Gift me a little of your time
for a meal under blue and green.
Gift me hours of your happiness
for a meal where flowers blossom.

On the devil's back
I will harvest death.
Even he is not as lifeless
as my existence.

Evil, fear and terror
are the new allies
that stand by my side.

God must cry.
Looking into my eyes
he will recognize himself
and burn the world to the ground.

staring at the clock
time stands still
heart beats in the head
blood rushes through the ear

Tick

a second passed
the air is stale
sweat on my temple

Tock

push the chair to the side
falling into Thanatos arms

Crack

time no longer matters

I was blinded, stunned,
by a thousand bright suns.

A star so young and charming
raised my spirit to never known highs.

But the sparkle only lasted moments
for my courage descended into night.

Like a withered leaf in a storm
I was pushed through life.
Powerless without a goal
my last will drowned in blood.
After years of suffering,
it finally was quiet.

Oh, beautiful nothing.
No more limitations.
Imagination becomes reality
death becomes life.

Now the dream can begin.
And I find myself in your arms
walking through rose gardens
swimming in a sea of passion.

You are my happiness and joy,
wisdom and meaning.

You took my hope
to find the right path.

You tormented me
denied me a look at life
to entertain Thanatos.

**** you and your gods
who feed on misery.

You took my life
even before I woke.

Among all this madness
there are those rare moments
which keep you going
in the hope for more.

I was born into light
from a warm and cozy womb.

Raised protected without a fight
in blissful ignorance of impending doom.

The separation made it fonder
and the blue had no bounds.

But I lost the ability to wonder
and life made no more sounds.

Now I am sinking into the abyss
towards
   cold
      dark
         water.

Cupid's arrow ripped
a  wound that left me bleeding,
till death showed his face.

Still warm from you, I shiver
because I see you
sleeping next to me
and crave back the night.

But Eos heralds
in her fairest gown
a new day that elevates
nightly passion to a dream.

Your breath is calm
and your ***** hardly moves
when I wake you with kisses
across your silken skin.

You smile for the gods
and I lower my gaze
to elude what robs my senses
but then your lips give life to mine.

Locked in embrace
you whisper fondly – “My Love”.

I thought
   I could change the world
   and leave a mark,
but I failed.

I thought
   I could excel at work
   and support a family,
but I failed.

I thought
   I could keep a healthy body
   and a lucid mind,
but I failed.

Now there’s nothing left
and for the first time I feel free.

I listen to what you have to say
         (ignoring every part of it)
And calmly nod agreement
         (while furiously screaming disapproval)

I show you my admiration
         (loathing every moment)
And promise loyalty
         (faked by hatred)

I’m so grateful for what you made me
         (a vile shattered soul)

You are like
  Grieg's "Morning Mood"
played in darkness.

You are like
  a sunrise marveled upon
a mountain peak.

You are like
  a warm fireplace
after a long winter walk.

You are all that's good.

I thought I would break,
but I became numb instead.

Wake
  Wash
    Eat
      Commute
        Work
          Eat
    ­    Work
      Commute
    Eat
  Wash
Sleep

Look around you
not with your eyes
but your heart.

Look beyond beauty
in sad and shy faces.

And then imagine
how they could blossom
if truly loved.

What a surprise
I fell in love again

But this love is cruel
only a promise of pain

Knowing that I can
never give
never gain