Desert Dog


Lying in the sun like a desert dog;
I have a glass in one hand and my lover in the other.
Hand in hand we lie here, telling truths under the sun.
So peaceful here, like it has been for years;
How things change with time, but never my lover.


She remains at the very centre of my gargantuan heart;
She has always been here and I hope here she stays.
Her words are like flames that caress my soul in the dark.
We have no need for words in this moment,
Because we are happy here, at a quarter to midday.
Summer is still my favourite time;
I hate the cold, I love this love life!


Broken into pieces are the daydreams of peace that I had;
I said what I said, there ain’t no turning back.
Live a life so full of regrets;
Never do a single thing that I have ever said.
Procrastinate, every single day;
Everything I say is only ever said in jest.


“Less is more”; her smile has disappeared from her face.
We are no longer laughing together because of our liquid state.
I will have to sell my soul to her, to pave the way,
To healing her mood and seeing her smile once again.


Burning in the sun over there is a memory,
I lost a vital piece of my empathy.
Love could die, given enough time;
Lest we forget that it is all on the line.


So passionate about her, but so drunk on stupidity.
She is the one who I love; now she will not speak to me.
No melody can exist inside this mind,
Without her to assemble,
These jagged edged pieces of a damaged rhyme.
Put us back together with a happier time…

I spilt her wine…
And Everything…
Is not…
Alright.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

i’ve never felt l so cruel in my life
i know it’s not fully my fault
for that person to leave..
she was nice and good but my parents didn’t like her
and i nagged a-bit about her with my parents too and now i regret it
i complained about the unnecessary things but that’s wrong cause no one can be perfect to anyone
yesterday she came crying to me cause mom scram at her
it’s not fair
not at all
she came crying telling me how its her life and her children’s life that she’s working for
and she’s been respecting the house and the members as hard as she could
and she said how she doesn’t know what she did wrong
imagine not knowing what you did and even if you didn’t do anything wrong.. people still blame you
and then she left.. was obliged too
she liked this house
unlike others
and a smile has been shown on her face
after years of not feeling that happiness
she left
and now i blame myself
for not standing up for her
not helping her
she needed it
and now she’s left off thinking
why no one liked me
why am i left
just like all other times
and not knowing why

"Have you made the right ones?"
The greatest enemy to your mind is the forever existing question that remains and will never be answered.

As broken he was
A burning flame resided still
he smiled vaguely
Burning bridges momentarily wondering why.
Why were these built in the first place.

When I first met you
it was
through an.... open door
But I'm not so sure
that I'm
welcome here ...no more
So i ....
Im gonna say goodbye

Don't get me wrong
Its not to say
We didn't  have some fun
It just seems to be
that those ....days... are done

And so ... can not  say
That  we  both ...
....didn't know
Once  the minutes ....
....and the days
had began to move ......so slow
And i could tell ...you too
Knew....That it wasnt how
It    was    before

So for all the lonely time
I will now have
I can  say without regret
That I've been paid in full
As i hope you can say
That you
As well ...have good memories
You can retain
When its all  over and done
memories will echo
Those sad refrains as silence reigns
Because I've been there
I know just how it feels
I know .....just how bad it feels

And its never easy ...never
Never ever easy

When i first met you
it was .. like
stepping through
an open door
So now ..I'm leaving
but by a different way
So not to spoil
The way it began
back then .....when
You first let me in

But i cannot or will not pretend
That I don't know
It never ever really ends

So even though
We both know
That of late it has all ..
mostly been just for show
Just for show

I leave out by the back door now
So gently do I pull it closed behind me
Dont want a scene or any slamming doors
TO REMIND ME!
It had its time and had run its course
There's no denying that as  i depart
I carry pain in my heart
and heavy weight of remorse
Upon my back

I know someday it will ease
into a back corner of my mind
But i also know that days will
Will not be coming soon when ill find
It weighs less and less each passing day
But i will also be aware that while
I will have begun to seek a happier tune
For my empty core after i find my  smile

Now that I've walked a thousand yards
I turn back to wave goodbye to what once was
The shades are drawn and its all dark inside
So though i am not sneaking away and we
In silent conversation we said all we needed to say
Yesterday
Yesterday we agreed but today i realize my leaving
Has hurt your pride  ... has really hurt your pride
I know I know i know I know I know we both drowned
Through the night and all the tears we each cried
So i do i do know just how it feels as i have been  here
Been here so many times before and its never ever been easy
And it never will ..never will ...i know from so many times before


But when we first met ..it was like i was...
....walking through an open door .
.a door like no other ...i had ever
walked through before and thats why i left my keys
on the kitchen table
Along with my last smile .....at least........
My last one ..... for a long..... long while !