i always thought youd come back to me
but it was me, who came back to you
i came back into your life
and the roles had reversed
you were no longer who i wanted,
and all you wanted was me
i told you no, i wasnt playing your games
this time i ghosted you
this time everything had changed
i want things to be normal, but they never will be.
and i just want to cry, i wish you never kissed me.
i wish you would have never pretended to like me, or care for me
because i could see on your face today that you clearly never did.
i just wish you never would have tried to.
it hurts so bad that i am starting to wish i had listened to the people telling me not to talk to you, two years ago.
i wish i could go back in time and undo it all and i am sure you do too..
You are so secure, and you take
Advantage of that security, making me
Even more insecure. You aren't scared that
Maybe I’lll realize how well off I
Could be without you… because you
Know how utterly and entirely I have fallen
For your stupid smile and your pretty eyes
You pretend, but don't feel it
And I could easily just leave, making it easier on myself
But I won’t
I ******* love you
Sometimes i wish..
I wish that I was interesting enough to make you stay. Make you want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you. I just wish I could make you care about me like I care about you.
I just wish I was ******* enough.
-i wrote this a month before you declared your independence
I say I don't like you
Try to convince myself the feelings are gone
Pretend to be okay with all of this
Then I watch you run
Your fingers through your hair
And my heart drops
And when the late night phone calls
I knew it was over
The words came out of your mouth
I've been thinking through every aspect of us
Thinking of everything I could have done differently
Every kiss, every hug, every touch
I should've done it more? Maybe less?
Should I have told you I loved you more? Less?
You say it is not my fault but I can not help but wonder
Is there something I could have done?
Something to make you stay?