do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. for someone like myself will kiss you at all of the most beautiful places in the world, just like art galleries, beaches, and sanctuaries, because then you will never be able to visit such places again without having the taste of blood lingering in your lips.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. if it takes remembering your name among the lonesome souls, i would forget my own if it means remembering yours. i will make you believe that storms are peaceful and that suffering is a pleasure. you will be swept away by the yearning in craving over something that is consistently reaching but never ready to hold you.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone who is similar to me. with someone who are reminiscent like me, i will wreck your home and hurl apologies at you, which will break apart on the floor and hurt you when you walk on them. i will come to fret about having loved you so passionately. i will always be regretful that i gave it my all without stopping to consider that i was becoming increasingly hurting so bad and exhausted. i will always be sorry that i let myself be fooled by the illusion of your love.
do not let yourself fall in love with someone that obviously acts like me—loves like me for the reason that they are all ghosts from the pieces you broke in me. keeping your safe distance from someone like me is not something you should consider doing. people like me are time bombs; when my mission is complete, i will spatter sorrow all over your walls in violent hues that would let you regret your door had never known my name. i'll never master the art of being gentle. despite the weight of our shared history, i would not be flushed away by the chapter of our repressed memories. you will never be free of the shadows you left behind. and the ghosts will forever haunt you.
humans will always find a way to end things and leave. we always do.
and when i am gone, you will fully understand the reason why storms are named after humans.
you can find someone as the same person you used to love from your past
Is there a feeling worse than regret? Knowing you’ve done something against yourself and only you are to blame? What’s more poisonous than being able to live and relive the events of the past? Than being able to see the rippling effects your actions have? I cannot imagine anything worse Than to be stuck in my own body Than to experience myself so intensely Knowing what I did Knowing who I hurt. I cannot imagine anything more frustrating Than making mistakes and then knowing How I could have done better and Realising the limits of my own cognition And the stupidity of my own ego.
I ask myself why But the question only drives me mad. I spit at my own reflection and Cower into a corner and long for A few seconds of non-existence. I am ugly, Ugly in the soul, Ugly in the bone, And no These mistakes are not normal. How can I be my own victim and perpetrator so easily? And then wake up with dread that I’m not necessarily safe for myself? I am stuck. I did know better But I didn’t do any better, So what the actual f*ck?!
Let me support you , while you hang from the cliff edge . Let me congratulate you on destroying every past thing said . As if it meant nothing from the start . Creating misery across life, like it was art . Who knew you'd go that far . But guess what , I'm still here . How do you explain away the scars ? Do your stories , only match the ones You deemed greater then us ? Do you give their life pain with the feelings of distrust? So why only me Love ?
It was so beautiful Like we've known each other I wanted to hold your hand But, of course I couldn't
I just wanted to hold you Wanted to embrace, Wanted to touch your face Feel the heat of your skin Hear the beat of your heart Ready to be teared apart But, of course I couldn't
I was so close, so close to do, to do all of this! Was so close to you, so close to lean and kiss your lips! Wish I could, how I wish I did! I asked myself, right said should left said shouldn't And of course, I just couldn't...