i will
wake up
when those
with blood
under their
fingernails
stop telling
me
to wash
my hands

she was like a thread-bare
cotton sweater; she needed to be turned  inside//out when w:ash*ed.

I'd be consoled
for rain to fall on my face
because right now
I feel nothing
about anything

Soaking wet
in a rainstorm
might wash me clean
and maybe tomorrow
I’ll feel again

I walk in to the fridge of winter
Where it is always cold
Moist air expelled
Vapour,
Mist,
Icicles,
They form frozen in air
Till they realise gravity,
Then they fall to the floor
~~~~~~I I~~~~~~
I I
I I
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Like bullet holes in snow,
The wind ages my bones
As it cuts through me,
My soul,
Is in suspended animation,
Numbed to the core
Not able to escape this bitter cold
Frozen,
Coated,
White,
Death is all around,
Anything with moisture frozen in time
Branches split like a broken bone
Never to heal in this hell of white,
I am in this nightmare
Reflecting light
Glaring,
Polished,
Blinding,
My sight, like a white washed picture
Everything is coated
I am lost in an ocean that never moves
For if I fall, the white will erase me
**Like a blanket of death.

Wash my soul Oh beautiful spring!
Wash it away of its stains
How I long and wish to be made clean
and how I wish to be sane

For Thou art purity and
For in you is tranquillity
For in you is my peace of mind.

Wash my soul Oh beautiful spring
Wash it away of its stains
Lord I know not what to say
and the only way I know,
is YOUR Way of Life.

I look to you with eyes thirsting
That you should know me this deep!
More than human, more than evil
Two sides of the same coin, I can be.

How far I walked away from the one who did care.
and wandered beyond darkened shores.
Where only grief and despair would claw against my soul.
A dead end, a drop and not a hope for sure.

I immerse my brokenness in your sway
and confess my grief so deep.
Oh cover me with your tender love
and help me to sleep.

Oh how, deeply I mourn this separation
What did I do! that I should not have done?
And you ne’r a word did say
Only looking at me with soulful eyes
To say “I do care”.

But once in your embrace Oh Life
Not a care shall worry me.
For my past behind you make me leave
and give me the treat of a Life.
I float in your magical embrace
and lifted high I rejoice

I had once blocked your love through sin
And you swept away my shame.
Now flow through me Oh Living Waters
and wash me in your wave
For I shall be made all clean
and you shall wash away my stains.

You give me a chance to renew and replenish
and with your love you set me anew.
Oh radiate in me Live Living Waters
For your love, to shine through me

A life so clean and washed and blessed
I shall find in your deepest crest.
When made clean by the spring of life
I shall come to rest at shores divine.