You're the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of when I go to sleep. I felt my self falling for you, and now my heart hurts. You are the sole person in my mind and the only one I want to go to, but I know you need your space to: 1. figure out you, and 2. get over me. I understand. However, this feeling doesn't feel like its going to dissipate. I know time heals all wounds, but as of right now... this wound feels like one time can't fix. It will in due time, but thats the scary thing about the future: I don't know when, and it is killing me. I have no idea what to do. Despite this, I will persevere. This is only temporary! I will move on without losing you. I will be my best self! I can **** it out there and so can you. I got this.

warm wood floors
worn smooth from years of work boots and light-up sneakers
the sun shines through the kitchen window
if I squint I can almost see my younger self sitting at the counter
trying on her high school graduation cap for the first time
In this moment I feel both older and younger than I ever have before
I close the door to my childhood bedroom for the last time,
and the ache in my chest pulses
but I know it will fade
the pictures are gone from the walls
but the memories remain
the love remains
most of it will follow to our new home
but some will remain here a while longer,
warming the space and recalling the lives it once held

who's so different now?
is it you or i?
who actually lost the person they knew?
was it i or you?

not quite a stranger yet
just someone i no longer know
best friends not two weeks back
it's funny how these things go

thought i'd never lose your love
at least, you told me so
but you needed to make your decision
and now i need to grow

After two years, I say hello

I've been fine, how about you?

Haven't seen you in so long. Have you grew?

I haven't missed you that much, you know.


It's been a while since we fell apart.

It's been a tough ride but that has gone.

Because the world will keep moving on.

And I have finally repaired my heart.


Have you met someone to be by your side?

I haven't but I'm sure you will!

Cause' you have that charm. A magnificent skill.

Invite me to your wedding when you get that bride!


I still think of you. Not as I used to though.

But as one of the best friends I've ever had.

Not as a lover but a fellow comrade.

Someone to walk with through tall snow.


And that's the end, I won't take your time.

But send a letter anytime!

you tell me things
I don't need to know,
sure yeah I'm over him
but I don't care about
knowing him anymore.
I've finally let go
I moved on
finally.
I know you guys are like family,
but him and I aren't.
after so long he's out
of my head.
Please don't bring him back,
my energy won't
be taken by him
anymore.
I made peace with our goodbye,
but that doesn't mean
I've fully healed

Dear Room,

You have been pink
You have been blue
And yellow, then pink again
I even drew Whinnie the poo

And now you're white
With one wall blue
And I have loved 15 years with you

Soon another little girl may burst in
With different color to choose
But I will always remember
That you were me, and I was you

it's september.
your eighteenth year,
already!

no, it's not 2016 anymore,
nor any year before this one.
you are safe.
it can't hurt you anymore,
they can't hurt you anymore.

their voices are so foggy and muted now,
look at that progress you made!
you're not breaking anymore because of that one day in math class
or the words they said.
look at that progress!
you haven't forgotten
but instead, you've wrapped all of it up in a blanket and held it tight close to you.
you are okay.

sailing it away was bittersweet.
it was all you knew but it's so far away now,
how can it help now?
it never did before.
let it go.

and now, the now, the present,
whatever you want to call it,
is Here,
it's now!
you're afraid,
oh, so afraid.
but hey!
you are okay.

the unknown isn't a dark tunnel anymore.
it's an open field with roads paved into them by people from before.
follow one or make your own.
either way,
you will be
okay.
remember that.

things hurt sometimes.
the rain get too much some days and your clothes feel heavy and your skin feels too tight again.
i see you hugging yourself when you're around people.
you're okay.
you've grown so much that you Know it's okay now to have bad days.
the storm leaves,
it always does,
remember?

you are light,
you are love
now.
you're great and okay and hopeful.
you are worth so much more than you think.
keep telling yourself all of this.

you are light,
you are love.
you can move on now.
don't be afraid.
i won't let go,
i will be here when you fall and i will be here when you fly.

so keep growing.
grow!
go!
move!
it's possible!
look at how big this world is!
grow and love and love and love
and
love.

now grow.