
of your true standard of living (Eden),
Flowing in your perfect atmosphere
of stability,
growing in your true
level of quality development
for this is the promised land.

Marriage is the absorption in one anothers personality,
It is absolutely sacred
& not to be abnormally used
even for once.

So forget about pleasure
Seek for balance!
Let your beauty
comes from inward attributes
then you'll find comfort in everything you do,
For this is the true joy of living
& Man's complete duty.

I speak as the Son of Man
& Son of God

And people often say
" with God all things are possible",
but with God stupid things are not possible (imbalance & err),
For God himself is balanced by his literacy
& morality is his standard
he is not an author of confusion.

Truly everyone choosed their choice course
ahead of existence,
God never lay a curse (burden) on anyone
even the stars bears Him withness
that he has measured clear balance &
clean standard daily for everyone.

For when ever men are gathered in the gates of Christ (wisdom)
Him is presence and they are caught up in the air.

When ever men tarry in their inner room to be endue with literacy & morality they get caught up on high
to Him's presence at attain peace.

For the Creator so Love everything he has made that he finalize his government by judging the illitracy that causes every error & the Immorality that leads to every imbalance against the universe,

This is the ritual he made
sending his only begotten who fully acknowledged the perfect balance that Literacy brings & the true standard that morality yeilds.

He did this ritual not to measure sins punishment or condemn the universe
but to justify his Principles & Laws as smooth & flawless
& to exposes completely the foolishness & wickedness of sin
"that he himself has not added a grain of burden to the sons of men but they as sheep has often gone astray alone in search for many things".

Therefore know this
for the streets do not love you
But the universe do,
Ignore the outward noises
& Listen to what nature is always telling you.

Then you'll avoid being the poor fool
Who tries to gain the whole world
But never carters for his soul true needs.

Come now I'll show you how Inspiration formed Ideas;

The Conscious keeps his "Universe" (space) safe,
The Spiritual do not need approval of
"Chance"  (connection),
The Mystic explores beyond "Age" (experience),
The Supernatural is not bound by "Season" (luck),
The Sacred one is not hindered by "Distance" (location),
Glory rules over "Time" (appointment),
Grace rule over  "days" (growth),
Holiness is the highest "Class" (qualifications).

To be Sacred is to be always clear in reasoning & clean in Judgement,
To be Holy Obatàlà is to be righteous in thoughts & upright in conscience,
To be full of Grace is to become flawless
& smooth in outward & inward expression,
To be full of Glory is have perfect emotion
& Truthful spirit.

To possess Wisdom is to become a mystic who attain sacredness for the sake of balance,
To get understanding is to attain spirituality & all it's glory at all cost for the sake of true comfort,
To attain peace is to become first & foremost holy then you'll attract true supernatural beauty,
To love, one must be conscious & full of grace then he'll possess the eternal joy.

For the shrine is made for cleansing only & nothing more,
Do not seek for anything else in the temple aside your daily bread,
Be faithful with the garden it's herbs, vegetables, fruit & even flowers & trees will keep you in perfect health even the shade is beautiful at sunrise & comforting at dusk,
The only festival accepted in heaven is one which ceremony promotes literacy & morality for every other is futile.

Do not be mislead:
The one who can forgive can also punish think of how in the beginning he covered the world in thick darkness and made it formless again,

The one who bless also curse remember who formed the world from waters upon waters & restricted the waters this is how far you can go,

The one who approves also rebukes remember who gathered the wind in his palm & authored spiritual realm,

The one who heals also kills think of how he wrapped up the universe as a cloud in his cloak.
Remember "oh" remember.


Consider this before you become foolish & say there is no Lord, God, Father & King
& sin against our forefather Creator
who rule over us all.
For the son of man & son of God is only a product of their perfect Literacy & true morality & nothing else added..

I speak as the gift of Sheba and the perfume oil of Mary at my feet
Iyesus.

I look at the sky everyday
I feel as it feels,
I see its emotions
glance off on me

Its feelings flow
as in my heart
a ship which travels
to another land

To gather seeds
from the new grounds
colourful experiences
it's all that counts

Different colours
brings the wind
each of them
is so unique

Strange feeling
to feel the sky
the time I wake up
I sense its mind

So,
I look through my window everyday
to see how it's feeling today
and what colour it choosed
to paint my day

But even the darkest mornings
when the wind furiously blows
awakening depression thoughts
and the ship is so **** lost

I see the beauty lying
in these dark shades
because the harmony
still remains

A bittersweet symphony
that inevitably occurs
You know it happens
You know it'll come
so just enjoy it
as long as you can

See the beauty of this world
smile when you're feeling low
cause darkness made you
be that strong

There's so much beauty in this world
where bright colours have dark spots
that make them brighter even more.

Tears are treasures
Fears are fires
You choosed both of'em
Treasures burn in fire
The fear turn'em shier
I'm not a prominent liar
I board in the way to growth
To accept all the tears I throw
I tell the way
Please be fair
I'd be glad to share
What is rare
I couldn't bear
The sadness gotten from ma soul
I count on my goals
N the charecter I roll
I wonder in all
Promises I gave my own
They tremble my certain bone
I fed up with my phone
That's known
For shopping from amazon
Or is it a dead zone
Tries to get us involved
Impossibaly,tears can't solve
Never judge imressively
It dues to written aggressivly

Sometimes, somethings happen in your life,
and it just **s up everything.
You hit the rock bottom,
and feel like, you should die.

Something happened to me and it still haunts me.
The day of february seventeenth.

I put on my perfect black dress,
with my favourite red lipstick.
Loved myself more because I'd someone like him.
In the case of love,
he always seemed a perfectionist.

He arranged a beautiful date,
everything went well till he took me to room no. one hundred and sixteen.
We sat in that room,
and we got a little close,
and started feeling each other's body.
He threw me on the bed,
and it was all really romantic.

But then, I noticed lust in his actions,
and asked him to stop because it wasn't easy to adjust.
But guess who didn't listen to me for the first time ?
How could he not respect my decision ?
Overall, it was my body he was doing things to.

We were so deeply in love,
but when did he change to someone so rude ?
I was forced.
I tried to flee,
as I couldn't bear that pain.
The pain of losing love,
the pain of losing my virginity,
to who I thought, was right.

He was so irate that he left me laone,
I lied their wondering,
where did it all go wrong ?
I never saw him after that,
and I didn't even want to.

So, this was my worst night,
and it still gives me nightmares.
It feels like,
he's inside me.
His touch,
have poisoned me.
But then,
life changed and I decided not to abort you.
And choosed to give you a beautiful life.
You don't deserve to be punished for the mistakes your mother made,
at her young age.