You found me dining with your demons.
I'd never meant to cheat on you.
You'd taken too long being timid
You'd gone to extra lengths to avoid me meeting your nearest and dearest.
You should have opened up to me,
Let me in.



His demons came to me.
They told me all the stories his lips didn't speak when they uttered "I Love you"
They told me heartbreaks that made me weep
and explained the ugly things in a way that rebirthed hem beautiful.
Surely, I  found myself running.
Running wild with his demons,
Hosting his imperfections without his consent.
Yes, I

We, them and I, became inseparable.
But till this day I believe;

The only thing uglier than the truth is my actions.
to be so bold as to elope, with his pretty little fears.

You are so secure, and you take
Advantage of that security, making me
Even more insecure. You aren't scared that
Maybe I’lll realize how well off I
Could be without you… because you
Know how utterly and entirely I have fallen
For your stupid smile and your pretty eyes
You pretend, but don't feel it
And I could easily just leave, making it easier on myself
But I won’t
Because
I ******* love you

Alas… i am broken
I am insecure
I am clingy and needy
I am self destructive
I lack a will to live
I am damaged goods…
And one person is to blame
-i blame you-

Your devious gossip purely insecure driven. Whats worse is people actually listen.

Your mouth spews forth a relentless chatter. Friend or foe, I’m quite certain the latter.

You believe that your inside my head. But I’ve faced the monsters under my bed.

You know I’ve dealt with your kind before. I’ll scrape you off and leave your **** at the door.


©

It's midnight and I'm really high,
just got back from anxiety's party
and now I'm full of insecurities
and I'm really scared to fly.

no.
she isn't the easiest girl to love.

she has this bad habit of overthinking, she tends to over react more than she should & she gets a little insecure every once in a while.

she'll be needy of all of your attention, she'll want to literally take up all of your time & she'll require a lot of reassurance.

if anything,
she is everything you wouldn't want in a girlfriend.

she isn't capable of fully trusting you, she doesn't know when to stop fighting with you even if she's wrong & she has no problem pushing you away if she feels you're close enough to hurt her.

loving her will stress you out, loving her will make you angry, loving her will break your heart at times, loving her will test you, loving her will challenge you and loving her will change you.

it may get so demanding that you'll be tempted to walk away, it may get so hard that you'll think about giving up, and it may get so complicated that you won't want to deal with her anymore.

loving her means you won't deal with her anymore. loving her means you get to see her at her worst and her most vulnerable times. that is something you'll have to be strong enough to handle because she needs someone who is patient enough to understand why she is who she is today.

it's not going to be an easy relationship with her. but if she is in love with you,then she can promise that you'll be loved with such passion and intensity that you'll forget what life felt like before she came along because she'll always be there to put your heart back together after breaking it.

maybe she's not the best at being loved,
but she is pretty amazing at loving.