Tantalize, tantalize,
Divert my eyes,
Say nothing, walk away,
Don't look back with running salt.
That's my lot in life.
My health and safety act.
Not a peripheral look,
Not a squint, no mirrors.
No looking back.
No regrets.
Forward.

I drown in you.


Opposites attract.  I like that.
I wouldn’t want you to be just like me,
With my insecurities, my doubt, my thoughts,
My clouded apathy.


My heart is on fire and you the water soul,
Are consistently changing from young to old,
To fearlessly fearful, to wise beyond your years,
To insecure about who you are and who you could be,
From laughter, to tears.
I see it all in you and you don’t need to speak a word.
You soul speaks volumes; your eyes have been heard.


If I were to speak my mind, there would be no turning back,
But your secret smile gives me hope, there are words beneath.
I only want one of the single ladies, can I not have that?
Love, you are driving me crazy!  Let love kiss me, with teeth.
Do I want her?  Yes!  Does she want me?  I don’t know!
Do I love her?  I haven’t got a clue!  In a moment you will go,
But we do have this moment and I am at peace in your Zen garden.
Promise me your love, so I can try to be your Prince Charming,
And our fairytale story can begin,
Where all the other mysteries have reached their end.


She could say no and I would be devastated;
Or even worse she could say yes and I would be elated!
And then the fall would break every nerve in my body.
I want to be someone, to somebody.
I have so much work yet to do to clean up this mess.
The thousands of thoughts,
That run constantly through my labyrinth head.
Love is a bubble; love-life so much trouble.
Oh strife!  What will become of fair Juliet?
Will it be that I can only fondly look back through tears of regret,
When I am laying on my deathbed?
Or could it be, that she could be, the one I need to set me free?


It’s just three little words, how hard can it be?
“I like you.”  I wonder if she likes me.
You have no idea what I am putting myself through,
Jumping hoop after hoop, my one direction is you.
You are yet to break my heart,
And yet to laugh in my face,
So I will continue to dream,
Even though my head and heart are all over the place.


My words?
Well my words are just my Gods honest truth.
I will swear on a bible if you ask me to.
It will not burn; I am not yet your sin.
Allow me to become your angel,
And we can find our kink.


You are the warm ice I need to cool myself down.
A cold shower does not work, because at some point I have to get out.
She is the rain that falls down upon me from every silver-lined cloud.
She is the night that covers my eyes,
And engulfed in her ways…I drown.


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I find it funny that the power of prayer is something you believed in
Now you can’t even look up to heaven to ask for forgiveness
The devil put you in a bad place - I wish I could be your voice of reason
But the truth is you have to make that decision

The times we had together are just faded memories
Time will tell how things stack up for you and for me
I’m glad we lived and laughed and loved at times
But change is constant and we each wanted different lives

Life ain’t easy - so I sleep with my regrets
Time is fleeting but you still find God hard to digest
I remember a time where you used to love God
I remember a season where prayed and felt delivered  

The person you are today is not the person you were meant to be
I’m not saying I know everything, but I’ll comment on what I see
You messed around with depression now it’s got you feeling empty
It’s sad for me to see you as a child of God who lost their identity

I pray for you that you would let God heal your heart
I was in the same boat as you but God’s grace pulled me out
The water only seems to get deeper the more you fight
But if you let God rule in your heart he’ll shine and you’ll be bright… again…

Regrets are gambles you’ve taken that didn’t pay off.
I’ve gambled a lot in life and lost.
I put my chips on money instead of love. I’ve got the cash and she walked off.
I once took a hand of selfishness over a hand of time with a loving mother.
Now I’ve laid that loving mother to rest.
Regrets are gambles that didn’t pay off but don’t go bust on love

Maybe he wasn't meant for you
but as the longing of being with someone
consumes your mind
you are forced to be with someone
who doesn't know your worth
nor the definition of "Worth"

She never said it was gone it just faded like a sunset and the light hasn't crept in yet.
Where did it go?
Was it the pill's the drinks or maybe a combination
of something we never cared to recall?

I walk towards the end as you simply walked away.

Nothing holds you better than the regrets through yet another empty hours night .
You drink to forget then you just somehow forget to stop .

Watch one to many a sunrise then repeat the cycle till one day your no longer here .

I'm not in denial of the truth I embrace it as once I did you .
And now I wait where others choose to live .

Catching a buzz and a one night stand in-between .
Painting the pictures that write the page in regrets and dead end streets it all goes to **** eventually why not have a smoke before the fires of your personal demons consume you .

I never cared for conversation's much to begin with .


And now I find little reason to disturb the silence to simply hear my own words spoken aloud .

It's definitely half empty in this case but at least it was a hundred proof  to begin with .

Never ******* yourself it was always a gamble from the start.

-“Tell me a secret”
-I love you. “I don’t have any.”

I've told this lie before.
Every time, you believed me.