It couldn't have been me.
See, the direction the spackle protrudes.
A noisy neighbor? An angry boyfriend? I'll never know. I wasn't home.
I peer inside for a clue.
No! I can't see. I reel, blind, like a film left out in the sun.
But it's too late. My retinas.
Already scorched with a permanent copy of the meaningless image.
It's just a little hole. It wasn't too bright.
It was too deep.
Stretching forever into everything.
A hole of infinite choices.
I realize now, that I wasn't looking in.
I was looking out.
And he, on the other side, was looking in.

For all you people that are against homosexuality.......
I'm just reminding you that we are......
.....**** sapiens
Not HOMOPHOBIC sapiens.

I'm basically jumping from panic attack to panic attack.
It's like playing 'The Floor Is Lava" but with my sanity.

Ok, I admit it,
You're the guy
All my love quotes
Are about.

You're the one
I'm thinking
Of right now.

Cause I just
Really love you.

I still love you.
I swear,
I always will.

They found my body
At the bottom
Of the deep blue sea
But my
Thoughts and emotions
Floated to the surface
And spelled,
'I am free'

Stop telling me
How beautiful I am.
And how cute
My dimples are.
Stop saying that I
Am such a funny girl.

Beautiful girls
Don't stand alone
At parties or
Spend everyday alone in the hallways.
Funny girls don't
Lock themselves away to cry.

I asked my crush, Ethan, to Planetary (GO!) out with me....
I wonder what he'll say....

I'm hungry, but I can't eat.
I'm tired, but I can't sleep.
I'm sad, but I can't cry.
I'm suicidal, but I can't die.

Sometimes when I'm upset,
I cut my own hair.

It reminds me that
Everything changes.
But everything grows back over time.

I can feel the tenderness of her skin through the knife, as if it were an extension of my sense of touch. My body nearly convulses. There's something incredibly faint, deep down, that screams to resist this uncontrollable pleasure. But I can already tell that I'm being pushed over the edge. I can't...I can't stop myself.

I just saw some idiot
Put a water bottle
In the pringles
Holder by the treadmill
In the gym.

I don't get how some mothers can say, "I don't care what the gender is as long as it's healthy, I will love them." Before going into labor for 8+ hours and then 17 years later kick their daughter Jessica out of the house because she was born a Justin.

I fall for chocolate
I fall for laughs
I fall for eyes
I fall for you.
Love me forever, Senpai.

I Don't Love You- Song by MCR
I Love You- Song by Billie Eilish

All the good girls go to heaven-Lyrics from the song This Is How I Disappear by MCR

All The Good Girls Go To Hell- Song by Billie Eilish

Do you ever read something you wrote when you were little and you just really wanna die a little because you were so cheesy?

Me at age 11: " I am a sea of feelings. I am an emocean."

It was you,
It was me,
It was the silence
Underneath the stars
That understood
My heartbeat
And it's racing.
You told me nothing.
I believed everything.
In that moment,
I found life.
In that moment,
I found you.

Can't run from it
Always a step behind
The worst is i'm trapped
In my own mind

The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if i'm okay
I'm tired of lying

My fake smile is getting heavy
Eyes can’t hold back
My mind has won
Done living in the black

Going through the motions
It’s almost time to quit
Most fear death
But I pray for it.

Your mind is so full of troubles and fears
That diminished your wonder over the years
But today I have a special place
A beach for us to go.

A shore reaching beyond your sight
A sea that sparkles with brilliant light
The walls in your mind will melt away
Before the sunny glow.

I'll be the beach that washes your worries away
I'll be the beach that you daydream about each day
I'll be the beach that makes your heart leap
In a way you thought had left you long ago.

Let's bury your heavy thoughts in a pile of sand
Bathe in sunbeams and hold my hand
Wash your insecurities in the salty sea
And let me see you shine.

Let's leave your memories in a footprint trail
Set you free in my windy sail
And remember the reasons you're wonderful
When you press your lips to mine.

I'll be the beach that washes your worries away
I'll be the beach that you daydream about each day
I'll be the beach that makes your heart leap
In a way you thought had left you long ago.

But if you let me by your side
Your own beach, your own escape
You'll learn to love yourself again.

My body may be a temple
But I am the goddess
To whom it is devoted.

Do not presume to tell me
How I should decorate my altar.

I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself

But I love him....

So I'll live.

I love you
Because it's been so good
For so long
That if I didn't love you,
I'd have to be born again
And that is not a theological statement.
I am pitiful in my love for you.

Imagine if men were more disgusted with **** as much as they are with periods.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Watch your back,
I'm coming for you...

It's sad
Knowing that
I love others
More than
I love myself.
I hate to see others
In pain.
But when it comes to me,
"I'M FINE!"

millennial generation got a little beaten down and miserable.
But i'm glad to see gen z frothing at the mouth and out for blood.

Roses are red
Violets are gay
MCR broke up
Im Not Okay
(I Promise)

Roses are red
The skies are all grey
It's been 8 years
And I'm STILL not okay.
(I promise)

I'm scared of all those voices
Inside my head.
They scream to hell.
They could bring me to death.
I can't let them win.
But i'm just so tired.
So tired of this life.
So tired to fight.
I just want to let go.
Close my eyes,
Take a deep breath,
And sink into unconsciousness.
After all,
Wasn't I born to die?

I took my pen
I drew you out
I got you wrong
I rubbed you out
I honed my craft
I tried again
I failed with mine
And then with men
And then with landscapes
Laced with trees
Where others seemed to draw with ease
My lines were sloppy
Colors weak
Your essence greyed
Left incomplete

Klaus: I've finally conquered my fear of ghosts.

Ben: That's the spirit!

Klaus: Oh **** where?!

Tonight I am sad
Tonight I am lonely
The demons are screaming
And i need you to hold me.

A long time after bedtime
When it's very late
When even dogs dream
And there's deep sleep
Breathing through the house

When the doors are locked
And the curtains drawn
And the shops are dark
And the last train's gone
And there's no more traffic in the street
Because everyone's asleep
Then....

The window cleaner comes
To the main shop fronts
And polishes the glass
In the street-lit dark

And a big truck rumbles past
On it's way to the dump
Loaded with the last
Of the day's trash

On the twentieth floor
Of the office tower
There's a lighted window
And high up there
Another night cleaner's
Vacuuming the floor
Working nights on her own
While her children sleep at home

And down in the dome of the observatory
The astronomer who's waited all day for the dark
Is watching the good black sky at last
For stars and moons
And spikes of light
Through her telescope
In the middle of the night
While everybody sleeps

At the bakery
The bakers in their floury clothes
Mix dough in machines
For tomorrow's loaves of bread

And out by the gate
Rows of parked vans sit
For their drivers to come
And take newly baked
Bread to the shops
For the time when the
Bread eaters wake

Across the town at the hospital
Where the nurses watch in the dim-lit wards
Someone very old shuts their eyes
And dies
Breathes their very last breath
On their very last night

Yet not very far away on another floor
After months of waiting
A new baby's born
And the mother and father
Hold the baby and smile
And the baby looks up
And the world's just begun
But still, everybody sleeps

Now through the silent station
Past the empty shops
And the office towers
Past the sleeping streets
And the hospital
A train with no windows
Goes rattling by

And inside the train the sorters sift
Urgent letters and packets on the late night shift
So tomorrow's mail will arrive in time
At the towns and villages down the line

And the mother
With the wakeful child in her arms
Walking up and down
And up and down
And up and down
The room
Hears the train as it passes by
And the cats in the yard
And the night owl's flight
And hums hushabye hushabye
We should sleep now
You and I
It's late and time to close your eyes

It's the middle of the night.

I don't pay attention to the
World ending.
It has ended for me many times
And began again in the morning.

I think I am
Going to **** myself.
Maybe not today,
Or next week,
Or even next year.
But I can feel it,
I will end my life on my own terms.

I think I might love you.
And I think it has killed me.

My breathing is shallow
The air is too thin.
The demons are screaming
I think they might win.

My vision is blurry
My heart rate is slow.
No therapy can help me,
I think i'm letting go.

Maybe it was your laugh,
Or your eyes,
Or your smile.
It could've been your hair,
Or your voice,
Or your personality.
Whatever it was,
It made me fall
Pretty **** hard.

The last song MCR sang together live before they broke up was Helena. So that means the last lyrics they sang together were,
"So long and goodnight.".   :(

It's okay to be white
It's okay to be black
It's okay to be Asian
It's okay to be Hispanic
It's okay to be female
It's okay to be male
It's okay to be gay
It's okay to be straight
It's okay to be YOU.

What's NOT okay is skipping a track on The Black Parade.

I feel empty
Yet so full
Of emotion

Like the smallest thing
Could push me
Over the edge

What do you do
When theres nothing
But pain
Left inside you

And what if everything
We were looking for
Only existed
In our
Dreams

How do you explain
Something
You don’t even understand
Yourself?

Call me a name,
**** me with words

Forget about me,
It’s what I deserve.

You broke my heart and made me cry.
You hurt me so much and I don't even know why.
I loved you more than I loved anyone else.
Now I have no idea how to get out of this mess.
Please come back to me and don't let go.
I promise to work harder this time and it will show.
I will do all it takes to make you happy and see your smile.
I will get you back, even if I have to go to exile.

I wish everyone would stop bugging me.
I wish everyone would stop blaming me.
I wish everyone would stop hurting me.
I wish everyone would stop breaking me.
I wish everyone would stop yelling at me.
I wish everyone would stop pushing me.
I wish everyone would stop hating me.

I WISH EVERYONE WOULD JUST STOP IT!!!!

I wish that I had never met you....
Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you
No need for still loving you.

No need for crying over you
No need for heartbreak.

No need for pain or tears
No need for unkept promises.

No need for rejected hugs
No need for crying myself to sleep.

No need for acting like you care
No need for everything you did to make me feel like  absolutely nothing.

I wonder what goes
Through your mind
When someone
Mentions my
Name to you.

" I won't ever leave you."
Is the best lie
I have ever heard.

She was beautiful, but not like those girls
In the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she
Thought.  She was beautiful for that sparkle in her eyes
When she talked about something she loved.
She was beautiful for her ability to make other
People smile even if she was sad. No, she wasn't
Beautiful for something as temporary as her looks.
She was beautiful, deep down to her soul.

Close your eyes
While you aren't dead
Rest your mind
And go to bed
You still have
your eyelids intact
And your smile is real
Not brutally attacked
So, since Jeff is watching
Not a peep
Just be a good child,
And GO TO SLEEP

The marks hurt
But they could be worse
It's not too bad
They reminded me of life
Cruel, unneeded, and pointless
Death is a gift
Life, a curse
It's time for me to give you a treat...
GO TO SLEEP!

I'll use my knife
To end your life
Stay for a while
I'll make you smile
My face is hideous?
Ha! That's ridiculous!
You seem a little sleepy
Hey, Why are you weeping?
People wish I were dead
But I love to see red
Now not another peep
Lay down, you should...

GO TO SLEEP