I am trying not to blame you
For what you cannot change
You are more than a paper doll
With pieces to pick, pull apart, and exchange
Your words are smooth satin
Can't help but suspect your nonchalance
Know I can be standoffish
It's simply an automatic response
Patterns I am used to
Behavior I am around
Have me guarded for great reason
Heartache all I have ever found
It is not your fault you hurt me
Instead it's mine for expecting you to keep
Promises when you have shown before
You will only break them and make me weep
No noticable change in behavior
Don't know why I'm surprised
Don't know why I thought anything would be different
Need to accept a future of secrets and lies
I meet new obstacles daily
Alibis I have to chop down
I think I've finally given up
Only a matter of time til I drown
Weeks passed since any bliss touched our lives
With each day that goes by we deepen the space
Driving ourselves insane with obsession
Madly in love with you, but you only love the chase
A game of tug-o'-war neither can win
Love has us struggling to get along and agree
It is time to realize I'll never change you
Just like you cannot change me
Have you ever had an ex boyfriend you wanted to "ex"-change? Hahaha.