Longing to be loved
Longing to be touched
Longing to be caressed
Longing to be held

Breathing to be alive
Breathing to be calmed
Breathing to be blessed
Breathing to be found

Permitting to be loved
Permitting to be touched
Permitting to be caressed
Permitting to be held

Knowing I was always loved
Knowing I was always touched
Knowing I was always caressed
Knowing I was always held

Accepting the experience of love
Accepting the experience of touch
Accepting the experience of caress
Accepting the experience of being held

We stop moving and become aware of movement within
Into and out of the expanse of the lungs
Into and out of the secret chambers of the  heart
Into and out of the organs of vitality
Into and out of the limbs through veins
To and fro the tailbone and skull

That which moves is love
That which sits to observe the movement is love
Love is all there is
Energy is all there is
Conscious of this flow the breath moves in
To be yielding to this energy of love
We may let go of that which is stagnant
May the repeated patterns say goodbye
To the incoming current of love and light
May there spring forth life miraculous
May we exchange this life giving love
One breath at a time, one pulse at time

Love's deep intention fulfilled
My being carved out with care utmost
Love in vein  flows red colored
My desires took me far from love
Where I searched but not found

I searched all along with open eyes
I wandered from land to land
I skipped from object to object
I land here tired and out of breath
I hear the glug glug of  the flow

Here I am listening to the whisper
My heart was yearning for attention
My heart desired to be owned
By this prodigal son  of  no care
Alas how I wasted my time thus

Here I am listening with care
Thanking father for this love
The love that binds me at my heart
The love that runs in veins
Love's drops are colored red


Red is the color of love
Heart is the shape of love
How could I have missed the beat
That told me a million times
I LOVE thee now and forever

Emerging from emptiness
Enamored with gracefulness
Numerous  stars adorn the sky
Nestled in dark blanket of clouds

Over the distance, into the earth
On and on they keep vigilance
With each vibration and pulsation
For life transformed afresh

Interconnection of space and earth
Eternal beings cradled as earthlings
Nestled are these babies upon earth
Secret of innocence safely at heart

Born of stardust is this baby
Born tonight on Christmas Eve
Being born and being loved
Being seen and being heard

In my heart and in your heart
When, innocence thus cradled
Wisdom and delight unavoidable
Delight of distant stars quite audible

Be mindful when you feel sad
Be mindful when you feel joy
Begin to notice and allow it to be
Begin to wave at your thought as an observer

Experience the effect of past thoughts
Explain to self where they came from
Explore the inner drama
Explore the feelings that created the present

Gain knowledge of the vision
Grant it permission to be
Get them out of the closet
Get them to be in the sun outside

Inner wisdom has power
Intuition is what it is called
In it contain the seed of change
In to it thou, my dear self, settle in peace.

All things pass by quickly
Everything dissipates
Impermanence of all
In the moment, it is

Just a while and then not
Just this breath and then gone
I dream and then see not
I breathe and smell then I am

Let this breath keep me entertained
Let this breath be my friend
Let this breath be felt
Let this breath soothe me

I'm in this moment only
I'm in this breath only
I'm in this moment only
I'm in this breath only

Passed were the Nine decades
And four more years later
Numerous memories woven together
Mother lays on her bed

How much our lives have changed
And yet you, my mom, are my love
in wakefulness and in dreams
Frailty gives away  moans
Though you wished it not
A child in old age to your adult child
Your stubbornness makes me impatient at times
A child so bashful at scoldings
Feeding meals, washing her, kissing her to sleep
While lovingly hugging her,
I lay beside her and am thankful
For this chance that she gave me
To know her as the vulnerable child
Her inner child now exposed
Nothing else she would want than this comforting presence
You, my beloved mother, suckled me in my infancy
Washed me cupping water from a bucket
braided my hair and applied kajol in eyes
While I did not even understand the love you had for me
Unconditional was your love for me
While I lay beside you
I am comforted to be your comfort
For the time being

There is one gate of entry and exit
Entry through the nostrils, filling the lungs
Exit through the nostrils, emptying the lungs
Entering to energize every cell
Exiting, cleansing, every cell

Where the breath moves in and out
Felt in the rise and fall of abdomen
Felt in the expansion and contraction of muscles
Felt the flowing presence, even in stillness

Air moves in
Air moves around
Air passes by
Never the same in two  moments
Always Anew and always Here

Awareness is what observes
Awareness is what allows
Awareness is what accepts
To awareness, I offer this breath...

When I sit in silence with an intention
to touch my heart with love
I feel the heart pounding and welling up
within me creating space that is so vast

In the process, i come to this place of joyful creation
that which is created is nectar of love
it penetrates into my being so deep
connecting me to all that is, was and will be

this is the creation that i love the most
this i cannot find outside of me
this only i can create when i am in Him
thus must i sit with Him often

So that i will not be tempted by the food
of lesser value outside of me
But rather I will be the giver of this food
whose fulfillment it is to satisfy the hungry

When I stand where I stand I'm watching
When the other sits in perfect anonymity
Where would the frequencies of I and the other
Where would they meet if left to wither

All this neglect directs attention inward
All vitality at its best is inwardly kept
All my days are thus inwardly turned
All the sages and mystics bowed to

We sit here in silence with our acceptance
We  keep company to each other's presence
We  actively connected in contemplation
We  the neglected sages of time immemorial

We are waves of energy streaming
Ceaselessly through eternity
Shape we take today is short-lived

We are clever in discovering this place
To enter we take a form
And hold it long enough
To experience a realm of mankind

We are forever creating realms
In which we experience
All that God can BE
And playing helpless
In the realms of our choice.

So Clever is the plan
To Suffer is part of this plan
Once realized, one is freed into
Realm-less vastness and lost
In the pool of Oneness

What the old advice the New
Is of traditions and habits
Laws and prejudices
Sorrows and disappointments

What the New wish to hear
Is of fresh attitude
Healthy ways of being
Separated from anxiety
Welcoming new horizons

Moving with All that Is
In good understanding
That nothing is here forever
And to focus on
That which lasts forever....

penning what feels at the moment
with the limited skill with words
to release the pressure built up inside
to embrace the softness that remains....

Dough making
with flour and water
Salt and butter
Calls for kneading
In ritualistic candor
As parts come together
To an irreversible matter

The soft cushion of dough
between the palm and the bowl
pliable with every push and shove
stretched and compressed
In sheepish conformity


Blistered on  skillet
Puffed up to a chapati
Heavens thanked with each bite
For flat bread with savory curry
Fills nostrils with soft aromas-
Relished as heaven on tongue-
One is contented of this flat bread

I have fought hard with Anxiety
Having been swung between
Two spheres of moods
One of melancholy and the other
Of excited elated optimism

Between the two
I would exhaust myself
Day and Night
And to deal with my emotions
Was no easy task

I would cry and weep
I would feel down
And blame myself
I would apologize
For being thus
I was not in my element
I tell
When I am fresh
I feel I have lagged behind
Due to missing things while at low

It has been one sad plight
For me to have come thus far
I am still hopeful of a day
When I have overcome
These swinging moods
I hope to keep a positive
Spirit that enables me
To act constructively
When I can't be constructive
I would just start affirm
That I am more
Than I think I am
Then I start
To work like I have been
Able bodied and able minded
Sitting here
jotting down makes it all come
to view. Affirm and believe
that is what i do now
to be better each day

I am responsible
I am reliable
I ma resourceful
I am resilient

i am healthy; i am lucky ; i am virtuous; i am organized

I feel the energy when I say these
I act different when I say these
I have faith surging into my veins
From somewhere or nowhere
I create, I cook, I clean, I write,
I eat, I make tea, I feed my family
I pray, I meditate, I am not overwhelmed
i am a wonderful person
When I affirm
I can live with this person
She is good to me
She thinks highly of me
She attracts nice friends to her
She is just pleasant to be around
She is someone I could love forever
She is my friend and hero
She is my superstar and confidant
She is all I need to keep me
Close to the Creator
I love her
I love me
I love the positive me
I love the quiet me
I love the peaceful me
I love the loving me
I love the lovable me
i love all that she could be
I love all that she gave up for me
I love her day and night
I love being with her all my life
I need noone but her
I need nothing but her love
I need nothing but her assurance
I need only her
She and I
We are one and the same
We play and plan together
We are best friends
We create our good times
We are the joy of the world
We are the gift to the world
Together we conquer
Together we let go
Together we enjoy the ocean
Together we go places
Together we are I and myself

tangy taste of pickle
with hot white fluffy rice
from your  rice cooker

Speak up is what poets do
Speed up attention  
To a matter of Concern
With all honesty

Unknown ears open
To reflect in accord
Along with the poet
On atrocities weighing down
On a human heart

Poet is restless until
All perceptions are penned
Only to feel empty and alone
With his own thoughts

Solitude fills the cup
Of the parched Sonnetist
Once again to compose
Percetptions of his mind

Speak up is what poets do
Speed up attention  
To a matter of Concern
With all honesty

Unknown ears open
To reflect in accord
Along with the poet
of atrocities weighing down
on a human heart

When it hits you
You are awakened
From your inertia
Into the Conflict of variance

Scornful words travel fast
Along fury's roller coaster

Saved by neuro-plasticity are we the humanity
From limited to embracing unlimited self
With renewed awareness and shifting perception
We arrive effortlessly into the Promised Land

Unveiling true identity
comes after much suffering
What is true
cannot but hide forever

The veil protects the lamb
From being caught off-guard
The veil of name,
place, fortune and fame.

The veil keeps identity hidden
Till the lamb is ready to bare
Bare it does, in due time
For the purpose is known
To the lamb of innocent care

unveiling true identity
comes after much suffering
What is true
cannot but hide forever

The veil protects the lamb
From being caught off-guard
The veil of name,
place, fortune and fame.

Conscious  and subconscious constantly
Enter into conversation about the duality
Duality sets up the stage of time
Pretends to have a space to  be contained

Subconscious was recording from birth
To play it over and over and to make sense
Leaving no room for the Conscious to arise
Record played out and tested for reactions

Consciousness was observing while the other busied itself
When confronted with limited-ness
Subconscious turns to the Conscious
For asking, seeking and knocking

Now now my child why would you be worrying
It was all a game set up by the children of time
There is really no time and there is no duality
Let go of the recording but keep the knowledge

The knowledge will be food for you till
All merge into one where there will be
No external but only internal movement
And we drop the idea that we were separate

Relative are relations
Relations evolve over time
Relations permeate into other relations
Relations relative to the relations

Fleeting are these relations
Life giving are these relations
Eye opening are these relations
Knowing of self through these relations

Ask questions in relations
Seek meaning in relations
View discerning in relations
Enter into communion in relations

Maintain relations with honor
Modify relations when there is dishonor
Marvel at relations when they teach
Magnify the self knowing through relations

Constructive or Destructive are the interference
Depending on the time lapse between the ripples
Meet they to communicate through vibration
Vibration from one differs in frequency
To that of another....

Feelings make ripples of energy
Of varying wavelength and frequency
And to hide it all we use the numbing technique
Language comes along to help hide feelings

Why oh why would we use so much language
When we can read each other through the vibrations
We just have to prolong this journey of unknowing
By pretending to know it all we fool ourselves

Taking moments to learn the language of silence
I must surrender the desire to know it all
In that silence the fog is lifted to make known
What the frequency is telling me in the now
It tells me that I am the frequency with which
God makes music and with which God loves

May I observe the energy of the ripples
Sitting in silence by the riverside
May I throw in a stone or two
To observe the ripples and think of
The ripples that are countless around me
Making music and making love with each other

Throughout the day they chime
Telephone off the hook ring
one eight hundred calls are frequent
Unknown names appear periodically

Despite my number being unlisted
The owner decides to tell it straight
And it goes on nevertheless
To make him do the ultimate

Would pull the plug for fear of
draining the brain from restating
All that have been stated far too often
And that's the best choice to remain calm

This pulling plug thing works great
As the answering machine would not pick up
The intruder's voice thus stopped
Before it had a chance to irk

Throughout the day they chime
Telephone off the hook ring
one eight hundred calls are frequent
Unknown names appear periodically

Awareness is primary condition to driving a vehicle
Without it one may not even see what is before the eyes
With it I was saved today for my inner driver was aware
Aware of what grace it is to be mindful

Happy to have been given another chance
Happy to lay this life for the inner traveler
For it is for Thee I was born and cared for
For it is to Thee I will live from now on

I am valued not by me but by Thee
More than I can ever be thankful for
I am not able to see the vastness
Ever more indebted to Thy providence

I am but only a traveler
Wearing the body that is not mine
Rejoicing in all that is borrowed from Thee
Returning it all to Thee with reverence

Breathe in they say
Be in your body they say
Breathe out they say
Become the beholder they say

I do all these
I notice some tingling in cells
I feel I am in the moment
I feel the body in the present

To be inspired
To be present
To feel with the wind
To feel with all that is around


New insights I never had before
New cracks in the walls opening
Had I never been in the  moment
I would have been morose

How may we come to the ocean of eternity
I have been feeling stagnant for decades
Creating the same old same old over and over
As if addicted to old feelings and emotions
Stronger ones are my favorites to cling onto
As they are beckoning to be kept with me

How I wish to change this reality
I have been creating with my clingy feelings
For reinventing the wheel over and over
Better thoughts may create better reality
As I sit here to meditate with this new me

I am letting the old emotions replace new ones
And mindfully greet each one to feel what they bring
And the breath of awareness brings in new insight
Into the sensations of the body and how I can create
That which I want being fully present in the here and now.

May my old feelings be willing to be transformed
For a savory and more satisfying feeling
I stand here in the here and now hoping
All my moments will be in the here and now
And that all my moments are filled with awe and wonder

Seven has followed me all along
Seven loves unrolling to reveal
Seven  doesn't leave my body
Seven doesn't leave my soul

Seven energy centers
Seven blocks of the centers
Seven virtues that open them
Seven times seventy opportunities

Contemplating on Seven
Complete surrender comes
Carrying this forward
Caring to uphold the lessons

Seven, from you I may yet learn
Seven, it is to you I owe
Seventy times Seven expanded
Serene is the understanding

When there is lack of desire to meet with people face to face
Facebook is a fast and easy hideout
For those who want to pretend to be connected
Many are those who post, like and comment
Feeling emptier after each post, like and comment

Choosing to read, write and walk
Pleasanter the heart after each act
Of smile, talk and embrace
Longing for the time I am free
To smile, talk and embrace

Many a time I catch myself
Being vexed by someone
Who gets under my skin
I can't let it go unnoticed
Brushing it under the carpet
Has never been my style
I think of how I might
Get rid of that feeling
Without having to bruise

After years of experimenting
I have come to realize
That it is coming from within me
As I have had some unresolved issue
That needed to be looked at
In objective contemplation
When I or someone close to me
Have done the same to others
I moved on without correcting

As age progresses, I wish
I would come out clean
From all that I have passed
Having asked pardon
Or having prayed for one
Who was irksome without knowing

This awareness puts me at ease
With new experiences,
As each a tool for a better conscience-
I could just pray for that someone
When s/he too doesn't know
What s/he is doing
Or even when known
Didn't know how to correct

My fruitful moments are spent thus
In praying for friends and foes alike
As the friend of today could have been
A foe in the past
And the foe in the present
Could very well be
A friend in the future
Regardless of the friend/foe
Dynamic, I would beseech
As it puts my mind at ease
With all that IS, making me wonder,
Have I moved on to becoming
Wiser through my vexations?

How I remember so fondly of those days
Days of old when my father was younger
And I just a child filled with innocence
Full of wonder about the meaning of life

One assurance I remember having
Of providence from Source of all sources
From regular chanting that rose in the evening
In every home in the hood, including mine

My father worked with men in hamlet
To discuss the building of a Chapel
Chapel where Saint Joseph Honored
Whose name my father carried
Same as the surname I carried proudly

There are those who terrorize
There are those victims
There are those who ignore
There are those who love less

If more people loved
If more people awoke
The terrorists will put down weapon
The victims will shift pattern

What are we waiting for
We have this moment
To send a thought
To send a prayer

To end this madness
To end this dual
That blinded humanity
To not see within the divinity

What do I do with a thought
That keeps me stuck
At one place in particular
I move to pluck

"Nay"..says the Self
Just let it swing by
"observe" says the self
What follows is just another

Thought train
continues one by one
As I observe in sitting

Why this relentless march
of thoughts swinging by
When i could just be
Making some music

I start to hum and thoughts
evaporate like yesterdays ghosts
for here I am cooking up new
experiences for a happier me

Let thoughts fly by
For they are not you
you are not your thoughts
You are the creator
Of harmonious balance

T ransfer of persons and things from place to place
R oads long and wide  either straight or winding
A djusting to those who share along distance
F aster to slower when urged to meandering

F aster again when on wide road of grace
F idgeting with the radio to relieve boredom
I gnition is running yet ignored at once
C onvinced to arrive at someplace, but not HERE.

This road that leads to Calvary
Where I will surrender to Crucifixion
A path that only lets me know of my pain
A path that lets me know of my shame
Scorned by those who stand by
Though they know not they too
Are being led to the same Crucifixion

Thus is the plight of man who is here
To live here as if this is eternity
Man's divinity is slaughtered here
Where there is no grasp of the fullness
The fullness to which man is called


Man is called to break the shell
And be stripped of his limited-ness
To enter into the vastness beyond the shell
Where he would reign as prince
In the presence of his Father

In this land of sorrows and jealousy
Caused by feeling limited
Scarcity is the temptation
To hold on to the valueless
To grab more of the valueless

While that which of value
Beckons one to courageously
Walk out into the glory
Though it may look gory
To viewers along the road to Calvary

Calvary is where I must set up my  altar
Altar where I sacrifice
This limited self for it no longer serves
The purpose for which I am called

For yet another autumn marking a new cycle
Foliage that once decked the tall oak and maple
Downed in breeze, embracing mother's *****
Delighted earth  sense their tender embrace

For man that owned the trees with foliage
Man of might thinks of getting his gadget
To gather the lovely but messy leaves
To bag them and send them out of sight

Tedious is the task in the cool brisk air
For he knows not what they spake to him
Had he just listened, he would forget himself
In their language of love and acceptance

Alas the split between two worlds ripping
At the heart of man and  his foothold
Will one you let go and let the other be
Without having to lose the love between all

It is for that day that I long for
I die here having nothing to eat
For I know not how to survive
Having lost in thoughts of earth and man

Will I wither like the leaf and be happy
to be laid down on my earth's *****
when my time is here to embrace
Mine own mother from whom I came

Dust into flesh and blood was formed
To be human with veins and vessels
Muscles and movements
Mind and brain that took me far

Far from presence and the present
Far into the wilderness  of human jungle
Rather than be here and the now
Rather than be with my mother and yours

To be reborn or to be put to rest
Unconcerned of what may come next
For having complete trust it is for best
So let it all be in the breath of the moment

Why I can't hold it back
Why do I have to lash out
Why this lack of self-control
Why suffer from such outbursts

Why not do unto others
As you want others to do unto you
Why this soul cannot love other
For all here are one

Feeling alone and aloof
Due to outbursts
That others cannot
Live with in this short life

Why not make it easy
For self and for others
Why not just exist
Without protesting
And reacting

Don't know why
Have been this way
When Will Be the change
Possible for Me to
Feel one with others

It will happen soon
As soon as I start
Thinking I am you
And you  are me

Hoping in possibilities
Of new perceptions
Replacing old ones
For a better tomorrow

No medicine ever made
Can come anywhere near
The healing power of vibration
Vibration from movement, light, sound

Heal thus through vibration
Heal through chanting
Heal through rhythmic movement
Heal through being in the light

Heal also in the night's darkness
Heal with water as you wash away
Heal from touch sensations
Heal from within and without

No medicine can heal a mind
That limits itself
Noticing the limiting belief
Allows room for new resonance

Let there be noticing
Let there be awareness
Let there be awakening
Let there be a vibrational resonance

In this moment may you heal
In this awareness may you rest
In this knowing may you be at peace
In this breath may there be awakening

Leaves crunch like chips
Stepping on those dry brown leaves
Passers-by waving

It takes a lifetime to unlearn
The half true stories I believed
By the time I learn
It is already past decades

Discerning discerning discerning
Asking questions about the untruths
That tug at my heart...


Freedom is my birthright
It was my belief that blinded me
This I did not know until...

I turn around to my heart
To have an intimate moment
With my one true friend
In it I  find freedom

It's adequate to discern what you feel
Have been proven thus by ages
Let it all flow through your pen
Without restraint, they must flow
When You're done letting out
The last of the fear, sorrow n guilt
You will know that it was well worth
You no longer brood on the same
As it has become a thing of the past
And you have new emotions
Waiting to be expressed
With intuition running deeper
Making you proud
Of growing more conscious of self
May all your feelings find a word or two
To wrap around
While resting in time capsule
Leaving you poised
With clarity of thought
One stride at a time