another day another wallowing moment
in this unfamiliar skin
searching for the component
that feels missing deep within

another hour another feeling
how they change so quickly
my back tied to the ceiling
lack of control making my stomach feel sickly

another minute another headache
come and go in a blink
I pray that they stop for my sake
too tired to even think

another second another toll
on my head filled with words
needing something plentiful for the soul
ears longing for the sweet tunes of songbirds

the pain beneath my eyes
showing the purple and blue taint
my mind up till sunrise
wearing my exhaustion like a canvas wears paint


© L.F.

Our clocks where seconds apart,
  but within those moments..

        We never really caught
                                   that instant,


when we chimed in
                           synchronicity.


And what had felt like hands near
                                        each other.,

had woefully drifted ever further apart.

Why can't i just sleep without dreams
And not dream about you for a night
I don't want to die
Nor do we want to live
Live for those scarse seconds
Of absolute happiness
But I feel nothing
And When This feels
I feel you
And i'm still not supposed to

Every 40 seconds
someone in the world dies of suicide

Every 41 seconds
someone is left to make sense of it

For a little while,
I will let you haunt my dreams
all days and nights

For a little while,
let me take a look at you
and see what's hidden behind your sweetest smile

For a little while,
let me use every seconds that passes
and
let us be what we think we are

-Wonderwall-

halloween is for being something that you aren’t—

this year i’m going to be happy.

i made this in seconds
i felt these before
i type and write and type and write
iv'e felt this way before
when all i can do is creative away
the pain right away
raw
coming from the side walls of my heart
raw
something meaningful and powerful
to me
to we
to us
later on in life